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I remember crying over you and I don’t mean a couple of tears and I’m blue. I’m talking about collapsing and screaming at the moon.

We lose ourselves in things we love. We find ourselves there, too.

I don’t know how to be something you miss

Why? Why do I have to feel this way? Why do I still love you this much? What is wrong with me? You didn’t even have to do anything to win over my heart. You were just there. And yet I fell so deeply into the bottomless pit of love. I’m still falling. Falling. Falling. And I can’t stop. I won’t stop. Not ever.

I’m not good at coping with all this pain at times, I swear I’m not that good at it. I just know how to hide it and pretend that everything is okay, but inside I’m really fucking dying.

At first I told myself that I would never get addicted; that I would stop before it got to that point. And then days, weeks, months, or years go by and I realize that I am, in fact, addicted.

I used to want so many great things in life and now I only want to be happy.

Never leave someone in a bad situation because you don’t know if they will be there tomorrow.

Sometimes you need to know your place in someone’s life because you might get hurt if you expect too much.

I said it was okay, but really, you were tearing my fucking heart to shreds.

Yeah of course it hurts. It hurts because you thought it was going to last forever.

I want someone to tell me that they won’t leave. That I’m worth more than being left behind.

I’m not an easy person to love, I get that. But dammit, I try my best. I try my best to be good enough for you, I try my best to make sure you’re happy and not sad when you’re with me. I try so hard to open up to you, I try so hard to not push you away at times when all I really want to do is just that. I try even when I want to stop trying, isn’t that not enough?