The dark Side

**TRIGGER WARNING** ↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭ Hey my name is Key and I reached 27. I'm half american, half german plus some other Countrys. And this is my Story ... 2011/11/24 the Day where it all began ... My father had to be picked up by an ambulance because he has gotten no more Air ... Due to a severe double pneumonia and septicemia. His blood cancer busied Him too. That was the worst thing I've ever experienced, but I didn't know that it will get worse. He came to the hospital to the ICU. The first time I did not go to see Him because my Mom told Me that it doesn't looked nice. Couple days later He had to go Artificial Coma because it was pretty bad. Every day We had to pray that He makes it. The doctors told us, it could be that He doesn't survive it. But He fought and survived it!! When they woke Him slowly up after weeks, Christmas and New Year He had missed, He could no longer speak. He did not even know who I was, for Me the whole world fall apart and I broke down in tears. Weeks later He was able to speak a little. Of course, He kept on practicing. It was all better and He was moved to rehab. The other part of My family and I, We were so happy about it, We really thought it will be better. And this back and forth followed a year and a month so on. In 2013 He came back home. Now I have to live with that I have a very sick Dad at home who need help often and much. In this terrible time of fear I only have to work like a machine and that was my Fault. For this reason it all came back to Me. I'm just writing in school bad grades, have lost many good friends and the worst of all I've fallen into a depression and hurt myself without knowing it. Now in the last few months I've realized that I need help and I went back to my psychologist. Until I can go to rehab I'm trying to survive. This is my dark side, I hate this side but unfortunately it belongs to me now. ↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭↭