thou shalt wonder

Most of your problems stem from being in contact with the wrong people. If you're emotionally open enough, you will develop are mild consciousness toward humans and you'll be able to differentiate between people who will stay honest and true to themselves, and people who simply don't give a fuck about anything in particular other than themselves. This is just one of the lessons you must learn. Don't be quick to judge others or blame them, you yourself chose to interact with these people, if they let you down, that's a lesson. Try to pay attention to what kind of people do what sort of things and soon you'll know who to trust. Then and only then will you be on the right road to becoming a happier person. Why? Because a lot and i mean a LOT of problems you are having are happening because of who you let in your life and who you let close to you.