Mood Swings

Main Masterlist

𑁍┊상연 ˎˊ˗ sangyeon - nothing to see here yet

𑁍┊콥이 ˎˊ˗ jacob

01

‘god you’re still the same’

(ex fwb! jacob x gn! reader) (fluff, mature themes)

𑁍┊영훈 ˎˊ˗ younghoon - nothing to see here yet

𑁍┊현재 ˎˊ˗ hyunjae / jaehyun

01

Hurry And Get Your Present

(requested) (boyfriend!hyunjae x fem!reader) (fluff, smut)

02

Conversations Better Kept Private

(ex! hyunjae x fem reader) (angst)

03

i love you but just not in that way

(best friend hyunjae x fem reader) (lengthy smut)

𑁍┊주연 ˎˊ˗ juyeon

01

[01:25]

(suggestive) (professor! juyeon x gn reader)

02

‘in case of emergency… use me’

(short smut) (top!juyeon x sub!gn reader)

03

‘hold on tight for me kitten’

(sh smut, sugg) (ju as your swimming instructor x gn reader)

04

Drivers License

(smut) (dom! police officer juyeon x fem reader)

𑁍┊켑 ˎˊ˗ kevin - nothing to see here yet

𑁍┊뉴 ˎˊ˗ new / chanhee - nothing to see here yet

𑁍┊큐 ˎˊ˗ q / changmin - nothing to see here yet

𑁍┊주학년 ˎˊ˗ haknyeon / juhaknyeon - nothing to see here yet

𑁍┊선우 ˎˊ˗ sunwoo

01

Then Be Patient, Angel

(boyfriend!sunwoo x gn reader) (suggestive)

02

Sex-Deprived

(neighbor!sunwoo x fem reader) (suggestive)

03

Would You Do The Same For Me?

(ex!sunwoo x fem reader) (angst, self indulgent)

04

Sexting

(part 2 of Sex-Deprived) (smut)

05

Cookies

(part 4 of Sex-Deprived) (smut)

06

Two Halves of A Whole

(best friend! sunwoo x gn reader) (fluff, angst)

07

Happier Than Ever

(ex boyfriend! sunwoo x gn reader) (angst)

𑁍┊에릭 ˎˊ˗ eric / youngjae

01

The Girl Of His Dreams 01

(bully!eric (feat.sunwoo) x minx!fem reader) (smut, angst)

02

The Girl of His Dreams 02

(switch!eric x switch!fem reader) (smut)

Optional Bias Masterlist

┊ ⇄ ◁◁ II ▷▷ ↻ ┊ [optional bias] say hi to your friend y/n (chaos)

In The Works / Requests

[request] Sex-Deprived 02 [request] hyunjae dad scenario “fluff scenario where hyunjae’s a dad of a newborn and how he would be so sweet to take care of his baby and his wife” [request] hyunjae request “his girlfriend is older than him and although she loves him so much, she feels like there are so many things to consider due to age gap, but hyunjae’s there to reassure and comfort her” [request] Then Be Patient, Angel 02

Story Boards

concepts and ideas that i want to write about but have absolutely no idea how

- inked badboy!sunwoo x tattoo artist!reader

- twin model!ksw x reader x twin rockstar!ksw

- professor!juyeon x reader x student!sunwoo

you should’ve known he didn’t “spray a random perfume in a rush” whenever a whip of new scents would hit you when you’d come visit him.

you should’ve known his disheveled hair, pink cheeks, and tired eyes meant something other than soccer practice.

with your grade-A brain, you should’ve seen through the signs but it was all too late. too blinded by love, but more importantly too young and naive, you always thought the subtle changes was just him changing along the months, but alas, the scene playing right in front of you says otherwise.

as soon as you finished your last exam for the day, though not for the week, you came running to the fields and into the bleachers straight away hoping to claim a seat, watch your boyfriend play, and surprise him at the end of the day.

luckily, you were able to make it in time just before the game started

and as expected of your soccer captain of a boyfriend, he scored the winning goal for the night and his team along with the students in the bleachers and the cheerleaders cheered with joy.

