moved to @bifa9

I have deleted all posts on this blog (wasn’t too hard since my old blog got deleted not too long ago anyways, there were only about 1000 posts to delete) and will not be using it anymore.  Since I deleted all posts, and for those unaware that find this later, my partner @freakierfuck and I were in a relationship with @goo-brain (now deleted) who has since confessed that he was lying about his age and is in fact a minor. I encourage you to scrub any of his content from your blog if at all possible. Obviously, we ended that relationship immediately and cut contact. Of course I care about him, though obviously not in the same way, because regardless of everything we were also friends and I know he has a lot of really difficult things to deal with in his life, and now I hate that I cannot help him with it. I sincerely hope he makes safer, healthier choices going forward. I am also completely shattered, enraged, heartbroken, I feel extremely violated. I have scrubbed my phone of all images and instances of him. I feel so fucking gross and idk really how to process rewriting the last few months of my life since it was all lies caught in a web of no one being able to consent to any of it. A lot of you know I was already struggling a lot, for personal and for general 2020 reasons. I’ve been on the brink of relapse and I’ve been drinking too much and idk how to deal with this kind of massive invasion of boundaries and betrayal and leftover worry for someone I cannot help. Anyways. Since my blog was absolutely full of posts from, for, and about him (as well as growing toxicity in the ever smaller tumblr nsfw space) I am abandoning it. I may make a new blog, I’m not sure yet, but I need some distance from this. I am leaving the blog up with this post pinned and asks turned on so that anyone who wants to find me elsewhere can. I have a main blog, discord, insta, snapchat, all that shit and if we’ve talked before you’re welcome to at least one of those. 

I’m really fucking sorry this happened at all. Short of IDing every person I interact with, idk how this could have been prevented. I guess it goes to show that you can’t trust someone just coz their “age” is in their bio. Anyways. 

I have deleted all posts on this blog (wasn’t too hard since my old blog got deleted not too long ago anyways, there were only about 1000 posts to delete) and will not be using it anymore.  Since I deleted all posts, and for those unaware that find this later, my partner @freakierfuck and I were in a relationship with @goo-brain (now deleted) who has since confessed that he was lying about his age and is in fact a minor. I encourage you to scrub any of his content from your blog if at all possible. Obviously, we ended that relationship immediately and cut contact. Of course I care about him, though obviously not in the same way, because regardless of everything we were also friends and I know he has a lot of really difficult things to deal with in his life, and now I hate that I cannot help him with it. I sincerely hope he makes safer, healthier choices going forward. I am also completely shattered, enraged, heartbroken, I feel extremely violated. I have scrubbed my phone of all images and instances of him. I feel so fucking gross and idk really how to process rewriting the last few months of my life since it was all lies caught in a web of no one being able to consent to any of it. A lot of you know I was already struggling a lot, for personal and for general 2020 reasons. I’ve been on the brink of relapse and I’ve been drinking too much and idk how to deal with this kind of massive invasion of boundaries and betrayal and leftover worry for someone I cannot help. Anyways. Since my blog was absolutely full of posts from, for, and about him (as well as growing toxicity in the ever smaller tumblr nsfw space) I am abandoning it. I may make a new blog, I’m not sure yet, but I need some distance from this. I am leaving the blog up with this post pinned and asks turned on so that anyone who wants to find me elsewhere can. I have a main blog, discord, insta, snapchat, all that shit and if we’ve talked before you’re welcome to at least one of those. 

I’m really fucking sorry this happened at all. Short of IDing every person I interact with, idk how this could have been prevented. I guess it goes to show that you can’t trust someone just coz their “age” is in their bio. Anyways.