Take Me Down to the Paradise City

I'm one with the Catholic Church in welcoming Pope Francis in the Philippines! May his teachings of love, mercy, humility and compassion resonate with everyone regardless of race, social class, or religious belief.

Spent my wonderful 2-week holiday va-cay in Manila with the people I love dearly. That was just so much fun! For the most part, we just stayed in watching, talking, playing, pigging out, laughing, etc etc. We also went out a couple of times to shop, dine and just spent more time together doing anything and everything! I totally missed them.

Anyway back to reality! I'm currently in another city away from home for my new appointment.  But I really don’t mind, because this reality just keeps on molding me to become a better person; career-wise.  If only it didn’t come with so much documentation and people-handling work. But yeah, still looking forward to it!

I just can't wait for more adventures 2015 has to offer. I'm so ready to face and embrace  changes and the learning that goes with it. C'est la vie!

You come up with things like this - Emotional Landmines.

   I cried a lot yesterday. I feel like I am still sad. I keep hitting “emotional landmines”, as a friend recently described them to me. To which she added, ”and usually when we least expect it”. I had to think about that for a while before I understood what she meant that day — emotional landmines. What are those? 

  After much contemplation I realize that what she meant was that it isn’t as easy as just saying “I’m going to move forward now” and everything suddenly turns peachy and life is perfect. Yes, the journey begins there. Just that simply. By recognizing the goal and committing to make a change. But when you get down and dirty with it, the words alone are just not enough. It also takes action. 

I really don’t know what I’m doing. I constantly seek some type of validation as a functioning adult. I mean, obviously I’m doing something right. It’s just that I never feel “there.” I never feel good enough.