hails storms and cries lakes of faith,

all against the orderly ways of the world at stake.

on the train of constant change, we board and hit the brakes.

give me time to rewind the video

i want to zoom in to breathe in the expressions

fig trees and grape vines, romances and summer nights

i’ll keep my promise and love you relentlessly, urgently, and carelessly—need be

you’ll keep your promise and think of me when you read a line about being free

I trust you more than the last one,

October left me memories that turned into scars

your words are now futile in glass, they echo

don’t wait for the moon to scribe, my darling

skipping meals is a sin, my darling

make sure to get some rest

i was awake when you were asleep, my darling

i was being crushed by a heavy load, my darling

i called because i was upset

you answered with no sound of regret

let’s pretend that all is fine,

i’m no longer who i used to be

i take walks on longer routes

i dress up and i dress down

i flash my camera and make no sounds

as i make my way towards the happy house

spring will come and you will see

i’m even better than i used to be

i don’t cry just as easily

i don’t spend my time weeping vividly

spring will come and you will see

Don’t look at her hair and want to touch it

Don’t smile back

And tell your heart not to flutter

If I was a girl that was just right, I would hold your hand and slowly walk with you at night

But I’m in my own waters, alone and dry

So go ahead and love another smile

Just know that I would have loved you harder