IT’S LONELY AT THE TOP

Please let me believe,

Just for a second.

That there is a place in the galaxy

Where you and I, and everything that isn’t,

I hate this world in which I have to live in and walk and I hate that society showed me how to behave.

I hate that I love you and you hurt me and I’m just so used to loving people who hurt me because deep down I can’t really connect with anyone because we all grew up to be in constant competition with one another. I don’t think people know how to be selfless and love and how is that going to happen with all the hatred in the world anyways.

I live in a place where if I go out at any point of the day I have to be careful and protect myself from being raped and sexually harassed or even kidnapped and killed. This happens to 9 women in my country every day. That means one day I could be one of them. I hate that.

I hate how worried my parents are all the time, how expensive things are and how many debts they just have to pay off. I hate to hear them argue about money and I hate to see them work and work. I hate the live we thought we should live and how capitalism literally just gives anxiety to people and hast turned out to be all around shitty.

Video by me.

Song : we can make you feel alive wholesale - Winjer3

Por tu atención

I love how you would be there

Always

No matter what you would.

I guess I never knew how to be there for you

I love how we would only listen to music for ages and smoke weed and just stare at each other’s face.

I miss you

I might tell you I love you and pretend I don’t mind what you say back

I might not say anything and simply get you back

I know I’m trying so hard

I know it looks like I’m a pusher

I know it might seem intense for you

That’s why if I say anything

I’m promising I’m doing it for me

I’m doing it because I need to feel better

That at least I said everything I wanted to and everything I meant

I need to feel better because I’m the end all the words are gonna be left said

Imma be able to have “no ragrats”

I’m sitting here

High as usual but not feeling like I’m touching the clouds

Feeling you far, ruffles my inside, ruffles my heart

That’s the thing

Even if you text me, there’s nothing to say

I could tell you I love you and how you make me fell

I could just say hi and pretender I’m far

You won’t text

I know you won’t

No matter how bad I need it, no matter how bad I feel like I need it.

Truth is you are far