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Famous/[Non] Famous AU
A combination of fics that include one of them or both of them being Famous, set in an alternate universe where they are not rival hockey players.
𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐟𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐒𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐏𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐫 𝐀𝐔
🏒 Welcome Back | 3.8k
Shane ran out of Ilya's house, terrified of openly dating a famous hockey player, and now, six weeks later he was on his doorstep, soaking wet asking to come in
🏒 My Beautiful Boy | 4.0k
It was common knowledge that Ilya Rozanov liked men and women. Photos of him kissing both in clubs had followed Ilya his entire career. It was also common knowledge that hundreds of men and women flocked to every Centaurs game and before that every Raiders game in his jersey desperate for an ounce of his attention. What was uncommon however was to see a man, in Rozanov’s jersey, sitting in his seats which is exactly what was happening now
🏒 I will fuck your heaven (for the hell of it) | 7.8k
In light of an announcement from their favorite hockey player, fans do a deep dive and find that Shane and Ilya have an interesting history
🏒 on the run | 9.1k
shane is anya's dog walker and occasional pet sitter. her owner, on the other hand, makes being professional extremely difficult
🏒 rose garden filled with thorns | 14.6k
famous Shane meets non!famous Ilya on a cursed flight from Ottawa to Boston and kind of (totally) falls in love with him at first sight (and first chirp)
🏒 chirping like a dead bird | 15.3k
When Ilya abandons hockey as a teenager, Shane is the undisputed star of his draft year. Somehow, they find each other anyway
🏒 unreasonable solutions | 16.3k
Shane can still feel all the places where Ilya touched him. Sometimes he can swear they are scorching hot, while the rest of his body is cold as ice that he knows so damn well. It’s not normal. He knows it’s not normal.
🏒 and i think i’d miss you, even if we’d never met | 23.5k
Hockey Player/Client!Shane x Escort!Ilya
🏒 Baby, Bend Over | 31.3k
Shane is convinced that Ilya Rozanov—captain of the Boston Bears and Shane’s newest student—hates him. Ilya joined Shane's yoga class specifically to get closer to the hot instructor, but every attempt at flirting only seems to make things worse. Neither of them has any idea the other is completely in love with them.
🏒 Everytime I Leave | 38.5k
🔒 a fic where 17 yr old shane is a [redacted] ill patient and ilya is the rookie his team drags to the children’s hospital. he falls in love w freckles and can’t stop visiting shane every chance he gets.
🏒 When You Stay | 39.6k
🔒 shane hollander spent six months learning how to stay alive. he did not account for how much harder it would be to learn how to live. (or, shane's pov immediately picking up from where everytime i leave left off.)
🏒 Mystery of Love | 41.4k
Shane and Ilya are married, but it's just Ilya who pursued career in hockey. Shane studies at uni, hiding his romantic relationship from the whole world, but his friends are slowly learning the truth that the mysterious Lily is in fact a famous hockey player Ilya Rozanov.
🏒 your eyes, they turn me | 58.5k
Shane Hollander has spent his entire life living and breathing hockey. At twenty, at the height of his career, he makes an unthinkable choice: he walks away to discover who he is beyond the ice. But some things don’t stay behind
🏒 money's got a magic touch | 60.0k
Ilya Rozanov, internationally-renowned singles tennis star, propositions Shane Hollander, sports medicine consultant for the Montreal Voyageurs and local nobody, in a nightclub surrounded by people.
🏒 Route 96 Kanata | WIP
after ending up at a jazz bar to celebrate the end of finals season, Shane Hollander finds himself where he never thought he'd be— in the orbit of NHL superstar Ilya Rozanov.
🏒 Wolfbird | WIP
Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.
🏒 NBA/College AU Series
Basketball Player Ilya, WAG Shane
🏒 When the Right One Comes Along Series
Hockey Player Shane, Manny Ilya
𝐀𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐫/𝐒𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐀𝐔
🏒 if only i could get your attention | 4.0k
Shane and Ilya run fan accounts for each other.
