Burnt Out B*tch

Made my own plan for the next 4 weeks to kick-start my wl cuz not a lot has changed so far this year

Hopefully I'll be doing daily logs of my intake and exercise ♡

~ Day 10: 19/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: 79.0𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: 27.7

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 1,018

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 207 (goal - fast (Day 10 & 11 swapped around))

~ 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: 20 hours 49 mins

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Nil

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Nil

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Chicken & carrot - 207

𝒮𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈: ~ Nil

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I decided to swap around the days because it worked better for me to fast today instead of tomorrow as tomorrow I will be going out to the movies.

Still haven't managed to fast for a full day yet. I got close, but I need to do better. I gave in and had a little bit of dinner.

~ Day 9: 18/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: 79.7𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: 27.9

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 8,575

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 994 (goal 900)

~ 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: 18 hours 15 mins

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Nil

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Coffee with lactose free milk, protein yogurt, grain twists - 214

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Gluten free chicken schnitzel, sweet potato chips - 390

𝒮𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈: ~ Rice cakes, jelly - 144

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I made it out of 80's jail!!! Not letting it get my guard down too much tho cuz I've only just hit it.

Went a bit over my food goal, but I managed to keep my dinner portions fairly low.

Had hip hop class tonight and it was very fun, although it does make me sweat a tonne. Hoping when I lose more I'll start to sweat less.

~ Day 8: 17/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: 𝟪𝟢.7𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: 𝟤𝟪.3

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 8,963

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 954 (goal 1000)

~ 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: 16 hours 7 mins

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Protein yogurt, grain twists - 239

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Egg fried rice - 438

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Nil

𝒮𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈: ~ Rice cakes, chocolate, jelly - 277

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Got back on track again, my lunch was leftover from takeout my partner got over the weekend so I estimated it and added a few more cals to my calculations.

Started a tap class for the first time in years. I was a little out of my depth but it was fun so I'm gonna try and keep going. It's also very easy to get your steps up doing tap aha.

~ Day 7: 16/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: ???𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: ???

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 1,084

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 831 (goal 1,000)

~ 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: Not recorded

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ 4 Cocktail frankfurters, iced coffee - 356

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Nil

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Nil

𝒮𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈: ~ Chickadees - 475

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Kept today a bit more low-key than yesterday, managed to stay under my goal. Didn't get my steps in as I was recovering from last night.

Honestly not much else to say other than I didn't realise how many cals a bag of puffy chips has (Chickadees are kind of the same consistency as cheese puffs). Very misleading

~ Day 6: 15/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: ??𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: ??

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 7,317

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 2,991 (goal 1200)

~ 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: 12 hours 40 mins

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Egg fried rice, chocolate - 751

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Nil

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Salt & pepper squid, 2.5 falafel balls, shoestring fries, seltzer, Tommy's marg, gin & tonic - 997

𝒮𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈: ~ Red wine, honey macadamias, apple cider, 4 cocktail frankfurters - 1243

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Today was a big hit... I gave in to the valentines chocolates this morning which was a bad way to start the day. I went and saw a musical with my friends which we bought tickes for over a year ago, and the musical itself was amazing, giving into the food - not so much.

We went out for dinner before the show and for the actual meal I didn't think I did to bad. My partner and I shared 3 sides because I couldn't eat a whole meal as most options had gluten (I'm coeliac) and I didn't want to eat a whole meal anyway.

The biggest problem, obiously, was the drinking. I don't even know why I drink so much on the occasions that I do. Like I get the enjoyment of feeling a bit loose or getting wasted, but after 3 standards I start to feel nauseous. I've been diagnosed with mild to moderate gastroparesis, which is why I think my body acts so negatively towards the alcohol. I used to never get sick from drinking, but now I do nearly every time.

I should probably be more vocal about what it does to me and not give in when there is peer pressure. I think I'll just stick to the green for now.

~ Day 5: 14/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: 𝟪𝟢.0𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: 𝟤𝟪.0

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 1,417

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 1,870 (goal 1400)

~ 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: 19 hours 45 mins

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Nil

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Meat balls - 175

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Pad see ew, vodka drink and white wine - est. 1695

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Well I knew today was going to be bad seeing as its Valentines Day, but I don't think I realised just how many cals there are in alcohol.

