Hello! I know not many will see this, but Iāll post it anyway, Iāve been thinking of what to do with this blog and I think Iāve decided.
About me:
Iāll start with introductions, I go by Ray and/or Leonard, both are fine, but I use Ray more often online, Iām a guy(sort of, pronouns donāt matter) and also pretty gay, if that offends you, kindly leave. Iām a fan of all of project moonās work, reverse 1999, ultrakill and various other things. This blog will however remain dedicated to project moon.
About the blog:
I only recently made this blog and have been thinking on what to do with it for a little while. Iāve decided on writing fanfic requests for the Project Moon games, however donāt expect super high quality or fast work, as I am relatively new to writing and am doing this mainly to improve it, as I canāt really bring myself to write for myself, the requests are here to motivate me. I have played and analyzed all the games, but my expertise lies in Limbus, additionally, this is mainly a Heathcliff centric blog, but I am willing and want to write for others too.
What I will and wonāt write:
I can write most things, but I have a preference for fluff, my own interest lies mainly in relationships between men, which means my writing for that would be better than other things, so if I canāt write for something all that well Iāll probably not take the request. (Sorry!) Still, feel free to ask, Iāll at least try to write most requests.
Gender and sexuality headcanons can also be requested, just make sure to clearly state what headcanon you want me to write for.
Iām also completely willing to write x reader fics or specifically for limbus multiple ids of the same sinner with each other(themself?).
I probably wonāt write any longer fics any time soon.
Now what I wonāt write:
Non-con/rape: I do not think I have the experience to write about this while giving people who actually experienced this the respect they deserve.
Heathmael: while I do not have any objections to the ship, I personally donāt see their chemistry and thus would not be able to write them well.
Smut: I know I originally said that I would write this, but after thinking about a little more I realized Iām not entirely comfortable with that.
If a request makes me particularly uncomfortable there is more to be added here.
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Shout out to all the Black ppl that can no longer participate directly in the fandom they love because of the stresses of racism šš¾ you contain multitudes of value and I'm sorry that the color of your skin and the power of your voice makes people not want to acknowledge that.
Heavy breathing, horrible aches. A loud crack, then a stinging feeling in his right hand. He looks up at what was once a mirror. The running tap the only sound he hears.
Heās greeted by the most pathetic sight. Is that him? He stares for a good few seconds. What would Master do if she figured out he broke this mirror?
A sob breaks through the constant noise from the tap. The stinging in his hand suddenly doesnāt feel that bad anymore. Neither do her beatings from earlier.
She has something concrete now. An actual reason, when she feels further justified, how much worse will it be? That nagging feeling at the back of his mind too, heās forgetting something.
He needs to stop wallowing in self pity andā¦ clean this mess up. Before he forgets his role again. If he fills his role properly thereās no reason, right?
Heās just been doing it wrong all this time. Thatās why she doesnāt stop. As long as he blames her, thatās a personal failing. A textbook mustnāt feel too strongly, feelingās not why heās here.
He begins washing his face, blood and tears mixing with the water. He dries off and wraps a towel around his injured hand. He shouldnāt stain the carpet.
Master is out cold, that gives him a 30 minute window to fix this. Heād ask one of the other apprentices for help, but he hasnāt been able to get close enough to any of them to ask a favour like that.
They probably donāt want to bother Master, if she gets angry, a conflict between Nursefathers might follow. Guess itās just up to him.
Where the hell would he find a whole mirror? How would he even set it up? He doesnāt have the resources or technical knowledge for this. What is he thinking?
Master is right, heās grossly incompetent. Heās incapable of anything else than being a textbook and even fails at that.
He needs to stop lamenting his own stupidity! Fix this mistake, seeing as heās too pathetic to face the consequences he called upon himself.
He wanders into the halls, hurried footsteps sounding in this usually empty space. He doesnāt like how loud they appear. Masterās a heavy sleeper, butā¦
He doesnāt finish that thought. Instead, he turns his attention to where heās actually walking. By force of habit, he appears to have gone to the corridor of the Pinky.
ā¦ Thereās too little time to go anywhere else, this is his only choice. Thereās always been that underlying pity whenever he spoke to the inhabitants of this corridor.
He doesnāt like that. It makes him feel lesser. Not like he has a lot of pride to cling to anyway. Heās here begging for help, so theyāre probably right to pity him.
Itās the best option he has. The two of youā¦ mainly you, have been rather kind compared to the others. At least youāre the only apprentice who doesnāt actively avoid him.