🏒 shivering gold | 4.8k
Two of the brightest stars in young Hollywood have a shared secret.
🏒 Bed Chem | 5.4k
Shane's a music producer in LA when he meets Ilya Rozanov at an awards show.
🏒 Juno | 5.4k
Shane writes Juno
🏒 Celebrity Crush | 6.8k
🔒 Ilya Rozanov finds himself at the Metros vs Raiders game, and decides to try his luck in scoring the Metros' Captain, Shane Hollander.
🏒 won't get down on my knees (trying to play it casually) | 8.5k
Shane and Ilya are oblivious first and actors second
🏒 And I would still choose you through it all | 9.6k
Shane Hollander and Troy Barrett are the stars of the new hit show ‘Off the Ice’. When a tweet from Shane makes its way onto Ilya’s for you page, he instantly becomes enamoured with the actor. What happens when Shane sees this particular fans tweets?
🏒 safeguard | 11.2k
Actor Ilya, Bodyguard Shane
🏒 Passionate Opposition, starring Ilya Rozanov | 12.7k
Ilya stars in a gay hockey rom com. Hockey player Shane slides into his DMs.
🏒 Unnecessary Longing | 12.9k
🔒 Ilya goes on a talk show to promote his newest album and accidentally admits to having a crush on a certain hockey player. Shane is really hoping Ilya is talking about him
🏒 Valley Boy | 23.6k
Breakout pop star Ilya Rozanov is all that anyone can talk about. His music is phenomenal, he’s devilishly handsome, and he’s great with the ladies. Which means he frequently gets himself into trouble, until the stone-faced, no-nonsense Shane Hollander starts working as Ilya’s babysitter bodyguard
🏒 Me Porto Bonito | 24.1k
Upcoming actor and well-known playboy Ilya Rozanov is good at getting what he wants. That is, until he wants hockey's golden boy Shane Hollander
🏒 hidden in plain sight (my love) | 26.4k
Shane works at a coffee shop, goes to auditions, tries to get his personal life together, and has absolutely no idea how to say no to people. His life is already complicated enough when a Russian neighbor moves into the apartment across the hall.
🏒 Under Protection | 31.1k
Shane has skyrocketed to fame over the last few months, he's not quite handling it as well as he had hoped. From a waiter in a small restaurant to the perfect new celebrity. He's trying to take things one at a time but with Yuna Hollander as his agent, it's not quite that simple. One morning, a man appears at Shane's door. His new bodyguard. Ilya Rozanov.
🏒 you hollow out my hungry eyes | 32.0k
when rose wins two tickets to warped tour 2005's montreal date, shane figures he's in for a day of sweaty, drunk festivalgoers, music that's loud enough to give him a migraine, and maybe a few glimpses of that hot russian drummer in rose's favorite band. he gets a lot more than he bargained for
🏒 Celebrity romance | 39.4k
“Your name? No, I don’t– sorry, have we met before?” Shane asked, suddenly embarrassed. He didn't remember seeing this man in the shop before. Oh god, had they gone on a date and he forgot? It had been awhile since he went out with anyone, so it must have been quite a long time ago if that was the case. But Shane was sure he would remember someone who looked and sounded like that.
🏒 The Stars Fell For You | 86.8k
Pop star Shane Hollander is no stranger to crowds and success, but when an anonymous gunman at a press appearance threatens his life, the safety of his upcoming tour is called into question. Desperate to keep their cash cow not only safe, but happy, League Records hires former Spetsnaz operative Ilya Rozanov to provide 24/7 personal security for Shane. As the two spend time together, Shane Hollander realizes that the real threat to his life, to his career, is his own heart...and the way that he feels for the very man he is depending on to keep him safe
🏒 someone stop this song (so i won't sing your lovesick melody) | 96.4k
Shane is in a boyband, Ilya is the lead singer of a rock group. Rivals on stage, something more behind the scenes. Years go by as they try to navigate their feelings in secret
🏒 I’ll Follow You | 98.4k
what if Shane & Ilya were actors who met on the set of a TV show, have to deal with fame & semi-unhinged fandom, and are still idiots falling in love.
