:-)

once again, it is safe for me to have everything I want

I just need my next check to hit, buy everything for the party, and then I’ll have everything else in savings. I’ve got plenty for all my expenses this month already. I wanna buy an air fryer and a cordless vacuum and some other things. thinking about how much of my stuff I need and want but can’t access cause it’s 6 hours away at my parents. and instead of being normal about it my dad has to stress me out. and he wonders why I never talk to him. literally was just telling my therapist about this.

I got a new lamp that makes the walls look like the ocean and it’s two sides so the other side is like a sunset light and it’s sooooo pretty and such a vibe

everyone I know is so insistent I get furniture for my living room and I’m just like…, no. like I already said I don’t want any. I like it this way. I like the open space. I want this to be a versatile space you don’t get to dictate how I fill it. they just can’t fathom not having a conventional living room with a couch and a tv at the center. like bitch this is my art studio/ yoga space. fuck a couch. I might get a love seat in the corner. but give me a break I’ve only been moved in a week and everyone expects me to have it fully furnished. and then my parents are threatening to throw out a trailer full of all of my stuff from when I moved out of my house just because they need to use the trailer. and my dad said I probably don’t need any of it cause I’ve gone a year without it and I was like no, I have my bar cart and other things I want in there. I just haven’t had anywhere to put it all until now. and I’m sure now they’ll find a way to come dump it all on me at once instead of bringing the things I asked in a visit that still hasn’t happened.

I can’t come up with a cute wifi name 😔

slipped up and told the lil kitchen guy who has a crush on me that one of my exes was also from Nicaragua. I feel like I saw his eyes light up 😭😂 maybe it’ll work in my favor it the form of free food

I had a really good lunch now I’m starting to get hungry and I’m craving spending $11 I don’t need to

I wanna go homeeeee

people think life is so easy when you’re a beautiful woman cause your looks get you everywhere when in reality people are incredibly rude to young pretty women especially if they’re naturally bubbly and kind. while pretty privilege does exist, pretty women are often the most targeted and exploited. they’re dehumanized and treated like a product, a shiny trophy, a status symbol. and god forbid you have opinions or a personality cause then that ruins the illusion people had of you.

brought candy for the cook who always hooks me up and I said “I brought you a present” and the asshole server I don’t like and never talk to was like “you brought me a present?” boy why the fuck would I be talking to YOU?

it’s gross and rainy outside and I’m the only server with tables which is a whopping 3. any anyway one table is a bunch of old annoying business men who prob won’t tip and another table is a couple sitting nearly in the rain with their 3 week old newborn. hello? can’t wait to take my newborn out in the rain to drink beer

delivery person left a whole bag of someone else’s order mixed in with my groceries, someone is gonna be pissed. but I got free head of broccoli, cauliflower, an EGGPLANT, fresh organic chicken breast, a whole bag of onions and potatoes. thanks.

do we really need another god damn superman movie cause now I’m pissed off thinking about it