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Yaho, I’m emica! Longtime fandom enjoyer, currently in my 30s. I am bisexual and genderfluid; my pronouns are she/her.
I’m originally from the USA, but I’ve been living in Japan since 2009.
I’m fluent in English and Japanese. Since 2022 I’ve also been taking classes in Ancient Greek!
I’ve been active intermittently on this Tumblr account since 2014, originally for the Shingeki no Kyojin/Attack on Titan fandom. My fav is Erwin and my main ship is Eruri/Rivaeru.
Since 2022 I’ve gotten into Greek mythology, specifically Patrochilles and any & all Achilles- and/or Patroclus-related myths & retellings. I find them all to be fascinating (I’m particularly fond of the Iliad and The Song Of Achilles, among others) but currently it’s the Hades video game version of the characters that have captured my attention & imagination the most, so you’ll see them here (and other characters from Hades & Hades II) a lot. I also have a big fondness for Zagreus and PZA (Patzagchilles) as well as Zagchilles & Patzag.
I’ve done translation, event blogging, & merch activities for fandom; nowadays I’m mainly into writing, and also occasionally doujinshi/zine activities. My AO3 pseud, as well as my doujinshi circle name is ninnananna.
Other places you can find me:
Linktree
Bluesky
Pixiv
Website formerly known as the bird app
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Currently, my Asks are open!
This Tumblr blog as well as my other social media accounts are FUB free, though I’m always delighted to talk to people & make new friends ♡
I often reblog, create, & discuss suggestive/explicit sexual content across all platforms, so I kindly ask that 18+ adults only follow/interact.
Group/Anthology Zines & Doujinshi I’ve contributed to:
Vow (AOT Eruri, 2016)
DIRTY (AOT Bottom Erwin Anthology, as a member of ETFC, 2022)
Strip Down (AOT Bottom Erwin Anthology, as a member of ETFC, 2023)
Beach Episode (Hades, 2023)
Rewrite the Stars (AOT Mobuhan, 2024)
Doujinshi I’ve produced as ninnananna:
The Upper Hand/ライト・ハンド・マン (AOT Rivaeru, 2022)
Closest To My Heart/だれよりも心を許している男 (Hades PZA, 2025)
Here is a complete list of my posted fics as well as my WIPs & their statuses:
Works In-Progress 📝
Where The Dead Forget (Hades Patrochilles, M-E, Ongoing) [Current Status: Active*] Patroclus loses his memories of Achilles, & as they struggle with ghosts of their past while rekindling their bond, nothing is as it seems for either of them.
*Though the fic is still active, I’m currently behind-the-scenes working on completing the draft for the entire rest of the fic before resuming updates; aiming to resume in 2026 ⭐︎ Feel free to follow the dedicated tumblr tag for the latest news & updates ♡
Breaking the Rhythm (PZA, E, Ongoing) [Active] A spicy PWP in which a happily reunited Achilles & Patroclus have a gentle side as well as a dangerous one, and Zagreus is keen to rile up both :3c
Other Patrochilles fics 🌿🏹🏺
Upon A Lazy Bed (TSOA, M, 4.7k) After Achilles withdraws from the war, Patroclus struggles with his guilt as the nature of their relationship is scrutinized & blamed by the other, increasingly frustrated Myrmidon men.
Once More (Hades, G, 1k) Zagreus discovers that Achilles has written a newer, happier entry about Patroclus in his codex after their reunion.
Sea Of Love (Hades, G, 3k) Written for the Hades Lounge Beach Episode zine. As living children, Achilles & Patroclus summon Zagreus to the surface for a playdate at the beach.
See No ****, Hear No **** (Hades, E, 6.4k) Gift fic for the Hades Lounge Holiday Gift Exchange 2023. Dual POV PWP with sensory deprivation, bondage, voyeurism/exhibitionism, & help from a couple of anonymous exalted shades.
PZA fics 🍕
Flourishing Into Greatness (E, 6.7k) Fluffy PWP. Achilles teaches Zagreus exactly why Patroclus was the comrade he loved more than any other—like his head, his heart, himself.
Closest To My Heart (E, 14.4k) Achilles & Patroclus are soulmates who were divided in death. Zagreus wants to ease their heartache & help them find their way back to one another… unfortunately for him. Accompanying comic by RIPTIDE.
Liminal Spaces (E, 46.7k) Dedicated tumblr tag here. Modern AU Hades/Iliad mashup based on the film The Dreamers. Zagreus strikes up a transient yet intense relationship with Achilles & Patroclus amidst social and personal upheaval. A Patrochilles-centric side story, My Heart’s Your Future (E, 3.2k) features lots of contextual easter eggs & foreshadowing for the main story.
