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like the average cs major would say idk i also dont have a real social life so ig i have more in common with them then i would like to think, do not be mistaken, i'm a biotech girlie

wow after years of reading tumblr trickled down to pinterest i'm here.

lets see what do i like, honestly i'm chronically online so i like whatevers in the pop culture zeitgeist 90% of the time and i'm just like other girls in that i always have someone im parasocial about.

The experience of being fan is so strange. Someone else’s child , whom we will likely never meet, never understand on a deeply personal level. but feel such a large amount of ownership and concern for.

They’re the love your life, your sweet summer child, your reckless son, your darling daughter. They cause you ache and misery but they drag you out of the real world of ache and misery. Either, in a way where they sit with you and let you sulk , or drag you out and make you laugh. But they will literally never ever know.

You’re just another like on instagram, another waving banner in the stadium, another light stick in the arena.

And for any lucky artist that fanbase is strong and big enough that it means the fans love, quite literally builds their house, and get them a chair for an unfathomable table. And maybe that’s all we are.

But maybe one fan is struck by lightning, the cloud of the adoration of their idol. It’s the rarest of the rare chance but it’s here. The idol found their message, the fan at their most lowest spiral, found a video of their idol and that gave them the sliver of hope to hold on.