🏒 What I Risk | 109k
Ilya Rozanov, break out star of the hit show Skating Limits, has a problem. His stalker is escalating to violence and ruining the press tour for the new season. Naturally, his agent and childhood friend, Svetlana, has a solution to the problem: Shane Hollander, former Secret Service agent and private bodyguard.
🏒 Bullseyes and Spotlights | WIP
Shane Hollander is Hollywood's sweetheart, an up and coming actor with all the fame and fortune that comes with it. After six months off, Ilya's just looking for a security gig where he won't get shot at for once.
🏒 All Your Songs Sound Like Me | WIP
The Tortured Singer-Songwriter Shane X Rising NBA Star Ilya AU fic
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🏒 automatic | 5.4k
Shane models for fast cars. Ilya races in those fast cars. They both drive each other absolutely crazy
🏒 royal rivalry | 6.7k
four times they almost exposed their relationship, and one very royal birthday that finally revealed everything.
Fic Rec Masterpost | Hollanov AU
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DO YOU LIKE FREE ART AND NUANCED BOOKS?
Digital wallpapers for your phone, tablet, and computer? Postcard-sized illustrations to give to your friends or tape to your wall? Stories where most people are trying their best, but some are actively making things worse?
Then go back the The Wisdom of Emperors kickstarter before 4pm EDT (9pm GMT) Thursday June 4 (tomorrow!! 19 hours from now!)!. All kickstarter orders come with digital wallpapers of the seven gorgeous landscape illustrations by Mosu Äijälä that will be included with every edition of the book, and physical orders come with 6– going on 7!– art cards of those same illustrations!
LOOK AT THISSSSSS IT'S GORGEOUSSSSSS AND IT COULD BE YOURS!!!!
if messy bisexuals on a misguided quest for love and power, or a twink that leads them halfway around the continent while insisting he doesn't want to be found, sound up your alley, please check it out! It also has footnotes! And a fake bibliography! and a scholar with a minor (very minor, they assure you) crush on just the coolest priestess in the whole tale!
the ebook is only $10 USD, and both the paperback and audiobook are $25 USD. And there's an enamel pin! and a notebook! and papyrus bookmarks! and a tote and stickers and a t-shirt and a goth dust jacket and the beautiful collector's edition-- but the wallpapers and misguided quest could be yours for only $10! Do yourself and local tumblrites Alexandra Rowland, Mosu Äijälä, and the rest of the art and production team a favor and let's make this kickstarter wrap up with a bang! LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
actually you know what that's exactly it i would rather someone add 5 parantheticals after every sentence than use tone indicators it's 1. accomplishing SO much more in terms of clarity 2. extremely funny to look at depending on how they're used
observe:
"is this real? /gen" — i thought /gen meant "general" for ages. i would not be able to understand this on first sight a few years ago and is thus ineffective
"is this real? (genuine question)" — i fully understand this without issue
"is this real? (genuine question) (can't tell) (very realistic) (looks real) (scary) (photoshop?)" — is not only incredibly clear it's also very funny to read all of these thoughts stapled together while also in their own parentheses. it's also the most useful because now i can actually address all parts of what they are asking me with as much specificity as BOTH of us need
parentheses my beloved (they are for bonus thoughts) (and questions) ( and sidetracks) (like a 2nd conversation on top of the first)
parentheticals (the tags of normal conversation)

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Attention ancient history nerds and fans of really weird and unusual fantasy books, THE WISDOM OF EMPERORS kickstarter campaign just launched!
Hello, btw, I'm Alexandra Rowland, the author of A TASTE OF GOLD AND IRON, RUNNING CLOSE TO THE WIND, YIELD UNDER GREAT PERSUASION, and several other books. This is my new one!!