He breathes in, then out. He raises a hand to knock, then drops it again. He breathes again, steadies himself and knocks.
He immediately regrets knocking, in part because he used his injured hand and it stings again. Mainly because he doesnāt want to ask this.
The door creaks open and heās met by a rather exhausted looking face. It makes sense, between you constantly caring for your master and perfecting your blade, you probably donāt get much time for yourself.
He feels worse and worse about bothering you. But by now heās gotten to a point where he canāt really stop anymore. He already made you open your door.
āHeathcliffā¦ Iām afraid I must turn you away, my master wishes to be alone right now.ā
He hesitates again, then speaks. āI aināt here for her. Iā¦ I need your help.ā
You lift your gaze up at him. Your eyes seeming to bore right through him.
āIf my lowly self may be of any assistance, I am yours to wield.ā
You have such an odd way of phrasing things. Itās charming, he supposes. You remain a mystery to him, a puzzle that just doesnāt seem to fit.
āDoā ugh, does this have to be so bloody embarrassing? Do you know if the mirrors here are all the same size?ā
You tilt your head, of course, it is an incredibly strange thing to ask. Thereās no reason to expect that you know the answer either, but heās on a deadline that heād rather not miss.
āConsidering the nature of the House of Spiders, I doubt they would care for individual wants. Likely, everything we get is supplied in batches, if it does not come from one specific finger of course.ā
He can barely contain himselfā¦ getting worked up over this, itās pretty pathetic. Is he seriously still thinking these things? Get over it! Youāre here now, so youāve made your choice.
āIs that a yes?ā
āThereās a chance. Why do you need to know this?ā
He glances around awkwardly, at his hand, then immediately away again. You manage to pick up on that little hint and he thinks he sees your gaze soften. Itās hard to tell.
āMy master doesnāt care much for her own reflection. I think we can part with a mirror.ā
He mumbles out a word of thanks. How much does he owe you now? It weighs on him to be unable to repay you. Thereās still that nagging feeling at the back of his mind.
āI assume you donāt have all too much time?ā
āIād like to be done quick, yeah. Best long before she wakes up.ā
You swiftly pull him inside, followed by a yelp from him. He quickly covers his mouth, did he make that noise? He needs to stop acting like this over every minor behavior. Are those not what constitute him, a human being?
Does he even qualify as a human anymore?
āA hand please.ā
Heās snapped out of that line of thinking. It suddenly feels stupid to have considered these things. Heās noticed you have a somewhat grounding effect on him.
āOf course.ā
The usually empty halls are once again filled with hurried footsteps. Reaching the thumb corridor, you slow down and make as little noise as possible. No one appears disturbed.
In the bathroom, the two of you quickly start removing what remains of the mirror. With some effort, you manage to attach the new one. The shards are put into a bag that youāll take away.
Before leaving, you take his hand, give it a good look, and wrap some bandages around him. Then you turn to leave, but pause and turn around again. You walk towards him and wrap your arms around him.
āFrom my master and myself, happy birthday. If you ever have time, you are welcome in my abode. Claim a day for yourself every so often.ā
He flinches at the unexpected movement, then again when you actually touch him. Slowly, he raises his arms to wrap around you too. When he finally gets there, he holds you tightly, refusing to let go for a good few moments.
He doesnāt know how long heās been holding you when he lets go. No further words are spoken. He watches you leave and then sits down.
If heās ever getting out of here, he wants to take you with him. Maybe then he can give in return what youāve given him.
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[Blood smears cover the page, following with messy and shaky writing.]
"We.. haha... That was something. That was.. surely, something.. Yuri.. Aya.. they're both gone. We.. we failed. We didn't get the.. bough(?). We left empty-handed. We're failures. I'm not cut out for this. I.."
[The next part of the page is damp, most likely the fault of their tears.]
"Dying, over and over again. I had to watch the people around me die by my hands. Dante had to keep turning back the clock because .. because I.. because I had to go and ruin it. Why..? Why couldn't I hold back..? I'm sorry everyone.. I'm sorry.. I'm really sorry.. it's all my fault... It's all my fault we failed.."
"Gregor, he.. I feel bad for him especially.. having to relive past events that he'd rather not remember.. It's sad. And not even completing the mission? I.. I'm so sorry Gregor. I'm sorry."
