itâs been so long since iâve sat down to write, but i also hate doing it because it seems like when i open up a blank page or post, everything in my head disappears.Â
anyways, hereâs for the latest words on adulthood:
iâm bad at convincing myself to do things. such as exercise (even though nearly every day I think âi should move my body a little moreâ) or bringing the piles of clothes to donate to goodwill (despite the fact that they are all in boxes/bags already). iâm just so lazy.Â
iâve never thought about & worried about money as much as i have recently. the future is scary.
speaking of the future, i look way too far ahead. yes, there are components of planning, but thereâs also things that i donât need to worry about at all.Â
these next couple months (canât math right now lol) are going to fly by. thereâs enough time, but if i just let them slip by, itâll be the end of june and iâll be wondering where it all went.Â
i have once again overcommitted myself, or at least created goals a little too lofty. doing my best to urge myself to continue and even if iâve already lost 100%, itâs better to get 70% than to just quit now.Â
iâm starting to see the benefits of having a text blog place... but too lazy to do anything about it (and to transfer/save my tumblr somehow), so i guess iâm staying for now.Â
similar to exercise, i miss reading. yet i canât convince myself to sit down and read a book.
i have a lot of downtime, but i donât think iâve learned to rest. the one thing i have been learning though- watching netflix is not really restful although iâm so so so drawn to it... sigh.Â
cooking dinner is still exhausting and daunting, even with free blue apron. i think i just donât like cooking, especially not all the prepwork that needs to happen.Â
i will feel much much better on wednesday once everything is out in the open. itâs scary taking steps and making this all real, especially cuz i keep thinking about all the logistics that i need to sort out. but trust, trust, trust.
speaking of trust, hereâs a good written piece that has gotten me thinking these past couple days:Â http://inheritancemag.com/40-over-the-hill/not-sure-if-i-can-handle-gods-sovereignty
thatâs all for now, busy morning tomorrow so time to go to bed. zzz...Â