Inspired by the story of the Ancient Roman emperor Hadrian and his lover Antinous, THE WISDOM OF EMPERORS is a second-world adult fantasy novel written in the style of a fictional academic text. It documents the translation and study of a world-changing artifact discovered in an archaeological dig: a manuscript which provides the clues to finally unravel one of the most perplexing mysteries in all of ancient history.
If this sounds like your jam, go back it on kickstarter! If you're not sure whether it is your jam, the merch reveal updates on the campaign include excerpts from the book so you can get a flavor for it -- the ENTIRE Foreword to the book is on there!
I do not have a publisher to help with a marketing and publicity budget, so this book's success really depends on grassroots support from readers -- if you can spare a signal boost, that'd be amazing.
I'M GONNA GO WALK INTO THE SEA NOW AND BECOME ONE WITH THE MOLLUSCS, but before i do, here is the full summary of the book:
SUMMARY:
An ancient emperor who, along with his entire army, vanished from the historical record for ten years, as if into thin air. A long-suffering scribe, dragged along on a quest that was doomed from the start, furiously scrawling his thoughts in a manuscript that will be lost for millennia. An enslaved young man, as beautiful as a marble statue, breaking his chains and flying to freedom. And a patient, steadfast scholar, dauntlessly seeking the answer to a mystery that has plagued historians for two thousand years.
The great tragedy of studying history is that there is so much we will never know. But a recent archaeological excavation has discovered an ancient manuscript, allegedly the journal kept by one of Emperor Cabian’s scribes during the years of his mysterious disappearance. Though most historians initially dismissed it as a hoax or a forgery, Amatio Orlanti took on the challenge—not only proving the authenticity of the manuscript, but translating it, uncovering the most jaw-dropping corroborating sources and, at last, presenting these astonishing revelations to the world: The truth of Cabian’s ill-fated journey, the twin poisons of imperialist violence and desperate, misguided love that drove him relentlessly onwards, and the ultimate fate of his lost beloved, the legendary beauty Anaticula. This new edition of Orlanti’s dissertation, with its academic commentaries and explanatory footnotes now revised for the general public, offers a glimpse of one of the most famous figures of Ancient Lausa—and casts a light on the rot and depravity lying behind the empire’s outward magnificence.
Miracles in history and archaeology just don’t happen… except when they do.
A new fantasy novel by Alexandra Rowland, author of A TASTE OF GOLD AND IRON, RUNNING CLOSE TO THE WIND, & YIELD UNDER GREAT PERSUASION
Oh my god okay so. There are FIVE DAYS LEFT on the campaign, it ends on June 4th, and I just want to go over some of the incredible things this campaign has achieved, which... i'm fucking speechless.
1300+ backers
over $100,000 raised
Audiobook stretch goal reached!
Collector's Edition fully upgraded to its fanciest form: High-quality sewn binding (NOT glued), gold foil and embossing on the cover, ribbon bookmark, sprayed edges, illustrated endpapers (full color) and 7 interior illlustrations (greyscale) by @holographings and @qwertyprophecy
Enamel pin stretch goal! Alternate colorway dust jacket stretch goal!!
There's still 4 spots available to claim a copy of the luxury HANDBOUND edition made by an incredibly talented bookbinder.
Every physical order comes with 5 art cards (so far) of the illustrations in full color (and we might hit the stretch goals to get a couple more!)
Here is the first illustration that's been completed, by the amazingly talented @qwertyprophecy:
Are you speechless? I'm speechless.
This has truly been one of the most amazing experiences of my life. Like, I've published over a dozen books before this and I've never felt so much an outpouring of love and community and CONNECTION... This is what making art is all about. I'm so, so grateful. Thank you so much.
If you haven't had a chance to check out the kickstarter, YOU SHOULD GO DO THAT THING. I'm making something really cool with the help of some really cool artists!
A new fantasy novel by Alexandra Rowland, author of A TASTE OF GOLD AND IRON, RUNNING CLOSE TO THE WIND, & YIELD UNDER GREAT PERSUASION
(Signal boosts very much appreciated!)
kicking my feet and giggling. Let’s goooooooo
First illustration reveal for THE WISDOM OF EMPERORS!!!
