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tonight pissed me off so bad cause we were off to a great start, I was in my flow, giving great service everyone was nice and tipping well. then we get slammed and KITCHEN kept fucking up my orders even though I rang in every single one correctly. so I had 3 different large groups where each time only 1 person wouldn’t get their food. now I look incompetent. then this rude ass drunk bitch comes in and is snapping at my like a dog and YELLING at me while I’m taking orders at other tables. I should have cut her off immediately, but I still accommodated them only to get tipped $1 on $40 so I wrote it in to look like a $7 and even after she was cashed out she kept yelling at me and I looked at her and said “absolutely not” and I told my manager I was refusing service and he went out there and apparently all they wanted was water so then I looked like an unreasonable bitch for not getting them their water 🙄

if one more person’s dog sticks their whole face up my ass while I’m trying to drop food….

the little abuelo at my work is watching AI videos of dogs twerking again

my friend called me last night to tell me she’s not coming to my house party tonight because apparently I was “rude” to her at lunch the day prior. she was telling me what furniture I should get when I’ve already mentioned countless times I want an open & minimalist space and I jokingly said “don’t tell me how to decorate my apartment!” and she made it this whole thing and was being very dramatic about it and I’m just like ???????? hello? and now it feels like I can’t say or do anything around her I have to walk on eggshells cause she’s gonna read too deep into every little thing and act like I somehow have it out for her when I literally don’t?? and it made me mad cause I made an effort to make it out to her birthday party a few nights ago but she’s refusing to come to my party because she THINKS I got a tone with her 🙄

god hath no fury on a woman two beers in

bro should I break my sobriety and go to the corner store and get a lil sparkling wine I want it sooooooo bad

my timeline knows I’m horny cause stop putting these fine ass men I could never have in my FACE!! 😫

got these 2 books to help learn spanish and they’re not really effective. I’m just gonna watch movies, listen to music, and read short stories in spanish and see where that takes me

quit waiting for your life to happen to you and go create it. put some music on, light a candle, make yourself a little snack, get a fun drink, go sit outside, open that book, write in that journal, scribble some doodles out on your sketchbook it doesn’t have to be perfect just follow through

once again, it is safe for me to have everything I want

I just need my next check to hit, buy everything for the party, and then I’ll have everything else in savings. I’ve got plenty for all my expenses this month already. I wanna buy an air fryer and a cordless vacuum and some other things. thinking about how much of my stuff I need and want but can’t access cause it’s 6 hours away at my parents. and instead of being normal about it my dad has to stress me out. and he wonders why I never talk to him. literally was just telling my therapist about this.

I got a new lamp that makes the walls look like the ocean and it’s two sides so the other side is like a sunset light and it’s sooooo pretty and such a vibe

everyone I know is so insistent I get furniture for my living room and I’m just like…, no. like I already said I don’t want any. I like it this way. I like the open space. I want this to be a versatile space you don’t get to dictate how I fill it. they just can’t fathom not having a conventional living room with a couch and a tv at the center. like bitch this is my art studio/ yoga space. fuck a couch. I might get a love seat in the corner. but give me a break I’ve only been moved in a week and everyone expects me to have it fully furnished. and then my parents are threatening to throw out a trailer full of all of my stuff from when I moved out of my house just because they need to use the trailer. and my dad said I probably don’t need any of it cause I’ve gone a year without it and I was like no, I have my bar cart and other things I want in there. I just haven’t had anywhere to put it all until now. and I’m sure now they’ll find a way to come dump it all on me at once instead of bringing the things I asked in a visit that still hasn’t happened.