Daylight Express (E, 9.1k) 1920s AU. Zagreus flirts with two different men before boarding a train. He discovers not only do they know each other but they’re both going his way. Anonymous 3-way sex on a train ensues.
King of All the Dead (Zagchilles, E, 7.7k) In which Achilles, full of guilt and missing Patroclus terribly, has been tasked with being a tutor to a willful but extremely lonely Prince Zagreus… but Zagreus has another use for him in mind. Heavy angst and non-con elements.
Under the Influence (Patzag, E, 1.7k) Patroclus gets drunk and finds one very particular thing about Zagreus that reminds him of Achilles, and it is too alluring to resist…
Favored (PZA x Reader, E, 3.4k) Reader is a shade who dwells in Patroclus’ glade, and unexpectedly gets more than they bargained for while witnessing goings-on…
Other Hades ships🩸🌙
In Full Bloom (Persephonyx, E, 2.8k) MILF cuddling fic. After her homecoming to the underworld, Persephone considers motherhood while seeking comfort in the arms of Night—someone she had missed & who was with her all along.
What We Had Waited For (Megthanzag, E, 3.9k) Fluffy PWP written the Hades Lounge Holiday Gift Exchange 2024. Meg helps encourage Than & Zag through their first time together.
Last Gasp (Thanzag, E, 3k) A thank you gift fic for 3000 kudos. Angsty, early game Thanzag first time/goodbye sex.
The Boy Next Door (Waxwitch, E, 1.2k) Modern AU. Icarus brings home his girlfriend Melinoë and they spend the night together in his former childhood room.
Eruri/Rivaeru fics ☕️🫀
Stomach & Heart (G, 900 words) Written for the Vow zine. Erwin & Levi discuss Levi’s promotion to Captain over tea, and Levi considers their relationship up to that point. Japanese version here.
Pressed Flowers (T, 6.6k) Written for Erwin’s birthday 2021. Inspired by a fanart by simibraun. In the midst of making preparations for the Wall Maria Reclamation operation, Erwin commissions a portrait of himself & Levi.
Nonbiri-Ya (T, 2.2k) Modern/Sukiya AU. Living in modern Tokyo, Erwin & Levi meet up after work, go out for drinks together, and then confess their feelings for one another.
The Upper Hand (E, 9.2k) Canon-divergence AU PWP. The royal government arrests Levi after his shoot-out with Kenny & think to use him to humiliate Erwin into submission—completely underestimating how devoted (& freaky) both of them are. Japanese version here.
Harmony (G, 487 words) Written for the A Word Of Encouragement project. Erwin and Levi make it to the ocean, along with all of their comrades. Accompanying art by ackbang.
Strain (E, 10.2k) For Eruri Matchmaking 2022. Ackerbanging fic. Erwin takes aphrodisiacs to keep up with Levi’s super-human stamina, while Levi considers the true nature of their bond. Accompanying art by KitschAfterDark.
Ameliorator (E, 3.4k) A completed version of the first eruri fic I wrote in 2015. PWP based on the hospital scene from manga chapter 51, with shotgunning & hurt/comfort. Erwin, bedridden after losing his arm, asks Levi to help him heal.
LoveSick Arrows (E, 5.3k) A Hanahaki disease hurt/comfort fic in which Erwin is afflicted by a mysterious STI whose only effective treatment is sexual contact. Levi is all-too willing assist him—no matter the consequences.
Other AOT ships ⚔️🪽
Odd One Out (Mikeeruri, E, 4.9k) Erwin’s former right-hand man Mike has turned into a reluctant messenger between Erwin & Levi. It becomes even more unbearable for him as the pair’s professional & personal bond deepens.
Pray, Love, Remember (Mobuhan, G, 4k) Written for the Mobuhan zine, Rewrite the Stars. Moblit & Hange spend the day together in the capital while waiting to receive word about Titan research funding.
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I started them during spring break, meaning it took me exactly 3 months to get them done (as long as you don’t count the additional 8 months of me watching videos, reading books, gathering materials & inspiration, practicing skills, etc…!) I think it was all worth it because I’m really pleased and proud of myself for how they turned out <3
For both dolls I wanted them to have long, voluminous, luscious curly hair, living up to the “long-haired Greeks” epithet of the Iliad, which is why I had to make so many hair pieces for them (9 all together!) Their backs mirror one another, and their eyes are also matching (the only design differences besides color being the eyebrows and Achilles having upturned upper eyelashes while Patroclus’ are downturned.)
I inserted doll skeletons into both bodies for posing purposes (they can sit and lift their arms and necks) as well as magnets into both hands… it’s a bit hard to tell in the above pic (they just have SO MUCH HAIR) but if they stand together as they do in Elysium, with Patroclus on the left and Achilles on the right (heh) they’ll be able to hold hands while simultaneously holding onto weapons in their opposite hands.