My artist @qwertyprophecy has knocked it out of the park again <3 The first illustration completed for the book is of the Jeweled Gates of Xereccio -- I told Mosu the vibes were "Ancient Sumerian ruins before they became ruins" and "the Hanging Gardens of Babylon" and "the Gates of Ishtar". STUNNING STUNNING STUNNING art, go check it out!!!
Just in time for the ONE WEEK LEFT mark, my artist Mosu has finished the first interior illustration, the Jeweled Gates of Xereccio! Behold
This illustration is INCREDIBLE. Go support this Kickstarter!!!!!
extremely bold of ilya to bring up marrying svetlana when literally no one knew where he was at this remote cottage
man was truly playing with his life in that conversation
oh they were so in love already i feel sick
The Fantasy Romans Book -- Merch Reveal #2
First of all, I want to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who has signed up on Kickstarter to get notified when THE WISDOM OF EMPERORS campaign goes live! And seven or eight more huge thank-yous to everyone who has been signal-boosting about it! Without the support of a publisher and their marketing budget, the success of a book is entirely contingent on grassroots support from fans, so I am truly grateful to see such an incredible response already, even before the campaign has launched. Just two weeks to go! Let's keep the momentum going!
On to today's merch reveal! Or, rather, a merch reveal plus a peek at what the first stretch goal will be after the Kickstarter reaches its funding goal...
Not a huge fan of the red on the usual cover? Prefer a book that will coordinate with any outfit so that strangers on the subway will think you're impressively stylish? Planning to get the standard hardback rather than the Collector's Edition, but still want to jazz it up a little? Planning to get both versions and want them to look equally twinkly when they're side-by-side on your shelf? The Goth Version has you... covered... (Look, I grimaced too as I wrote that.)
Available as an add-on when we reach $500 over our funding goal, The Goth Version is an alternate colorway dust jacket in black/grey -- and yes, it'll still have the gold foil on the cover! :) Which do you like more, the black or the red? Let me know in the comments!
ALSO, over on Kickstarter, there's an exclusive excerpt from the book, featuring Gaius Talius (the scribe of a 2000-year-old manuscript found in an archaeological excavation) having a Very Bad Day. Read it here:
First of all, I want to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who has signed up to follow this project so far, and seven or eight more huge thank
A GOTH VERSION

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The Fantasy Romans book, at last
So excited to reveal the cover to my new book today, The Wisdom of Emperors! You can check it out on Kickstarter, along with the full summary!
Inspired by the story of the Ancient Roman emperor Hadrian and his lover Antinous, The Wisdom of Emperors is a second-world adult fantasy novel written in the style of a fictional academic text. It documents the translation and study of a world-changing artifact discovered in an archaeological dig: a manuscript which provides the clues to finally unravel the mysteries surrounding one of the most famous emperors of the ancient world.
The Kickstarter campaign is for the deluxe collector's edition, but you'll be able to preorder the standard hardback/paperback, PLUS the early-access ebook, available to backers well before general publication to everyone else. And there's going to be some really, REALLY cool merch as well (genuine papyrus bookmarks, designed and blockprinted by my own hands!)
Anyway, the Kickstarter goes live on May 5th at 4:00pm EST, so if you are the sort of person who reads news articles about major new archaeological discoveries and gets SUPER MAD that they don't tell you absolutely everything about why it's important and what it changes about what we thought we knew..... this one's for you, babe. ;)
Also I was told by a publishing industry insider that this book probably wouldn't sell because publishers are explicitly saying that they don't want "challenging" books, they want books that (and i QUOTE) "aren't necessarily making readers think"
So if that pisses you the FUCK off, sauce me a signal boost.
The Fantasy Romans book, at last
So excited to reveal the cover to my new book today, The Wisdom of Emperors! You can check it out on Kickstarter, along with the full summary!
