secrets

Fighting in love as well as in the personal is what could be described as hardcore. Never satisfied always looking. The best thing is to not care. To think only about yourself. In these moments there are lots of things to do, lots of things to sort out. Feeling your femininity in all its freshness is an unexpected and precious sensation. Paying attention to yourself means paying attention to everything.

Falling asleep in dark meanders never brings good omens. The paths are then narrow and the destinations thorny. If by chance we come out of it, it’s because you have a guardian angel. Past adventures can then fade away with time and a new day opens up to us. The complex of existing takes on a new dimension and the magic then takes effect. All the inconveniences caused by this whole charade are revealed to you and can then be combatted. The care you deserve is then granted to you, well deserved, because you will have fought to defend your own spiritual and bodily comfort. The danger no longer exists, instead comes the ecstasy of entertainment and happiness.

Fighting desperately to get things back into order will pay off in the end. What I have always wanted for so long now has finally come true and the great joy and relief I feel has no equal. Positive attracts positive and often the will is fortunately the key, we come out of any complicated situation unlike the way things sometimes turn out. It's so often distressing to see the huge gap that there is between certain kinds of people who are completely ridiculous. We must not allow ourselves to be devalued by their whim. But hey, it's cool to recognize cool people and do things that give us oxygen. Now I pay attention to how I can feel good, in coordination with those I like. It is important. I promise, I won't fall to the ground again under the feet of vile scoundrels. I go in front with my head held high and a smile. I will no longer lower myself to useless practices that evoke contempt. I know very well what I need to do all the time. I would only do things that simply make me happy.

It was in the confusion of a gesture that I realized the agonizing mistake I had been making for so long. I did not rely on that but on the divine call for help carried around me and by me to stop all this charade. Artificial happiness is no longer enough for me and scares me. In the future I would like to rediscover the youthful and joyful glow of the explosion of life felt in the emerging chills of winter. I would still like to feel the freshness of gratitude, or the sweetness of I love you. For the moment I'm suffering the martyrdom but I sometimes comfort myself like that, by remembering all the positive and negative aspects. I'll make it. I wish.

No hope was allowed to me as sparkling as that which gives me the expectation of a renewal. I hold grace to your fabulous image inside my mind and all around my skin. I don't only hold on for a moment, but I wander forever in the dream that would bring me closer to you. All the harm was caused to me, by my fault, and by your anger, but it was not without reason. I realize that I was only smearing you and insulting you, I was not the pure and attentive thing that you need. Cleaned and calmed, I nevertheless know that I still call you in my most beautiful madness.

I can't believe I could have fallen so low and been so stupid. All I don't want to do anymore is disappoint the people I care about. Because of the drugs I only thought about my high moment but that doesn't interest me anymore, that's it, I had the click. I swear I won't fall back into these nauseating mistakes again. I'll manage now. I was deluded, corrupted, but to get hit by a wall in the face I can tell you that it wakes you up. And I have better plans. Making art, music, working, taking care of myself. And attract the positive.

Yeah i dont care i love the drug. With my love and my Friends. I réalise

Only love can save us. Whether it's quitting drugs, which I'm doing. Replace this sensation of a sensory envelope that is ultimately repulsive, with an envelope of positive vibrational energy, and good for your health! I prayed for the nightmare to end and my prayers were answered. A friend reached out to me, and now it's up to me not to let go. I also have the motivation, the vision, of a magnificent and evil angel, who attracts me, and who had the same problem as me. If I want to hope to have the right intensity to even be able to touch him, and share with him something other than problems, I have to move forward and make myself better. This moment of life where I find myself seeming very poor and the temptation to consume again is quite strong. But I see clearly now. I no longer want to get lost in this trap where lies, discord, manipulation, regression, disinterestedness, profit reign supreme.... No, I really say no. Even though I had thought a long time ago about leaving everything behind, now I want to catch up and repair everything. Because we only have one life, and it is precious.