bad decisions !

‘ a– are you SURE… ?? ’ he replies hesitantly, he feels himself inching further and further away from her. ‘ f u c k… i knew this would be a mistake… ’ he groans, he runs his hands through his hair, struggling to look at arizona. ‘ yeah – of course you wouldn’t.’ he replies, slightly alarmed, feeling the sharp pangs of regret that he should’ve felt before. ‘ look, i should probably go & uh – let you sleep, yeah. ’

her consistent reminders that she was okay drove julian forward before he heard, ‘ i love you…. ’ and he paused, breaking away from arizona and sitting back up. ‘ wait … what – ?? ’ he replies, his hesitation finally taking over his drunkenness.  

despite the fact that this was not new to the two, julian felt a hesitation. he knew it was the alcohol mixed with perhaps other substances and the loss of his previous date that was fulling him to go further. these thoughts lingering at the back of his mind however, weren’t enough to break him away from her. his kisses trail down her neck to her torso, his fingers still entwined with her dark brown locks of hair. ‘ ari — are you 100% sure …. ’

something about julian’s giant ego made him think it was okay to jump from girl to girl, with his constant one night stands and his absence from home. considering how easy it was for him, he thought it best to not be with the one right in front of him – knowing that he would almost certainly hurt her. his arms curl around her back and tugs at the zipper of her dress as he delves into her kisses before he completely gives into his blurred state of mind and tosses over her as his lips make their way to her neck.

perhaps because they have been together since childhood, they don’t seem to care about how unconventional their relationship is and julian knows that he is lucky that arizona seems to sidestep the fact that he is deathly against commitment. his mind is foggy and he continues to ingest the wine, his head falls back onto the pillow as his hands crawl to arizona’s waist almost pulling her on top of him. ‘ ari ……. are you sure … ?? ’

somehow he had conveniently forgotten their previous fallout and was now relishing in the warmth of her skin against his chest. he knew that this was perhaps not the best idea and that they were both far too drunk to not regret this but his hazy state of mind keep him going. ‘ ari … ’ he mumbles, his fingers lost in the tussles of her hair before he finds his hands cupped around her face as he pulls her lips onto his own. he pulls her closer, not caring about the regret he knows he will feel in the morning or how this was probably fuelled by too much whiskey.

despite his better judgement, the large amount of alcohol and other substances he had ingested made his instincts fail him as his fingers grasped around arizona’s before following her onto her bed. he really was exhausted with their routine of constantly fighting , knowing full well that julian wasn’t in the mood to change his ways, no matter how much it upset her. ‘ i probably shouldn’t encourage this, ari – we’re both pretty drunk. ’

julian sighs, as he too was growing tired of their constant arguments. ‘ i don’t wanna’ fight anymore either. ’ he says, his fingers trailing through her hair as she rests her head on his chest. ‘ alright get us some drinks and we’ll just wind down for a while, okay, babe ? ’

‘ ari, you’ve been my best friend for my whole life – i just wanna protect you. you don’t have the best taste in guys. ’ he responds, in a lighter tone, his hand still grasped around hers, relishing in the feeling of her skin. julian takes no notice of his one night stand shamefully leaving their new home, his eyes still locked onto arizona. ‘ i know you’re not mine, but that doesn’t mean i don’t care about you. ’

‘ respect for what ?? honestly, ari – i don’t get what’s the problem are you tryna’ tell me i’m never allowed to bring girls home ?? maybe living together isn’t such a great idea then. ’ he bluntly replies, digging his hands into his pockets. his puzzled expression returns to his face as arizona chuckles and plants a kiss upon his lips. before she leaves he manages to get a hold of her hand, ‘ uh – guys ?? i think they’re not gunna be able to get through the door without a broken rib, ari. ’

‘ we weren’t gunna’ do anything while you were here – ari – we’re just … i don’t know… hanging out. ’ he gulps, slightly confused at his roommates despair to see him with another girl. ‘ what do you want from me ?? i’m not really sure why you’re so mad, we’re not together ? ’ he replies, brushing his hands through his hair, craving a cigarette and a drink.

a sharp pang reaches his chest, ‘julian’ and not the fond ‘ju’ he’s used to hearing come out of the brunette’s lips. ‘ what the fuck, ari ?? what would i be lying about ?? what do you expect, me to just sit at home twiddling my thumbs ?? you KNOW me, this isn’t weird for you to see ? and i would’ve gone out and stayed at her’s but i know you hate being here alone. ’ he replies, despite his sudden burst of annoyance he could see his roommate trying to suppress her sadness.

his smug smirk across his face faded slightly as he sensed his roommates vexation. ‘ of course i care ? ari , where were you anyways – i was gettin’ kinda worried about you so i stayed in so i could be home when you were. ’ he questions, glancing back at his one night stand behind him. 

slightly tipsy from the now-empty class bottles of liquor scattered around their new home. he sighs abruptly as he leans away and mutters, ‘ ah fuck, sorry – that’s my roommate – let me go let her in. ’ quickly dressing himself, he stumbles to the door, ‘ h – hey you’re home l a t e. ’ he quips, his eyes slightly red and a smug smile spread across his face.