your eyes raked through the many heads crowded in a celebratory huddle to find sunwoo but he was nowhere to be found. that is until you found a familiar ‘01’ on the back of a jersey with a ‘Kim Sunwoo’ on top. you were wondering where he’s headed as he walked away from the crowd slowly clearing up but his figure making a beeline towards the locker room told you enough information on his future whereabouts

assuming he went to take his bag and whatnot, you made your way to the entrance door with his favorite waffle, that you didn’t forget to stop by and buy before heading to the locker room, in hand. you could’ve sworn you saw no one else head towards the lockers after sunwoo went and so, assuming, again, that no other male specimen is inside other than your boyfriend, you pushed open the door ready to boom the room with your surprise congratulations at him.

but as if time froze, you couldn’t tear away your attention from the freeze frame in front of you. sunwoo’s lips are tinted with red lipstick, it’s blatantly obvious they’ve been making out for who knows how long by the way the red also tainted his cupid’s bow.

you boyfriend’s eyes grew wide in shock to see you at the door, the cheerleader right beside him also sporting the same expression at your sudden presence.

you were angry, fuming, and ready to burst in loud volumes. however, the pain in your chest told you to keep your mouth shut.

“y-y/n, w-when did you come over?”

stuttering through his words as his palm busied itself wiping his lips, you looked at him with rage, distrust, disappointment, and disgust all at once. but this was not only towards him, this also went for the other girl in the room.

“i s-swear i-it’s not what it looks like!”

stopping in his tracks towards you, he glances back at his former intimate company before turning back to you to mutter in rushed words,

“okay maybe it is but i-i can explain”

your lips formed a scowl in disgust at him trying to make up an excuse in front of you. out of frustration, you threw the waffle at his feet, the delicious cream unfortunately splattering all over his feet and the floor. however, even though you hate making messes, this wasn’t enough to convince you to stay and clean. not when you’re on the brink of crying and your tears have made a protective film around your eyes making your vision partially blur.

turning on your heel, you slammed the door shut on his face the very moment he took another step forward. not wasting a beat, you ran and darted towards the building’s exit, not caring if the wind dried up the tears running down from the corner of your eyes and staining your cheek.

you just ran and ran until you were eventually out of breath. your chest felt alarmingly tight, maybe it was from the running or maybe it was from the sudden heartbreak.

crouching down to be hurdled up like a ball, you hugged your knees as you sobbed in your own hold, not caring if anyone saw you, let alone even know yourself where you currently are. you let out pitiful cries and muffled whimpers in between skin as you started to question everything of your very first heartbreak.

the relationship was anything but happy, so, what went wrong?

at what point did he have to go looking for someone else, were you not enough?

did you do something to upset him? what was the reason…

you would want to question him all this but you swear you couldn’t bare yourself to look at him right now even if it’s a life or death situation.

to anyone looking at you right now, they would probably think you’re being dramatic over how you responded and reacted. but could they really blame you? he is your first, or well, was a happy first in everything. except for the part that he just broke your heart.

but you should’ve known… just because it’s your first doesn’t mean he, your boyfriend with a lengthy past of relationships, would stop his bad habits to give you your fairytale happily ever after.

but most importantly, you should’ve seen this coming

you should’ve seen the signs…

the way he looked at her in the fields, you thought it was just in amazement at the cheer squad’s routine but, no, it was something else

the way his head always goes to search for someone on the benches, you thought he would be looking for a player or a benchwarmer, or his coach at the very least but, no, it was someone else

he had his eyes on her

maybe not just for tonight but for some time now

now that you look back on it and assume when did it all start, realization hits you like a truck and reality slaps you in the face for being a naive idiot.

the way he would smell like something, or rather, someone else when you meet him unannounced.

the way his eyes would tint a tired red when you’d come over to his dorm during the day.

the way he would sport a rather red tint on his lips when you thought it was a new lip balm he’s using

and don’t get me started on the way he’s been hanging out with his “friends” more often. not that it was a problem, but it’s just that whenever they do hang out, you’re always invited. whether it’s by him or by his friend/s.

