Inside My Head

It's not planned out.

It's not been said.

I own this life,

I make my bed.

So many roads,

Which will I take?

It's up to me.

I make my fate.

And if I choose,

And I choose wrong,

I'll learn from that.

It makes me strong.

I always want,

To know I could,

Do anything.

There is no should.

I decide,

Just who I am.

It's up to me.

There is no plan.

Every day,

Is mine to change.

Be someone new.

Is that so strange?

But she didn't,

So he didn't.

And since they didn't,

We'll never know.

Everyone is sleeping.

Everyone but me.

It's just around this time,

That I being to breath.

If I never loved you,

My mind would be so free.

Free of all these memories,

That buzz around like bees.

If you come looking,

Here's what you'll find.

A girl dressed in fear,

Afraid of her mind.

You'll notice she's falling,

While on solid ground.

You'll wonder and wonder

What is that sound?

The closer you get,

the further you are.

If you pick at the scab,

You'll get a scar.

She's sinking so fast

Drowning in blood.

You go to help her,

But get swept by the flood.

I found you in a basket,

Coated up in fear.

Rushed with all the words,

That she shoved into your ear.

Living in a sheet of skin,

That doesn't feel like home.

Running with a crowd,

Just so you don't feel alone.

I didn't want to worry,

But you were so deprived.

Awake in someone else dream,

Just to feel alive.