YO ITS THE GIANT

Silence absolute

I cant hear myself for once i cant hear you or anyone one else

I couldnt hear you

I cant hear myself

I cant hear the beauty anymore

Tyler said it right when he said “silence is violent”

I just cant take it

My breathes feel weighted like i am heavily sedated

Today was bad and it has gotten worse

The scars i have had all my life time began to hurt

I guess i am the problem

I am the issue

Its me to blame but i want to fix this so that problems are fixed

Maybe if i stop myself the hurting will stop too

Fuck it here i come

Im sorry mom and dad

Im sorry my little sister your daughter will never know her uncle

Im sorry bubba and sissy for putting you threw this

I am sorry

I am sorry for being myself because it wasnt good enough not for me or anyone else

Fuck a funeral just burn my body

Take the ashes and think that i could have made it. Fuck you and your fantasies for god sake just leave me alone

There was people that i wanted to let in but i guess my will to do that was to little

If i dont respond im dead

I hope that you know i tried

I fuckin hate myself and if your reading this im taking it im takin my one chance and doing it

Im fuckin scared but its my only way out.

i think this is a timely message these days

i feel this so much it hurts