I am who I am...Who Am I?

Right now, I’m laying on the couch, and I can hear my husband reading our four year old a bedtime story using silly voices.

Now I'm 32, separated from husband,but actually friends with him. Have a 11 (acts 13) year old daughter. Head over heals in love with an amazing guy who is kind,patient with my moods,great with my daughter,a hard worker,Mr. Fix it and an animal lover.

Post traumatic stress disorder: If you have nightmares and flashbacks about your past, it’s ok. It doesn’t mean that you are weak, not at all, it just means that your brain is having trouble coping with what happened and is trying to find a way to. Talking to someone about what happened will help you. It won’t be easy and it will take time, but eventually it willl fade away with help.

Rape: It was not your fault. He/she had no right to take advantage of you. You never asked for it. It wasnt because of what you were weariing or how much you drank…if you never said yes its not consensual. If you couldnt stop the person that doesnt mean you were weak or deserved it. You aren’t alone. I am here for you.

Anxiety: Its ok to be not ok. Being anxious doesn’t make you weak. Just remember to take deep breathes and try to meditate. It’s going to be ok. I am here for you.

Self Harm: I know how hard it is to deal with the urges to cut or hurt yourself in some way. Please know that I am here for you whenever you need someone to talk to. You don’t need to hurt yourself. You dont deserve pain. You are amazing. i hope one day you believe me.

Eating disorders: No matter what size jeans you wear, you are beautiful. The number on the scale does not determine your worth. Food is fuel for your body, just like cars need gas your body needs food. Food wont make you fat ugly disgusting or anything negative. You are beautiful just the way you are. You are worthwhile. You are important.

Depression: Unable to get out of bed today? that’s ok. Just curl up with a blanket and snuggle under your sheets. You are ok. Even the darkest nights will end. You can’t see rainbows without a storm, but this storm will pass. I am proud of you just for being alive. If you were able to get out of bed, i am proud of you. If you stayed in your pjs all day, i am proud of you. If you tried to smile but couldn’t I am proud of you. If you managed to smile, I am proud of you.