Inspired by the story of the Ancient Roman emperor Hadrian and his lover Antinous, The Wisdom of Emperors is a second-world adult fantasy novel written in the style of a fictional academic text. It documents the translation and study of a world-changing artifact discovered in an archaeological dig: a manuscript which provides the clues to finally unravel the mysteries surrounding one of the most famous emperors of the ancient world.
The Kickstarter campaign is for the deluxe collector's edition, but you'll be able to preorder the standard hardback/paperback, PLUS the early-access ebook, available to backers well before general publication to everyone else. And there's going to be some really, REALLY cool merch as well (genuine papyrus bookmarks, designed and blockprinted by my own hands!)
Anyway, the Kickstarter goes live on May 5th at 4:00pm EST, so if you are the sort of person who reads news articles about major new archaeological discoveries and gets SUPER MAD that they don't tell you absolutely everything about why it's important and what it changes about what we thought we knew..... this one's for you, babe. ;)
Sign me the fuck UP thank you
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imagining a time where shane tells ilya that he put on a suit before their first hookup. like, years down the line they’re dressing up for an event and shane looks in the mirror and starts giggling. having flashbacks of fixing his tie just like he’s doing right now. and ilya’s like ??? "what is so funny?" and shane obviously tries to play it off. all “nothing. it’s nothing.” but he has this goofy ass look on his face he can’t quite hide. it’s not until ilya gets all up in his space, hands sliding around his waist, puppy dog eyes coming out in full force, that shane goes “it just reminded me of the first time we got together”. and this really throws ilya through a loop because huh?? and so he has to explain. how he was so nervous and so excited and so full of uncontrolled energy that he put on a full suit and tie before ilya came knocking on his door. how he then had to scramble to take it all off, put it away neatly, and then act like he wasn't just sitting in the dark thinking he had lost his mind. this, obviously, sets ilya off. laughing, tears in his eyes. because this is the love of his life. he's so in love with this goofy ass boy that not only had this ridiculous idea, but that fully went through with it for a minute. he gathers enough composure to hit him with a "so you were reaaally trying to impress me, yes?". safe to say they were late to the event.
the Original playoffs ice kiss coming out :’)
they walked so Skip could run

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Shane on the beach in Tampa is THE moment for me. Like he has spent so much time pretending. Pretending that he likes women, that he is happy to be micromanaged and told what his life should look like. Pretending like he doesn't care about Ilya, that he doesn't want something more.
But something changed when he accepted that he didn't have to pretend with Rose. When he got to share a part of him he's hidden for so long (from himself as much as anyone else!) and it turned out okay. The world didn't come crashing down on him, he gained a friend and sense of who he was that he'd been lying to himself about for a really long time. He got to control a little aspect of his life that looked different from the perfect micromanaged life that had been written for him.
So when he gets to Tampa he's still running on the high of being honest and feeling the freedom of someone knowing you and wanting you around anyway. And he knows! He knows Ilya wants him around anyway! He knows that Ilya was trying with the tuna melts and asking him to stay. He knows there was something just fundamentally different that day and it wasn't just him. And, importantly, he knows he can't run away from it any more. He doesn't want to.
So he's honest. He tells Ilya he looks good (in public!). Tells him he doesn't feel like being managed (he's in charge of his own life now!). Tries, in his own way, to explain to Ilya that it couldn't have ever worked with Rose (they're not compatible, could never be compatible, not like you, not like us). He's not pretending any more, and for the first time in his life he is driving his own narrative.
Which is why it is so huge that Shane asks Ilya for his room number. He's never been the one to ask before. Ilya has always been the one to push their relationship forwards but Shane has this agency that carries him through that entire day. He asks for Ilya's room number! He tells him he's gay! He's honest about it being different last time! He tells Ilya he likes him!
He's finally taking control of his own life, and there's a lack of pretense around his desires that is so scary for both of them but ultimately is what allows them to shed Hollander and Rozanov for good, and step into their lives together as Shane and Ilya.
what is your room number?
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