"I need to beg Dante.. to not include me whenever we fight. I.. I don't want to fight anymore... I'm so useless. The only thing I can do is.. attack the wrong people.. my co-workers, and not the obvious enemies.."
"Three people showed up before we lost the bough.. they were the ones who took it, actually.. I think one of them is.. Gregor's mom.. another is Hong Lu's brother(?) or relative(?).. and there's also Yi Sang's old co-worker?.. I'm not sure.. I wasn't listening too well.."
"I.. don't know if I deserve to be on this team anymore. I don't know. I should've never accepted that contract. Are they ever going to be able to fulfill it? I.. I.. I want this all to end."
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[The page is worn, obvious dried blood splatters on parts of the page.]
"..Decided to start writing in this thing. There's no reason to carry it around with me if I didn't at least use it."
"..Anyway, I got hiredā or rather, I was like.. searched for? I don't even know if that's the right phrasing.. but I know they were looking for me, specifically."
"..I don't remember what I was doing before I was found. Last I remember, I was talking to my parents in their room.. and then.. next thing I knew, I was wandering the streets covered in blood. Then.. that blue eyed girl found me. Faust, was it? Made me sign a contract.. can't disclose that information here, probably. Ehh."
"Uniform is not exactly comfortable, but at least I look somewhat stylish. Anyway, enough about that... The other people on the bus."
"There's like.. 12 other people. Faust called us 'sinners'. Kinda like the title. Anyway, I notice that there's like.. some depressed guy, Faust, some very bright and yellow girl, a very threatening red eyed girl, some regular looking guy, fancy looking guy, guy who looks like he has relationship problems, some sailor girl, some like.. gambler girl, and two war veterans."
"Actually, addition. There's also a small girl who drives the bus and a color fixer as our guide. Great. This sounds fun."
"Oh, and there's also someone I recognize. Emil. I recognize him from Calw. We went to school together. I remember that. Probably should talk to him sometime, but I'm not too big on interacting with everyone... too afraid of hurting them, as I always have."
"..By the way, heard we were going to a forest next. Wonder if we're picking anyone else up. Most likely, yeah."
"Are they gonna be like.. sinner 15? Or like.. actually, I realized Emil's jacket's number was crossed out. It wasn't 10, it was 11. Are they gonna be the tenth sinner?"
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The US Government is currently trying to pass an incredibly dangerous national law for trans youth called HR 2616.
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This bill actively makes teachers put those innocent children at such a big risk. This bill has rapidly passed the house this week with support from all 209 republicans, as well as 8 democrats. But, it'sĀ still being voted on in the senate, which means there is still time to help stop this.
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Take your time king! Hope the tough period settles soon for you š
Thanks for the follow-up! ^_^
Iām still stressed, but far less than before. In a few days I should be fine. Iāll start writing again then. Likely with a post some weeks from then.
Itās still likely that the first post will be Heathcliffās birthday fic unless I suddenly get some huge inspiration for the request Iāve been busy with.
Iām assuming youāre the same anon as the first check-in at least, because no one else has referred to me as king baha.
Itās important to know that hijab is banned in schools in most of the european countries, such as france, belgium, switzerland etc. Millions of girls have to take their hijab off everyday in order to have access to education, and I am one of them. Please spread this as much as possible, it has become so normal here that I feel like a fool for even mentioning it, but Iām pretty sure it goes against the human rights. This senseless law has been on since 2004 and pretends that all the students have to be āequalā and it is prohibited to show that you belong to any religion, any religious sign must be set aside. However, most of us have to take our hijab off in schools where you can clearly see a christmas tree or a christian cross. āYeah but itās not the sameā, they say. Tell me about double standards. I pray for days when we donāt have to chose between religion and education.
This, but donāt read the notes. Itās all just French people and/or Catholics going āIām totally not racist or antisemitic, itās just that I think that Xmas, a holiday celebrating the birth of Jesus, is secular, whereas a Muslim or Jew wearing a hijab or kippah is somehow forcing their religion on me by existing in public.ā LOL
thank you for the warning because i have no energy to deal with islamophobia today, and YES. THIS. ALL OF IT. not to mention that a cross is something you can easily tuck under a shirt if necessary without compromising your values, whereas a muslim woman having to choose between her hijab and education (who will not be faulted for taking it off in the eyes of Allah SWT) absolutely isĀ compromising her values. itās disgusting
france, switzerland, belgium, quebec: do better. all of you
Wasn't expecting to get tagged in such a post but a pleasant surprise!