I also want to mention that I have a bit of a crippling fear of thunderstorms, and where I live especially in the summer we get a lot of them (southern hemisphere). Today there were scattered thunderstorms all throughout the day which meant I was too scared to go outside to get my steps up or really do much at all.

I tried to go through the day without anything cuz I knew dinner was going to be a lot, but I caved and had 3 meatballs that were leftovers in the fridge because the hunger was adding to my overall anxiety.

Not really sure I'll realistically be able to make up the steps I missed today, so I might think about changing the rules of this plan slightly just so I can make sure I am able to get back to the plan more easily if I fall off slightly, rather it becomming too big of a task leading me to just give up entirely.

~ Day 4: 13/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: 𝟪𝟢.2𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: 𝟤𝟪.1

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 8,600

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 658 (goal 800)

~ 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: 26 hours 30 mins

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Nil

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Garlic Pappadams, peaches in juice - 207

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ 6 beef meatballs - 350

𝒮𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈: ~ Protein water - 101

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Well I managed to just barely make up the steps I missed yesterday, I went on a long walk but I still had to pace around my house before I went to bed to make sure I did enough.

I was feeling quite exhausted today, but I think im starting to get over some of the hunger pains and the urge to eat or snack.

I bought some wide konjac noodles and some chicken so I think I'm gonna try making a low cal pad see ew tomorrow for lunch after my fast.

~ Day 3: 12/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: 𝟪𝟢.2𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: 𝟤𝟪.1

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 5,569

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 492 (goal - fast)

~ 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: 22 hours

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Nil

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Nil

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Half of a gf chicken schnitzel, half a cup of pesto pasta, apple cider - 492

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Uuughhhh I was so close to making it the whole day but I got into a situation where I couldn't get out of eating so I made sure to have as little of it as possible.

I wen't to a friends gig and it was a competition but you voted for a band by buying a drink, and I'm very close to this friend and really wanted to put in a vote so I got an apple cider.

Tomorrow's goal is 800, but I think I will try for 400 to somewhat make up for today. I'll also need to make up the steps I missed today, so tomorrow I'll have to do 8,431

~ Day 2: 11/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: 𝟪𝟢.4𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: 𝟤𝟪.𝟤

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 8,651

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 877 (goal 1000)

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Grain twists, protein yogurt - 239

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ Peach cup with juice, raspberry jelly, rice cakes - 225

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Konjac ramen with gf chicken karaage - 413 (estimate)

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Again I have surprised myself how I only have to put in a little effort and commitment to reach these goals so far. I was worried about dinner tonight because I was going out with my bf for our anniversary, but incredibly they offered konjac noodles!

Thismorning I got the bus to work and because I was early I stayed on the bus past my stop so I could get some steps in. There was also a lot of walking heading to dinner and heading home, so that helped.

I'm a bit worried about the fast tomorrow as I'm supposed to be going to a gig and I don't know how I'm gonna go without drinking.

~ Day 1: 10/2/25

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~ 𝒲ℯ𝒾ℊ𝒽𝓉: 𝟪𝟢.4𝓀ℊ

~ ℬℳℐ: 𝟤𝟪.𝟤

~ 𝒮𝓉ℯ𝓅𝓈: 7,37𝟢

~ 𝒯ℴ𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒞𝒶𝓁: 𝟣212 (goal 1200)

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ℬ𝓇ℯ𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉: ~ Grain twists, protein yogurt - 239

ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒸𝒽: ~ GF gnocchi with napoletana sauce - 386

𝒟𝒾𝓃𝓃ℯ𝓇: ~ Protein drink, grain twists, rice cakes - 313

𝒮𝓃𝒶𝒸𝓀𝓈: ~ Dried peas, raspberry jelly, rice cakes - 274

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First day following my plan and I'm suprised that I made it through and stuck as close to the plan as possible. I wasn't able to go to dance class because of extreme weather, but the steps from my walk managed to carry me through.

I feel like I'm having to fight this urge of wanting to feel full. I've come to find a lot of comfort in it when I was stress eating and I need to train myself not to feel like that again.

I had a pretty good distribution of carbs to fat to protein according to my health app. My guess is that I should try to follow that as much as possible to minimise any negative side effects.

I hate my body so much, and I hate what I have done to it. I need to fix this, I know I can do it.

As far as the weekly bc's I don't think I will post those on here. I'm also logging this plan on my twt and I think I might post the bc's there but I'm not too sure yet.