dead

i csnt tell what is realx it wont stop. it wont let go of me. i cant stop crying. ive been crying since i left. im eorry. i shouldnt have done any of this. im sorry.

i csnt tell whsts rral. i shoukd removw myself. im sorry.

i keep forgwtting whrre i sm. im ao soery to my rrommste. i really hste this. plesse hust kill me bext time. please.

plleasr let go 8’m sso ry i ddint meqn to ddo that. please dont touvh me likr thst. i reslly don’r like it. pllease. pplease. ill so bettrr.

i ccsnt stop. im dribking and taking my sleeping meds tonight. if i stay uo late im going to hurt myself more. im sorry. im sorry im so fucking useless. km sorry im sk fucking scared and annoying. they abted me forr this and now yiu will hste me tioo. iNm sorey.

is it pathetic of me to blame myself for what clothes i wore? yes. will i stop? no.

i feel ao fucking gross. i should shower but if i do i’m going to make a mess of myself in there. maybe i’ll start on my right arm again. soemthing deep and noticeable. someone will have to ask. right?

already fucking ruining today too. ruining her day. being too fucking sensitive. i should just give her my stuff since i’m not going to need it.