Achilles
Achilles’ Hades design gives him blue eyes, but I gave him a more TSOA-inspired scheme with the greens and bronzy browns and coppery orange. The gold flowers in his irises are meant to be yarrow (aka achillea millefolium, the medicinal plant named after him.) Perhaps my favorite feature of his Hadesgame design is the curly side-part and fillet… sooo 1980s aerobicscore (get that man in some leg warmers and a lycra leotard STAT!) and the hair bulging where his fillet is wrapped around it is THE key moe point to me, so I was extremely conscious about incorporating it into my design. The ringlet on the right is also meant to be his shorn lock of hair from Pat’s funeral. The most difficult part with him was finding the right combo of colors… I think the buttery yellow color I eventually picked for the hair washes out the olivey skin tone a bit, but perhaps as a shade it’s fitting for him, lol.
Patroclus
Patroclus’ brown and black colors are accented with hot pink and ice blue, colors I think all go really well together, as well as the latter two incorporating the color scheme of Elysium. His irises are forget-me-nots, evoking the Lethe and Achilles of the Iliad vowing to never forget him even in death. The biggest challenge with Patroclus was getting the beard right… I love the angular, square-shaped design of it in Hades but I wasn’t really sure how to translate it into 3D doll form. I’m pleased with the simple route I took however (especially since even the simple route was kind of a headache getting it into the right position while also fitting in the rest of his facial features) but I like how the cheek darts blended in with the whisker embroidery… a happy accident, haha.
So, asterisk: even though the dolls themselves are complete, they’re obviously still a bit naked, yeah? Which means I’m not putting down the sewing supplies just yet! I have an additional collection of materials gathered for their clothes and accessories. The fillet/laurel crown they’re wearing in the photos aren’t actually finished yet either (they’re still being held up with pins lol.) So, the saga continues for now, and of course I’ll update as I go!
In the meantime, I have them stored safe in their carrying case, wearing some “baby” clothes I bought for them uwu (Forrest Gump voice) these boys go together like cheese and tomata~~
When I last updated, I said I had maybe a week’s worth of work left to get the dolls done, and then… I went radio silent for a month and a half, LOL. Famous last words as it turned out, so here’s what I’ve been up to since then.
Because of IRL obligations, I actually wasn’t able to work on my dolls at all much for most of May… though I did design and assemble a whole new, original set of dolls during that time, and they proved themselves to be even more additional practice!
(Little moon kids… I made 5 of these in less than three weeks lol)
Thanks to them, I definitely avoided a few issues that might have slowed me down during the Patrochilles doll assembly, but I’m getting ahead of myself.
I also said in the last update that I was going to embroider the rest of the hair pieces with the sewing machine and… guys I gave it an afternoon, but controlling the direction of the stitching across some frankly complicated and detailed embroidery lines proved to be my weakness u_u I heard the thread I was using was kind of hard to work with on the machine so maybe I would’ve had better results with a different brand but either way it was constant snags and bumps, and even when I sort of had the technique down it still looked like shit. Idk maybe I was a little too eager to throw in the towel, but I kinda didn’t want to waste a ton of material practicing this particular skill when I realized I could just do it all by hand and it would probably come out looking much better after all.
So that’s what I did, haha. It took an extra 3-4 weeks to finish them all (in which “all” meant SEVEN (7) separate pieces!!!!) but sinking more time into the project was a sacrifice I was willing, nay, eager to make. I really didn’t mind because at this point in the process I had realized how much I LOVE doing embroidery! The repetitive motions are so soothing and I like that I can do it while watching tv or listening to music or a podcast. Spending my free time this way had become really precious to me so tbh I was grateful for the excuse to prolong the experience. And plus, now I get to flex that my dolls are 100% hand-stitched, hehe. But anyway yeah, getting those hair pieces completed one by one would’ve made for dull progress reports, which hopefully further explains the lack of updates haha.
Embroidering hair wasn’t the only thing I accomplished, at least. Once I had enough of them done, I was able to move on to the most exciting part: assembling the dolls!
(pov: it’s 1994 and the boy sitting across from you in class has one of those rattail hairstyles)
(pov: it’s 1994 and your classmate’s dad and his roommate who come to pick him up are still rocking their mullets from 1987)
All that’s left from here is their stuffing, the front hair pieces, and a few other finishing touches. I shall save the reveal of the completed dolls for another post, however… please look forward to seeing the final results! <3
“Child, why are you crying? What pain has touched your heart? Do not conceal it. Tell me and let us both know.”