you thought maybe it was just the stress of school and the pressure of senior year that got you both to change, to be more distant, and be more left alone. however, it was now clear that wasn’t the case.

you remained in that position into a ball having an existential crisis for as long as your clouded memory can remember.

it has already been five years, full five years since that night. the memory you swore to yourself you’d lock into the deepest and darkest part of your brain for it to no longer pester you, comes crawling back out at the stench of alcohol.

at this point, you couldn’t entirely remember your reason for drinking other than ‘you feel like it.’ coming out of work hungry as a hibernated bear, you sought for the nearest barbecue place in hopes to fuel your hunger quickly. a couple of sticks of barbecue later, another craving comes in. of course, who wouldn’t want some cold beer after a savory barbecue, right?

and that’s how you’re here, currently stashed away to the corner of some random street stall downing cans of beer as if you aren’t reporting to work the next day. in reality, even I don't think you’d be reporting to work tomorrow judging by your current state.

however, it wasn’t anything bad, you had no stress from work to let out nor bad occurrence that led you to drinking tonight. it just so happened the songs booming from the stall’s speakers were directing you to a rather sad mood. maybe, even a depressing one that is full of nostalgia

it doesn’t help that the person who was the sole reason of your bad memories, his voice has been playing on repeat through your phone’s speaker

“h-hey, y/n…

i know it’s been some time and you probably don’t want to talk but….

i missed you….

and if you’re out there….

i hope that you’re okay”

your phone was ringing with an unknown caller id which you didn’t care to pick up, but your phone however, thought it would be nice to direct this person to voice message. the very thing that’s been playing on repeat for minutes with no end right now.

you’ve been contemplating the past minute or so whether or not to call him up. you know it’s stupid to take him back into your life after he sabotaged it and everything went downhill but, you’re convinced you already patched this up so why not.

however, the important reason why you do want to call him is because of the alarming sound of traffic in the background of his unusual voice with a tone you can decipher as drunk. a clear indication, with how stupid your plan seems to call him, his act of driving drunk is just as idiotic.

before you could even think twice about what you're doing, you sent a text message to the unknown number with no hesitation but surely with shaky thumbs

‘stop driving, and take a cab home’

not even a mere minute later your phone starts vibrating again, indicating he was calling you up again. and like how the text played, you mindlessly hovered your thumb over the green button before it eventually met the screen.

“y-y/n?!”

“i told you once and im going to tell you again, pull over and take a cab home”

the silence on the other end had your hopes up he was actually, and surprisingly, listening to you and caring about his self for once.

“i missed you… can we talk?”

that unwavering voice… was he not drunk…? you mentally face palmed yourself for making a fool of yourself assuming he was drunk driving and also on the phone while at it.

“i know we ended on the wrong terms but… i want to make it up to you….”

the silence from your end gave sunwoo the green light to speak, although he was struggling, he pushed through with it.

meanwhile, you, on the other hand, can’t find the courage nor dignity to speak. it’s the first time in five years that you heard him, let alone speak to him. and the first thing you happen to do just had to embarrass yourself.

you finished senior year without him, you graduated without him, you moved apartments, started a new life, worked a new job, and is living a happy life all without him. so why should you be inviting him back into your life? the life that he sabotaged and had you fixing on your own.

“y/n…. can we talk?… please… i promise I’ll make it worth the while”

sunwoo was nothing but shocked to hear you end the call without a word as a new wave of dead silence met his ear.

he got himself too vulnerable, too emotionally vulnerable, to the point he trusted you’d hear him out. that you would hear about his worries and concerns, to patch up what he broke, to make amends with the person he loved and lost. but it seems like he underestimated you, too much.

of course you would be over him, who are you to want him back into your life after he hurt and discarded you?

out of emotional frustration, he held his phone up but before he could even hurl the device to the floor mat of the passenger seat, the thing lit up and vibrated in his hold.

checking who it is, he made a rushed decision to wipe away the tears from his cheeks with his knuckles to fully focus on both the road and his phone despite the blurry filter of tears constantly welling up in his eyes.

