hey.. i haven’t posted in 70 days

felt so depressed today. i still got some homework done. made soup dragged myself for a walk but my nose ran the whole time spent probably hours and hours mindlessly on my phone watched some tv stared at the wall wrapped in a blanket. im playing with my rats right now. waiting to hear back about an xray but pebbles probably has an abdominal tumor. im so lonely here. i feel like the people im getting to know in my program don’t actually like me. moving to a new city where you know no one is really hard

why is it so hard to make friends like damn what is wrong with me i have had trouble making close friends since i was like 14

i want to continue my mad men rewatch but im doing it with Andrew and my ocd brain will not let me continue ahead of the episode we are on lmao.. but we watch the episodes so spaced out. it’s my comfort show 😔 miss her.

grad school is so stressful and it’s only been a week and I’m afraid I won’t make friends im already seeing a lot of people forming little groups and I really haven’t gotten that close to anyone except for meeting one person who is really nice !! but i do feel like it’s important to meet more ppl

Stil here.. just in grad school now lol