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AN

LMAO so i don’t know much about feitan 😭 so my biggest fear is that this won’t be 100%. so apologies in advance if i butcher this. and i’m so sorry that this is kind of late and short :(. pls enjoy tho :)

WARNING

probably really terrible writing and inaccuracies 😕

Feitan knew that he’d be in big trouble with the Troupe if he continued to keep you a secret. He knew he was stronger than the majority of his “family” but no matter what, they track him down and harm whoever was dragging him away from Troupe work.

You knew Feitan growing up. When you both first met, it was hard to believe that there was at least one good thing about Meteor City. Feitan had made a friend outside the Phantom Troupe and you were head over heels for him immediately.

Then the Troupe got serious. They’d start traveling. They went from stealing to stealing, destroying, and killing. You didn’t approve of it but life in Meteor City was hard. But with Feitan, you were living in a fairy tale. But back to the main focus!

You were sitting in what you called your home. You were admiring a necklace Feitan had given to you (one he had stolen). You had heard your doorknob made a jiggly noise and there he was, Feitan standing at your doorframe. Ecstatic to see your lover, you jump up from your seat and run over to him. However, Feitan puts a hand out, signaling that he didn’t want to be touched (which was weird to you).

“Feitan...” Feitan sighs before opening his mouth. “I don’t have much time left. I wanted to say goodbye.” Your jaw slightly drops. “What?” your whisper. “The Troupe is getting bigger and better. We can’t continue whatever we have,” he explains. “We can find a way around this. I can join the Troupe and...” Your voice trails off when Feitan starts shaking his head.

“I’m sorry, Y/N. I...I love you. And I really wished we...we lived in a better place so that I could prove it to you,” Feitan says quietly.

You had no idea what he had just said. “Fei...Please, we can find a way around this. Don’t give me one of your silly excuses.” Feitan shakes his head and turns on his foot to leave. You watch as he walks away.

Like you’ll just be doing random stuff like cooking food or outside, etc and

Your brain thinks of your f/o and there’s a warm feeling in your chest and you get butterflies in your stomach

That’s such a great feeling!

ㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤ 🥢 Chainsaw Man ༶ ｡ ༊․

You guys are so dope! Absolutely and totally rad!

Self shippers with low empathy

Self shippers who struggle to form emotional connections with other people but are attached to their f/o(s) like a glove

Self shippers who have high apathy and aren't easily motivated

Self shippers who use their ships as a way to form meaningful relationships they'd otherwise wouldn't do/have trouble doing.

Self shippers who use their ships as a way to reflect how they wish they were around people irl

Emotions aren't easy. Understanding others isn't easy. Your f/o(s) know the struggles you've been through and face; but they're proud of the fact that you've managed to push past enough to be with them.

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