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girl I normally get along with at work just got snippy with me for no reason wtf

I think they’re training my replacement in front of me idk I just feel it the vibes are weird

dude I’m really starting to become absolutely miserable at my job and it’s only been like 3 months. several coworkers have decided to make an enemy of me. and I would love for someone to sit them down and ask what their issue is because I guarantee there is no actual reason. every day I show up and do my job and go home. I’m not bothering anyone. I’ve actually gone above and beyond several times and was CRITICIZED for making sure everything was stocked before a shift once. I come in early every day of my own volition and make sure every server station is stocked in preparation for my shift. I’m trying really hard to be good with my tables, EVEN WHEN I get the most obnoxious entitled people ever which happens every day. I swallow down my feelings and put on the performance and it’s eating away at me. being a server in a restaurant genuinely feels like psychological torture. the condescending attitude I face from complete strangers everyday and then whether or not I make a living wage depending on them is one thing. but then there’s the people I work with. one minor mistake and suddenly I’m enemy number one. and they don’t tell me what I did to piss them off they just huff and puff and become passive aggressive. and I talked about this with my therapist and now I can’t unsee it. we had an entire conversation about how women with adhd are constantly facing all of these micro criticisms that we internalize. and we begin to think it’s something inherently wrong with us. when in actuality someone decided to take my resting face or a monotone response as “rudeness” and run with it because unlike them I’m not constantly performing for others. the thought of that exhausts me. I don’t play the ass kissing olympics. even when I come into work and just stay out of the way and focus on my job someone finds a reason to be upset with me. I read an article about how girls and women with ADHD experience WAY more microcriticisms throughout our lives vs our neurotypical counterparts and now I can’t unsee it. every microexpression of mine is warped into an act of deliberate defiance. meanwhile I’m left wondering what I even did. my achievements go overlooked, but dare I stumble in the slightest and I’m being dissected under a microscope. it’s taking a toll on me physically and mentally. I can’t afford to lose this job right now and I can’t imagine a way out either.

I love people watching cause sometimes you see a baddie

dude came up to my 19 yr old coworker at work with those meta ray bans on and was trying to be like one of those corny tiktok pick up artists he was like “I changed my location in my phone to my destination and it led me to you” and she was so confused she thought he was a door dasher and then she noticed he was recording and kind of laughed him off but then she came back and told us how uncomfortable it made her and how she doesn’t want to be posted online and we were all just stank eyeing the dude the rest of the shift cause he went back and sat at the bar and then he saw me sitting and tried to come up and do the same thing to me, same line and everything, like didn’t even bother switching it up, and I said “yeah I’m not doing that” and he went “ok” and was like defeated and put his head down and went back and sat at the bar again and took the glasses off but kept like staring at us the whole time it was super bizarre he was clearly from another country so he had a heavy accent and he didn’t even approach us with full confidence so I’m not sure what his thought process was but he finally left after we talked shit about him loud enough for him to hear us for like a good 15 minutes and I got a picture of him on my phone

addicted to saying “hello” in response to anything and everything like I really don’t think I’ll stop any time soon

anyone else with curly hair relate to the experience of it looking its best when you don’t even try. like mine will look best if I go straight from the shower to sleeping on it wet with no product.