"Cocktail Mix in Africa"

She sits in her corner, singing herself to sleep. Wrapped in all of the promises, that no one seems to keep. She no longer cries to herself, No tears left to wash away. Just diaries of empty pages, feelings gone a stray. But she will sing, til everything burns, while everyone screams, burning their lies, burning my dreams, all of this hate, and all of this pain, I'll burn it all down, as my anger reigns, til everything burns!

Halloween party with my girls! Hippie, self absorbed, beer goggles and dominatrix! Was a fun night, let’s see what next years Halloween has in store for us :) 🎃👻

Gotta love the water, the skies and the camera.. :)

Here is my story. Ever since I was a little girl, I always dreamt of my magical wedding and my knight and shining armor. As I got older, I fell in love once, then the second time, then third.. Until one day I got Over it! Over these games and how Men of this century can’t be mature enough to handle a long term relationship yet committed one too. So I decided I would break down into depression, get advice from people, family and friends, until one day I invited home a Tarot reader, amazing to say that the cards we opened described me in the most realistic way possible, and those cards guided me to the right path. Now most people don’t believe in these fortune tellers, mediums, tarot readers etc. But after the freakishly accurate results, I started believing. And believe it or not it has changed me, my point of view in relationships, being single or not. Whatever I say or do is the future I build for myself. So I said to myself, “you don’t need a man to make you happy. You don’t need a ring around your finger to make you feel complete. It will come around on its own, don’t hunt for it. ” I’ve decided to be the independent mature woman that I am and just relax. Life is short, enjoy it while you can, don’t go hunting for a relationship, a husband, a boyfriend, they will come to you when you least expect it, as they say.. “Every pot has it’s lid, every bottle has a cap.” ~ Every heart has that small space to let that one specific person fill it in for you when the time is right, when you least expect it too. ~

💔 someone u trusted.. A friend that u had experienced a lot with.. Goes and fucks u over as if ur feelings and respect never meant anything. Here is to the ladies that experienced something similar.. Sick of crying, tired of smiling? Yes I know. But inside your dying. Just be a girl with a mind, a bitch with an attitude and a lady with class! He doesn’t deserve your tears. Nor does he deserve u giving attention! Have u ever just stopped and said to yourself, if I didn’t meet that certain someone my life would be a lot happier.. You know, I don’t know where i stand in people’s lives sometimes, I mean, first I’m someone then next I’m treated as if I’m nothing. Just thinking out loud.. I guess the best feeling comes when u realize that your happy without the people u thought u needed the most. You may forgive. But never forget! Just stay strong. ❤️

The things you do when you have no sun.. Use a tanning bed.. Not to shabby for Africa now hey??

Here’s to a new beginning.. A new life, new day, new friends, a new page in my book.. They say a touch of the hand turns a thing to gold.. The joy that comes to you when everything you ever hoped or wished for, fulfilled your needs.. The laughter, the love, the friends, family around the world, the ambitions to try new things. All the more.. Just puts that tad of sweetness in making life easier..