Far from average...

I was told I don't smile enough. It's not cause I'm not happy, I just don't want people thinking I fuck with them when I don't.

New hair who dis?

Drive you crazy cause you let me

We ended on bad terms so I figured it'd stay like that. I didn't expect you to show up after you had already quit. After our last argument over text, I thought you were over me and would just forget about me. You said that you view me no different from anyone else out of your 27 years of living, but I beg to differ. If that were true you would've left things how they were but you didn't. Instead, you purposely show up when I'm working to talk to me and apologize. What is going through your head? I know you love her but why do I matter so much to you? Why do I still think about you? Why do I miss you as much as I do? All these questions will remain unanswered unless I see you again. Something in my heart tells me I will. I'm glad we had our last intimate interaction and I'm probably going to keep that to myself because of all the shit I've already said about you. I'll probably never forget you and our friendship/relationship. It's funny people call you my ex and in some ways I see why. We argued nonstop and we shared things only certain people know about. I have so many great memories with you from our long talks in my car till 6 am to our 5 hour long text conversation. Whether we were in love or not, I just want to thank you for being you. Thank you for your friendship and thank you for showing me that I can fall in love again. Timing was off for both of us but maybe if things don't work out with her, you'll be able to find me wherever life takes me. Be safe Andrei

I ain't gon lie, I'm a lil shmezzzzed 🍷🍺#newyears #wesurvived2016 #nicetomeetyou2017

Tbh I didn't think we could pull this off lol #minireunion #class2011 #5yrslater

It's Monday, so let me post this typical dumb dog filter selfie #basicbetch #onetimefortheonetime

Halloween 2016 #esmeralda #scar #realfriends #12yearsstrong

I am nowhere near Cancun ready *shrugs* #goodbyesummer #hastaluego #ilookshortaf #itsokaythough

You were by my side through my hardest days this year and brought me comfort and company when I needed it the most. Happy #nationaldogday to my 70 lb little man.

I can't help but think about him. I'm so consumed at the idea of what could've been sometimes but it has gotten a lot better. It just bothers me how I still think about it at times. I thought I had found the one. He clearly wasn't the one considering that he couldn't just come and stay with me. He has always been so selfish so why is it that he still on my mind. I was so deeply in love with him and I based my world around him. I don't regret anything because I know I gave him all I could but it was never really enough it seems. No matter what I did it never changed the way he treated me and made me feel. Sure there'd be the occasional exchange of 'I love you' but it never really felt like he did. When one simply states that they do it doesn't really come across as being genuine because it was never shown to be proven true. A part of me will always remember you but I wish you were just completely out of my head. A part of me wishes you'd show your face around here just so I can physically hurt you the way you've emotionally damaged me. I know it's not healthy for me to feel this way and I also know this means I'm not completely healed from this heartbreak but I've never felt so close....