dani’s thoughts.

But that’s totally fine, i now understand that if i ended up with that friend, we wouldn’t even last that long. But sometimes, I just really can’t help but wonder... “Am I really just good enough to be a friend?”... I have a lot of good friends and they’re totally the best thing that happened to me but i just can’t help but ask myself that question because no one dared try to date me. Okay, maybe one or two. Okay, three but I maybe just simply kinda rejected them? But here is the thing, I want to date a person who I actually love, duh i have standards, and not just someone who just wanted to flirt for a while and stuff like that and then leaves. Because here’s the thing, i’m not the type of person who’s open to explore when it comes to people. But I mean, what i am trying to say is, no one just likes me back. Like, none of the people I used to like in more than a friendly way have given the same feelings as I did.

I’m not trying to complain or anything like that, it’s just that I have a lot of true solid friends but when it comes to love and dating , i just suck at them and i kinda hate myself for it sometimes. Like why can’t i be just like my friends who are so good in flirting and meeting new people, like using tinder and other dating apps? But at the end of the day, it’s just who i am and that is totally fine.

the sunset reminded me of you

oh how marvelous to see

those pink, purple,

orange hues

just like how you painted me

with different colors

when we kissed.

it looks gentle as if it was

caressing me,

as if it was you when you

picked me up to go to

your room.

leaning on each others

foreheads, exchanging

i love you’s.

but i may or not have known

how long we will

only last

because the moment the

sun went down,

you were nowhere

to be found.

-Dani Yoon

08/12/19