私と一緒に逃げる

But I also don't want anything serious rn

We finally met again

I'm getting distracted again

I worked too hard trying to fix myself and to focus on myself and my responsibilities

I shouldn't be mingling with people like you just yet

I don't deserve you

I shouldn't be getting distracted with these butterflies and infatuations

I shouldn't have assumed that someone like you would actually take interest on a mere muggle like me

Whose to blame but myself

Back to these self loathing words

Back to these midnight intrusive thoughts

Back to shaming my own body

Back to this catatonic state I was once entrapped in

I should be rid if you

I'm not ready to get back into these sort of things just yet

I'm still working on myself.

I still need to work on myself.

I know what I want.

I worked so hard to get to where I'm at

I won't go back to my old ways.