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my friend called me last night to tell me she’s not coming to my house party tonight because apparently I was “rude” to her at lunch the day prior. she was telling me what furniture I should get when I’ve already mentioned countless times I want an open & minimalist space and I jokingly said “don’t tell me how to decorate my apartment!” and she made it this whole thing and was being very dramatic about it and I’m just like ???????? hello? and now it feels like I can’t say or do anything around her I have to walk on eggshells cause she’s gonna read too deep into every little thing and act like I somehow have it out for her when I literally don’t?? and it made me mad cause I made an effort to make it out to her birthday party a few nights ago but she’s refusing to come to my party because she THINKS I got a tone with her 🙄

god hath no fury on a woman two beers in

bro should I break my sobriety and go to the corner store and get a lil sparkling wine I want it sooooooo bad

my timeline knows I’m horny cause stop putting these fine ass men I could never have in my FACE!! 😫

got these 2 books to help learn spanish and they’re not really effective. I’m just gonna watch movies, listen to music, and read short stories in spanish and see where that takes me

quit waiting for your life to happen to you and go create it. put some music on, light a candle, make yourself a little snack, get a fun drink, go sit outside, open that book, write in that journal, scribble some doodles out on your sketchbook it doesn’t have to be perfect just follow through

also you can’t love the south in its entirety without acknowledging black people have CREATED a lot of the culture here too. white people don’t own the south. it’s ignorance from both sides. white northerners and white southerners.

they say we should “forget” about slavery but then we’re still seeing the effects of it to this very day. even in a simple map of the population by region. that’s so eye opening to me.

like I’m a very southern person and my dialect and accent will come out sometimes and I’ve had people not from southern regions think I was faking it lmfao. like no that’s how we really talk a lot of the time. white people and black people. it’s a REGIONAL dialect not a race thing. and I will die on this hill. it’s honestly racist of them to assume that only black people can speak a certain way cause I know plenty of very southern black people and plenty from the city and the burbs. I’m proud of my southerness and I think there needs to be better education cause it’s such a misunderstood region. like when I say I’m proud to be southern I’m talking about southern hospitality, and the rolling georgia hills, the red clay, sweet tea, peach trees, farm to table food, helping your neighbors. not in a gun slinging, tobacco chewing, confederate flag waving way 🙄 (although leftists should have guns too) there’s a lot more to the south than how it’s portrayed in media. I think we have a rich history and culture and that history needs to be acknowledged in all its good and its bad. we can’t talk about these things without addressing racism, poverty, education, environmentalism. I’m very passionate about that.

once again, it is safe for me to have everything I want

I just need my next check to hit, buy everything for the party, and then I’ll have everything else in savings. I’ve got plenty for all my expenses this month already. I wanna buy an air fryer and a cordless vacuum and some other things. thinking about how much of my stuff I need and want but can’t access cause it’s 6 hours away at my parents. and instead of being normal about it my dad has to stress me out. and he wonders why I never talk to him. literally was just telling my therapist about this.

I got a new lamp that makes the walls look like the ocean and it’s two sides so the other side is like a sunset light and it’s sooooo pretty and such a vibe