Tagged by: @ohnomykokoro (answer and tag six people you wanna know better! (i dont know all questions, so imma copy everything... ))
FAVORITE COLOR: hm, I like pink as well as blue and yellow. I'm not crazy about any of them though.
LAST SONG I LISTENED TO: "Don't" from Persona 3 Reload by Azumi Takahashi and Lotus Juice...I've just recently got into Persona and have all games on the Switch (but none finished ;;;;) and while I am not fond of alllll remade songs, this one is a melancholic banger.
CURRENTLY WATCHING: I'm currently not watching anything because I finished a lot of things recently. The Amazing Digital Circus, Death Note, If Wishes Could Kill, Beastars, Istanbul Encyclopedia...
Some were really just something to relax after work while I was intriguied and followed others. Overall good stuff.
CURRENT FAVORITE SONG: "Love Sick" by Keina Suda. Thought for a while since it was either that or "Ghost Avenue" by Eve but I seriously could listen to Love Sick all day, it's got such a banger melody it's hard not to bop your head to it. Another good one is "undress me" by Cƶ Shu Nie. imo she has a gorgeous voice and the way she composes feels and sounds breathtaking.
Mutuals I'm tagging: @just-some-user-hunny , @yanderes-galore if you feel like doing it!
Favourite colour: There are no favourites in ba sing se (it's yellow and pink, preferably pastel)
Last song I listened to: I've been listening to lax lullaby (void stranger ost) for the past weeks but the most recent song I listened to was this one
Currently reading: The Little Prince for yume purposesā¦.. iykyk
Currently watching: nothing </3 very close to watching TADC and MLP though (and iron lung when it finally gets subtitles, among many others,,)
Current favourite song: it's close between signaling and mis-take rpg by anythingbecomesmoe right now
I will be tagging @paddling-dawn, @creativecornea, @teavich, @cubecat-sunshine, @salemcantupdate, @sinclaironestrogen but anyone is free to reblog this with their answer (please do that actually I love reading what everyone has to say)
Iām kinda new to things like this, but thanks for tagging me!
Favourite colour: Iāve had quite a few different ones, but I think I most consistently return to violet and magenta. Some softer browns are nice too.
Last song I listened to: Iām not really a person that listens to music very often, most I listen to are video game soundtracks, in this case itās Bipolar Nightmare from the NieR: Automata soundtrack.
Currently reading: Iām on a quest to read most of the books that are considered āclassic literatureā. Things like Wuthering Heights, Jane Eyre, Pride and Prejudice. Most recently I read A Clockwork Orange.
Currently watching: Iām following the release of the Witch Hat Atelier anime, I donāt follow many series though.
Current favourite song: Also from the NieR soundtrack, any of the variations of song of the ancients.
I donāt really have many mutuals to tag myself, but @angrycliff
Hi Ray. I miss your writing. I randomly thought of your blog and missed seeing your posts. hope you been okay king š
This ask caught me pretty off guard guard haha.
Getting a small check in like this did help my mood, so a heartfelt thanks. ^_^
Iāve been relatively fine, just a slightly tough period for me right now, hopefully I can get back to writing more and more often soon.
Iāve still been chipping away at a fic request I got 6 months ago, but Iāve only recently breached 1k words. Still, itās coming along and I do enjoy writing it.
I should be able to write a few smaller fics closer to what I usually write after that. So give or take a month or two until I flood this website with my presence.
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isn't it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators...
1) schizophrenia hardly ever causes people to be violent so schizophrenic people arenāt more likely to be violent than anyone else
2) schizophrenic peopleās autonomy is often taken away from them because of their schizophrenia. because the authorities and mental healthcare providers often automatically assume schizophrenic people to be violent, theyāre more likely to immediately react to schizophrenic people's symptoms with violence, without even knowing for sure said schizophrenic person was going to be violent. all of this causes schizophrenic people to be more likely of being victims of violence and abuse. schizophrenic people also have a harder time getting out of abusive households because of the risk of their autonomy being taken away. if a schizophrenic personās relative or partner is abusive, often the schizophrenic person has no way out of the situation, both because our disconnect from reality can result in us being easier to manipulate, and because the system is built in a way that it takes away our autonomy because of our condition.
also schizophrenic people and psychotic people in general, please do a lot of research before picking a provider for your own sake, and if they try to treat your psychosis in a way that you think is harmful then donāt hesitate to switch providers. your safety and wellbeing should be a priority over everything else.