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My piece for Sing, O Muse! zine!! Achilles the og mama's boy!! It was fun to experiment with colors and create such a cool project with other amazing artists :)
On the subject of AI, I have a confession to make: I use it. Not to write for me, but to help me check for inconsistencies, to brainstorm ideas, to write outlines, to give me a couple of lines when I've been stuck for hours, to be my beta reader, if you will. Generative AI is bad? Yes, but it also a useful tool if one isn't lazy. I don't ask: write me a story. I go with my story and ask: help me with continuity. Look, this paragraph is clunky, how do I make it better? The demonization of generative AI is fair, but to be honest, I also understand people who use it. Maybe they're afraid of writing themselves, maybe they're insecure and don't trust their prose. Maybe they have brilliannt ideas but they need help to make them become fics.
To me, this is very much connected to my last ask where I was talking about how we don't have enough mentors in fandom to support the influx of people entering it.
All of the things that you're asking AI to do used to be done by a beta reader (or more than one!). A fandom friend (or even a random stranger who volunteered) would read through your work and help you with those issues.
Betas are amazing. They can help with grammar and spelling. They can regionalize language. They can provide sensitivity reading if they're from a marginalized community that you're writing about and aren't a member of. They can track canon, help with research, even just be a sounding board to discuss ideas with.
And sometimes, they're just a cheer reader - someone reading your story and telling you how awesome it is because they love it just as much as you do.
I understand turning to AI if you 1) don't know beta readers exist or 2) don't know how to obtain one. The need for that kind of support doesn't go away just because you can't access it.
But for anyone out there who needs this kind of help and wants to avoid Gen AI, you can write a post on your blog, add it to an author's note, check out resources like @needabeta or - if the time of year is right and you have the funds - place a bid on beta reading services during @fandomtrumpshate
Beta readers are often involved in fandom events like big bangs and exchanges, and if anyone is looking to host such an event, it's a great way to get people involved who aren't writers or artists but would love to help out.
I get it, anon. We use the tools that are available to us. But here's another potential tool if you're interested in branching out?
Sometimes it's scary to post a message asking for beta readers, you are putting yourself out there, you have no idea who might respond to your message (if anyone at all) and nowadays a lot of bots are muddying the waters.
I definitely recommend searching a beta reader within the fandom you're writing for rather than someone who knows nothing about it.
And when you don't immediately get a response, ask again. This comes from a person (me) who is now two and a half years into dating the girl who replied to my 'I need a beta reader' post that I was debating to reblog that day.
Sometimes I wonder where our lives would be if I hadn't reblogged it or if she had skipped past the post.
Fandom is a community of people with shared interests. It's supposed to make it easier for us to become friends, hang out and talk for hours.
Not a single AI tool in the world is capable of giving (fandom) writers/artists/creators what they actually need.
I would argue that there is a much bigger issue here with this kind of use of AI.
Struggling through a problem is a huge part of learning. Getting stuck, reworking things eighty times, realizing you need to delete half a page and try again, looking up random grammar rules you don't know--this is how you learn. This is also how you develop your own voice. These are necessary parts of the process.
By turning to AI every time something gets a little hard or goes a little slowly or sounds a little wrong, you are hamstringing your own development. You are preventing yourself from growing at all as a writer.
Betas absolutely can help with this growth. It's not the same as turning to AI. Other human beings spark your synapses in a way genAI simply does not. I'm not saying you shouldn't use betas.
I am saying that while struggle might be uncomfortable and it might slow down the process and you might not like it, it is a necessary part of building skills, and by outsourcing struggle to a machine, you are limiting your own cognitive capabilities and your own ability to actually write.
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“For me this glass is already broken. I enjoy it; I drink out of it. It holds my water admirably, sometimes even reflecting the sun in beautiful patterns. If I should tap it, it has a lovely ring to it. But when I put this glass on the shelf and the wind knocks it over or my elbow brushes it off the table and it falls to the ground and shatters, I say, ‘Of course.’ When I understand that the glass is already broken, every moment with it is precious.”
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The stereotype of the nerd girl taking her glasses off and suddenly she's beautiful, but in reverse. A cold tough mean office lady who glares at everyone until she gets glasses and suddenly becomes sweet, approachable and friendly since she no longer has a constant headache over not being able to fucking see, doesn't need to squint at everything, and actually remembers individual people by name now that she can tell them apart at all.
*widely praised poetic quote in a foreword by a usamerican translator voice* see this language.... it's not like other languages. sometimes it has metaphors. or abstract thinking. sometimes a word has several meanings. sometimes a lot of meaning can be condensed into two words. sometimes those words even have etymologies. sometimes if you translate idioms or break down the components of words you can get something pretty cool in english. and naturally this gives us essential insight into the timeless national character of its people
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