mouthful of hair like a field

i don’t understand this language 

sometimes it makes the heart race (i like-like that) or slow down (i like-like that) or even stop but isn’t it lovely. nothing ends. NO, not that, i’m trying to put it into words. i lose track & it’s funny & upsetting at once... !!! but yes ! LOVE love love love what a weird wonderful thing to be landing on ! i hope i can do it softer & softer but also harder & harder again & again & AGAIN & AGAIN & AGAIN !!! 

the last time i was a child & the first time i met her

thank-you ! i don’t know what that word means but it made me giggle !! my girl-friend tells me my reaction is baby-ish & she sometimes sends a bad word to me to see my reaction & says it’s because she enjoys teasing me. i don’t like it but i do like it also, like being tickled !!! i am happier now because i have decided to not be a diary-person anymore. or not so heavily, at least. i’m learning to have more emotions & handle them with care, even the bad ones !! that’s why i can be angry, even if i’m not being mean!!!, i think. now i am booing at that person LOUD & i’m out of their reach because they are just someone always waiting inside of a toilet like a fitting-room for another hat to try on. boo !!!

source: owl’s head

"look” by hollis brown thornton 

i can’t i’m sorry i can’t really speak but i am listening & i am feeling so much wonder & i hope that if you remember your own face you will find a happy expression there. do you know how loving the stars look when it’s night-time & you are on the ground or maybe on a bench or wherever & you start to stare at them, into them & you don’t even hear your own body existing

i’m sorry my heart is such a heavy thing to carry. i love you & forgive you for making it so heavy.

i wish i could show you how bright you make my lights shine.