Believe Nothing on the Faith of Traditions

all the rants. I know.

Social media is an interesting creature. I often think back to how much I liked people before Facebook. Many individuals put their deeper thoughts and opinions on FB ( not as though I could exclude myself), but it made me realize something. I was able to like to many more people, and accept them for face value, before I had access to all of their subtle individuality. I don’t know if this is a bad thing or an enlightening one. I don’t think a person should be defined by one particular area of personality, it just so happens that on FB you get to see it so much more prominently. For instance, it never bothered me that other people felt differently about, let’s say.. abortion, than I do. The problem with FB is that it allows us to “like” and “share” so much without even considering it. I might see 15 anti-abortion religious posts from someone in 2 days, whereas in real life, I may only have that conversation one or two times in a year or less. I can’t really decide if FB lets me see what is important to some people, or if it actually limits what I can see and know about them by only getting to see the part of themselves that they are willing to post on social media.  Which goes into another deeper philosophical argument...is what someone is willing to “post” the most important part of themselves because they are willing to share it? Lord who knows. All I know is that now I am off of FB and don’t need to consider it.  I can only tolerate Tumblr because I have made it so private that only a few people know it exists.  I manage my Instagram because I like photo recording memories. Life on this end is very merry. Winston-Salem was the best choice that I ever could have made. Several people were surprised that I chose this area because of the conservatism the media promotes. Honestly, at least in my area, I haven’t encountered any backwards social views. I wear tattoo’s to work and there is an LGBT community. There is also a very interesting punk scene. Even when I lived in the more progressive areas of WV I didn’t encounter as much diversity, culture, or art. I’m not faced with near as much drug abuse, and while the county in which I work has a good deal of poverty, it isn’t like what I am used to being around. I find the differing cultures of poverty very interesting. One would think that it would be the same everywhere, but I suppose that is a very close-minded view. By going new places, having adventures and experiences, I’m changing and expanding my perception of the world around me. That is my life goal and something I’m excited to share with Channing.  My relationship with David is fantastic. You know, about 4 years ago I hit rock bottom and it has been a steady climb out of the pit. It took more introspection than I was ever willing to admit that I needed. It took some counseling, treatment, and testing the waters. I’ve dated a couple of guys for 6-8 weeks, I was in a relationship with one for about 7 months. I can honestly say that I didn’t have a bad experience with any of them; our lives simply didn’t mesh and things didn’t work out. That it sort of a REALLY big deal for me. Mainly because all of my other relationships have ended on significantly bad terms....very significantly bad terms. It’s like, “ HEY! After 15 years maybe I’m making better decisions!” With that being said, David is my other half. I don’t think I ever would have recognized how truly wonderful of a man he is if I hadn’t had my prior experiences. So in that respect, though I never realized it before, I’m thankful for all that has come to pass. I’m thankful for every crap experience and every bit of broken trust because it made me who I am today, and I am happy. I’m happy and that is what really matters. My kiddo is doing fantastic. He is a smart little booger and very well adjusted despite all of this moving. I love him so much and I’m so thankful for him. he has made my live so much more valuable.  Well that is it for my update. I’m off to do mom stuff ;)