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NAME: ahn saewon AGE: 19 ( intl. )  SPECIES: human GENDER: female ORIENTATION: straight PROFESSION: first year student @ hanwool university of physical education as a rhythmic gymnast

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BODY TYPE: petite, short, skinny (due to not being able to gain weight because of strict diet and gymnastics), muscular, HAIR: (dyed) dark brown, up to her shoulders, has bangs EYES: dark brown SKIN: pale HEIGHT: 164cm / 5′3

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SIBLINGS: none PARENTS: father and mother CHILDREN: none ANY PETS?: yes [  ]  | no  [ x ]

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COLORS: pastel/any bright pink!, a fan of pastels - light green, teal, prefers light over dark SMELLS: strawberries, mango, fruity smells.  FOOD / DRINKS: (unable to eat a lot, but cheat days include cake and lots of pastries), has a sweet tooth, likes ice cream, fruit shakes, anything with strawberries ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGES?: yes  [  ]  || rarely [  ] || no [ x ] FAVORITES: gymnastics, ribbon, finally perfecting a routine, shopping, fashion, vacations, bright makeup 

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SMOKES?: yes  [  ]   ||   no  [ x ]   ||   occasionally  [  ] DRUGS?: yes  [  ]   ||   no  [ x ]   ||   occasionally  [   ] DRIVER LICENSE?:  yes  [  ]   ||   no  [ x ] EVER BEEN ARRESTED?: yes  [  ]   ||   no  [ x ]   ||   almost/detained  [  ]

“Why not? did something happen?” @chwernobyl

it had been an.. okay!! day at practice for saewon. just a normal day, normal practice.. including staying up all night rerunning routines, stretching, and conditioning without a bite to eat... with only about three hours of sleep as she needed to report back in the morning before roll call. yep, an ‘okay’ practice. yet, she smiled.

“What for?” Eunwol inquired curiously from the other. It wasn’t that Eunwol was ignorant to the need for change, but there were so many things that needed to be changed that the generality of the statement the other had said made her wonder if she agreed with the other or not.

See change was needed in some instances and not in others. Eunwol stopped herself with that thought. Doesn’t change come as a whole package? If one thing changes, wouldn’t an infinite chain of dominos fall or a smashed butterfly result in a million side effects? Change was truly scary in that manner. Eunwol wanted a lot of changes, but she feared each one for those domino, smashed butterfly reasons.

Sighing, Eunwol contemplated the now. How bad was the now and known? Yes, hunger, poverty, unequal rights, and corruption plagued this reality, but was it better than the unknown struggles of the future? Should we risk it? From a logical standpoint, maybe that was not the best move for humanity as a group.

“Why do we want to change the future? Shouldn’t we be more focused on living in the present?” Eunwol asked still very very unsure.

“because!! there are many bad, bad things in this world..!!”

wide eyes accompanied by flailing hands, motioning to draw a circle representing the ENTIRE world, helped her simple, childlike words come to life as she explained to the other what she meant. change.. there had been many, many changes in not only in the world, but to her world. the phase, ' we can change the future ', resulted because of her impulsiveness behavior, unaware of the deep thoughts that can come to mind after a sentence like that is spoken. rather rash, she spoke it without thinking. now after, she was. change, many things had changed for her. as a child, up until recently, she was an expert in her field. endless days and countless nights of her parents telling her to rest and her coach telling her to just keep going added up to what she became: a prodigy. she was someone new that even the older looked up to. she won medals from silver to gold, all by herself. from then, she grew.. and grew.. to her peak, only to start again at the bottom. what had she grown to? a freshman, she became. a normal person among the great who was much like her. when you're young, they call you a prodigy.. when you're older, they call you a genius.. but once you hit that age, you're just.. normal. she knew how closely that inched towards her, the feeling of ordinary. she wasn't that person that people looked forward to seeing anymore. unless you were a senior on cleaning duty, just let the freshman do it! those people were once the older that looked up to her.. but they just became.. prettier, skinnier, more experienced with the amount of medals she had plus ten hundred thousand. when being around people so much like her, but better, she knew.. that she just had to change it. now! she can change her future NOW! she was the only one who can change her future. to do the best she can now, in the present! like what eunwol said right in front of her. with that thought, a smile rose upon her lips as her hands reached up to gently touch her face, feeling how she smiled as her cheeks grew red with the color of happiness.