my sun and stars

“ It really makes my heart so happy to see them so happy , they love their daddy and are so happy to have him home with them, I don;t; think you’ll ever be able to leave them again” she laughed. The couple hadn’t had an intimate moment since being back together, partly because wanting their kids happy and having their moment with Grant and partly because she was still recovering from birth, but she just wanted something or anything from her husband at this point. “ A date you say? sounds interesting “ she smiled “ Wait… restaurants have places without kid menus still? I thought that was some kind joke the world was playing on me “

“ I would also like to think it’s only fair I get some attention now too right ?”She smiled getting comfortable before pouring the glasses of wine for them each and passing him his “ but not that I mind seeing you with our girls, they’ve missed you so much and seeing them have those huge smiles it worth it fully “ she said taking a sip . “ I just felt like we needed a little mommy and daddy moment , and with them all asleep seemed like the perfect moment to take it ‘ 

It had felt so amazing to have Grant back home with her and all the girls, its the way it should have always been, and she hates that for so long it wasn’t. Not only did it kill her to not have him she knew it was hurting their kids so much, but the last week of him being home had been so amazing the girls not leaving him alone and getting all their big family time in, it hadn’t left much  room for Grant and Emily to be alone. So once the kids were all settled in, Emily had made sure to pump enough incase their new born needed it. She walked into the room holding a bottle of wine and two Glasses” So is it mommys turn to have Daddy all to herself for the night ?” she smiled sitting on the bed 

@dadgustin

“ I can’t blame you for not coming or trying, I wanted to so badly but I couldn’t bring myself to feel the rejection again if you didn’t want me , you’re my whole world” she said. “ Watching Grant she stood up and put the baby back in the carrier “ yeah my cars just out here, lets go i can’t wait to see the girls face in the morning when they see you” she said. “ maybe when we get home, and Eiffle goes to sleep .. you can just hold me ? I miss your arms 

Emily looked up to him “ I’ve beena a wreck without you, I’ve put on my best face and act like i’ve Been living my life and moving on with a new baby and all, but i haven’t nothing about me has been ok, I’ try to push foward for the girls all the time, but I couldn’t do it anymore” she said. “ no the girls don’t hate you, they miss you like crazy they talk about you all the time and always ask when you’re coming home, I’ve been telliing them you’ve been staying with a friend who really needs your help” she said. Nodding her head she smiled “ lets go, I wanna go home with you, I need you to come home “

“ trust me saying Rickards felt weird again, Thats the old me . I’m a Gustin and theres nothing going to ever change that again, I’m always and forever yours: Emily said. “ I love hearing you say ‘Our” I still get butterflies when we’re together” she said. Looking down and abck up she sighed “ You’re not mad?” she asked “That I kept her from you? She does have your nose, and Smile , When she was born I could instantly see the Gustin her , looked just like Raven when she was born, I  only kept it a secret because I was scared, that if I told you it would feel like I was trying to trap you “

“ yes, A million times yes Grant, Emily Gustin is who I am and I can’t think of not having it anymore” she said. “ you need to come home , to your bed, you’re closet , i need you to be my husband again “ she said.Emily took a deep breath “ Uhm, its” she paused moving the hair out of her face” She’s yours Grant , she’s your daughter and I am so sorry I didn’t tell you 

“ No papers were signed, but lost and never really sent in “ the female said to him. “ I can’t wait to see the looks on the girls faces seeing you come home, and to wake up to you again everymorning i never want to loose you again, I might loose my mind if I did “ she said. Looking to Eiffel who was now asleep again she shook her head. “ But heres the  thing, i know i said I didn’t know who the father was, but i do and I haven’t said anything because i’m scared out of mind

Emily looked to the male as he moved his ring “ It’s not the same without you home with us, our home is empty and the girls are happy but their not as happy as they once were I know it. “ the female said.tear started to pile in her eyes as he said he was coming home “ You are? you’re coming home,?” she asked  “ i can’t explain to you how that makes me feel, so much weight was just lifted off my shoulders, but I have something else I need to say to you before you make your last decision because this may change it all for you again” she said looking down to her daughter 

Emily listened to the male speak, what he said made her stomach do flips, did he miss her like she missed him. A smile crept on her face softly “ i know.. I know I fucked up Grant I know I ruined everything but I can’t do this without you anymore, I love you so much and I can’t be me without you, you’re the half that makes me whole, my home, my heart, my everything and I will do anything to prove that to you everyday for the rest of my life,” she said.  Looking up as he lifted the chain up to reveal his ring , a small sigh of relief fell from her mouth. “ I couldn’t either mines  , as stupid as it sounds is still here” she said lifting her hand to show her ring, she couldn’t bring herself to ever take it off.”

“ I uh” she started “ This has been weighing heavy on my chest from the moment you walked out the door “ the blonde said “ I miss you Grant I .. i can’t even put into words the amount of hurt I feel looking over to your side of the bed to not see you there, Waking up in the morning to our daughters and putting on a brave face for them, I’ve lost everyone I care about but most importantly you, I feel like i’m not a complete person without you Grant, that I don’t know how to breath without you” 

“ I know, you’re so lucky I was your baby factory’ she laughed nervously, she had been hiding so much from Grant but has  been so scared of doing anything. . “ Oh yeah I can feel to that, well after the babies are all asleep and i’m not trying to clean the house “ she said. Hearing her daughter start to cry the female stood up and got the baby out of the car seat “ So I uh. I wanted to come talk to you about somethings”