36 hours post delivery of the most beautiful baby girl in the world but I had an extremely traumatic delivery so much so that I’m not sure I could go through it again but I’m going to post it here since I don’t plan on posting it elsewhere and I need it out of my head.
Unfortunately she was JUST under 9lb and sunny side up which posed its own challenges that required uncomfortable maneuvers to get her to drop into my pelvis or else they were going to do a c section. Thankfully that was successful but I then had to labor down fully dilated and effaced for 5 hours without an effective epidural, until the OB said to cut the epidural because I needed to rely on the pressure to get her out to the point where I wasn’t able to stop pushing no matter what I did.
I had an extremely painful delivery, required an episiotomy and still tore in several directions because of her size and position. My body was so tired after that that I wasn’t contracting to deliver the placenta. Doctor applied gentle traction to the cord for a while until the cord broke off entirely, which meant he had to reach elbow deep into my uterus to scoop it out because I started hemorrhaging. Again, with a cut epidural so I felt everything. That was the most excruciating and traumatizing thing in the world.
Lidocaine didn’t work so I felt every stitch to repair but I was so out of it from blood loss that it almost didn’t matter. I was in a complete daze and could barely keep my eyes open.
Proceeded to pass out even after being given medications to stop the bleeding and didn’t get to hold my baby until 6 hours later because I was too weak.
36 hours later and I can barely walk and still get dizzy when I stand but she’s absolutely perfect.
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