☁️wonder☁️

Lmao this really be life tho. I’m just experiencing this shit for the first time! And wow it’s a rollercoaster! I knoooow that if I stay along for the ride I might actually have fun :)

I def am getting sad tho. I’m a lil baby. Lowkey want to cry🙃 buuuuut ya so wow like when I look at it logically i shouldn’t be making a big deal, but I’m emotional bitch cancer moon and shit, and let me tell you, my moon, she is not having it! But can’t admit that. I’ll try to keep it cool with her like lol no I understand shit happens, but on the inside I’m highkey crying

I’m being so patient. Lmao it’s dumb stuff but my ass overthinking EVERYTHING so I feel like I deserve the title of patience! Love is patient right? So I’ll try this thing out and I hope she knows that. That I could have easily said “thank u, next” but I’m gonna stay and fight a little longer. I would feel like a pussy for forfeiting. Does she even deserve this tho? Well idk! We will see I guess and I’m also trying very hard not to get angry. I’m not someone to be that way, it would take a lot to piss me off but when others are telling me to be pissed, it’s hard not to. So I hope she knows that. Maybe I’ll tell her?

Wow I hope date 2 goes well cuz I liiiiikeeee herrrrrr😩💓💓

Omg🙈🙈🙈🙈🙈 I can’t even focus on my reading we’ve been texting each other non stop everyday and our conversations just keep getting risquér and risquér....my cheeks hurt from smiling.

In case this makes no sense, this is not the same girl I was talking about for like the past fucking year (wow can’t believe I crushed on her for a year). Um I’m kinda slowly getting over her, we’re really good friends right now our friendship is the best it has been, and I’m happy😊 I’ve said this before but crushes never really go away completely..unless she like murdered my family I’ll prob always look at her in that same way which rly sucks. And ummm I kinda kissed her the other night. I didn’t freak out on here cause I’m getting over her, but it was like a 1 second kiss and we meant to longer but got interrupted🤦🏻‍♀️ I was at a party and like, Other ppl were making out in front of us and I was like okkkk that’s not ok so I asked her and she said yes and we kept trying to go in but kept laughing (were always like this omg) and when we finally did kiss I honestly kinda felt something like a spark I remember thinking at that second “woah” cause I don’t usually feel that??? And she pulled away I don’t know why something was happening I think it was the guy walking in and she noticed but I was paying no attention to anything else around me haha and that whole night I was hoping we would get another chance to do it again, but never did. So she drove us home and she passed out as soon as we got home, and I stayed up another 3 hours texting the OTHER girl cause she was at a party too up late.. kinda ironic lmao but ya I can’t stop thinking about the little spark and wonder if she felt it too, maybe that’s why she pulled away idk.. but also now I’m talking to someone new so...expect updates

Lit so excited to see her again. I can’t stop thinking about herrrrr and can’t sleep haha. Honestly can’t WAIT to kiss her....we flirt so hard over snap but in person we’re so shy and it’s cute cause we’re both like respectful of giving distance but, I don’t wanna keep my distance😂 she invited me to her house on Halloween cause I’m going to parties and she didn’t wanna come cause guess she doesn’t like them, but she’s like my house is open if you get bored at the parties so I’ll just be bored on purpose 🤷🏻‍♀️😂 Haha and yesterday I got new panties and told her and she’s like ooooh panties huh? And then she said she was going to VS for cute bras and I’m like why? And she said cause I got new panties so she wanted cute bras😂😂😂 like really over here dying but trying to keep my cool. Sry I’m soooo giddy and guys omg she has the cuuuutest fucking expression when she laughs like I was just staring in awe just enjoying watching her laugh lmao do I sound creepy? Major UWUs over here