Ciao Bella

I love that in Catching fire Katniss comes to the conclusion the other tributes are trying to keep Peeta alive because they must see how amazingly perfectly wonderful he is. When in actuality that’s just her having a crush and everyone else recognizing that if Peeta gets hurt Katniss will go fully feral and unhinged and probably try to kill everyone and then herself.

Maysilee asking for utensils to maintain a semblance of dignity and not allowing the capitol to view her as an animal. Katniss purposefully dropping her utensils and using her hands to eat when Effie refers to the starving tributes from the year prior as savages for doing so.

Snow knowing Haymitch drank the milk in the hopes he’d die from the poison— sending Haymitch milk in the arena that only the two of them knows is poisoned and putting him the position that he either has to knowingly kill his ally or destroy any semblance of District unity by destroying what appears to the audiences is Wellies last chance to survive. Absolutely diabolical. Pettiest man in Panem istg.

Suzanne once again showing us love is the most powerful thing in a cruel world. Haymitch left alone and isolated forced to bear all his pain alone. Watching year after year as another pair of his children die all with the feeble hope of a rebellion that may not even happen in his lifetime. Choosing to suffer over and over again to keep his promise to the dead girl he loves. Because even if her body’s cold beneath the ground, no matter the suffering, his love for her remains as warm and assured as the sunrise. And he will do anything to make sure that sunrise will one day awaken a world where she can rest in peace.

There’s so much added context to Haymitch and Katniss’ relationship from Sunrise on the Reaping. Haymitch a hardened and resourceful Seam kid thrown into the games leaving behind his widowed mother and younger sibling. Haymitch who was marked early on as a possible tool for a rebel plot having the hands of many leading him along as a sacrificial lamb for the greater good. Haymitch who failed, and had to lose everyone close to him. Haymitch leading Katniss to the same slaughter as she is everything he could have been but with the luck that makes her nothing like he was.

Haymitch being so assured in his love for Lenore Dove. So confident in their love for each other. Devoted to her even in death. Never straying anywhere but her side like a goose mated for life. Haymitch broken down and beaten telling Katniss, a mirror of what he was and everything he could have been, that she could live a hundred lifetimes and never deserve Peetas love. I need to lay down.

teenage haymitch watching president snow choking to death and downing the pitcher of milk that could save his life and then turning back to the crime scene like “oh no you’re out of milk” :(

Lucy Gray’s reaping being rigged. Haymitch being selected illegally. Katniss volunteering to save her sister. The victors of District 12 have always been inherently wrapped in rebellion because they have all entered the games at the hands of injustice.

Learning Haymitch’s mom and little brother died in an “accidental” fire puts perspective on him trusting Katniss in voting yes to a final hunger games. He suffered and witnessed years of the Capitols cruelty and punishment. I’m sure he also pieced together that too-young Primrose being stationed in the midst of a war zone and subsequently dying was too convenient in helping control a damaged teenage Victor.

wdym Katniss’ dad was Haymitchs best friend?? That he watched him pine over her mom and that the two of them were the last people to try and tether him to his friends?? wdym he called his younger neighbour with her Seam-look and braids “sweetheart” and tried his best to save her???? WDYM HAYMITCH WATCHED BURDOCK SHOW OFF BABY KATNISS AND THEN WATCHED LITTLE KATNISS WITH HER BRAIDS LIKE LOUELLAS PUTTER AROUND THE HOBB??? SUZANNE???? HOW AM I MEANT TO HANDLE THIS INFORMATION???????

Snow immediately projecting his relationship drama with Lucy Gray on to Haymitch and Lenore Dove… I know him hijacking Peeta was a sick form of therapy

Finding out Haymitch is a gay ally was not something I was expecting to learn about him but what can I say that’s my dad!!!

Less than 20 pages in and wdym Lenore Dove has a flock of geese??? How am I meant to handle the next 300 pages knowing Haymitch chooses to raise geese alone at the end of Mockinjay??? Suzanne????