he didn’t need to unlock his phone to know it was you, and despite his expectation of receiving a

“dont talk to me ever again”

kind of text message, much to his surprise you sent in a text a of what he can decipher as an address

not wasting a single minute, he quickly made an impulsive u-turn despite the honks of other drivers on the street. currently, he couldn’t think of anything else but to be with you as quick as possible, even if that meant putting his self at a dangerous risk of highway collision.

too afraid you might slip from his finger again.

too afraid he’ll never get to hear, meet, let alone see you again.

too afraid he’ll never get this opportunity to make amends with you, ask for forgiveness, apologize for everything he has done and made you go through.

he sped through the streets like a mad man despite the tears in his eyes that he rapidly blinked away, acting recklessly under the influence as if it doesn’t have consequences if he gets caught.

the danger meant nothing to him if it comes to you

too blinded and too obsessed at reconciling with you, he probably forgot if anything unfortunate does happen to him….. then everything he’s afraid of will certainly become a frightful reality.

he forgot if something unfortunate happens to him at any given time, any given moment, not only will you be out of his hold but he would only be contributing to more painful and traumatic experiences he has already left on you, something he swore to himself he wouldn’t do

thankfully the universe was on his side tonight, just as how reckless he drove to the destination, his parking was definitely just like so.

stumbling under the stall’s tent, he paid no mind to the other goer’s look of judgment as his eyes scanned for your figure in the crowd. it was a challenge, yes, considering he’s never seen you in the past years but fortunately he saw a familiar figure just right around the corner sitting by themselves.

with rushed steps, sunwoo makes a beeline towards you who was too busy zoning out staring at a beer can to feel his presence hovering beside you.

with a sound of someone clearing their throat dangerously close to you, it snapped you out of your trance of thinking what to say, do, or expect when your ex boyfriend shows up. snapping your head towards wear the sound came from, you inhaled a gasp, surprised at how fast he showed up.

“mind if i join you?”

without a word, you directed him to sit right across you, to which he also did without a word.

still without the courage to actually look at him in the eyes, your eyes remained on the bottle of sake in your hand preparing to pour him a shot glass of it. but a hand covering its rim had you retracting back the bottle to lay near your side of the table

“honestly, as much as i want to, i think ive had too much to drink tonight”

your heart sank to the pits of your guts, so he was driving under the influence. your eyes shot up to meet his own in shock as you feel goosebumps rising on your skin at the revelation. meanwhile, he was calm about it, he even had the audacity to strike a bashful smile at you.

“i mean… i still got here right? I’m not dead or anything”

as much as you wanted to just sit in silence while he relays what he wanted to say to you as asked earlier, you couldn’t help yourself but speak in a firm tone at him.

“driving under the influence? are you insane?! drink all you want, get batshit drunk, I don’t care, but jesus christ, uber yourself home”

muttering through gritted teeth, you could only roll your eyes at him before speaking again when you’re met with him chuckling to himself, clearly taking this as a joke

“fuck this, you scared me to death but im only wasting my breath here. i forgot you only listen to your fucking friends”

caught off guard at the sudden serious and offensive tone of your voice, sunwoo stopped in his track in shock as realization followed afterwards.

oh right, you hate him

downing a shot, you spoke to him again in the same annoyed and frustrated tone like you just did

“don’t waste my precious time and just go on with what you came for so i can go home”

clearing his throat, sunwoo reluctantly looked up at you from his empty glass only to be met with you looking off to the side and huffing in annoyance, a habit of yours he was all too familiar with

“I’m sorry y/n… i really am…. not only for not taking you seriously just now but, for everything. I’m aware i'm years too late but i hope you could hear me out. you don’t even have to forgive me, i just wish you’ll know how sorry i am for being such a dick at you back then. you deserved better…. I’m sorry i couldn’t be that person for you. i only thought about myself back then, too focused on what i want, i forgot about how you would feel. i loved you, y/n, i really did. you probably thought of times i was never sincere to you but i swear, on my heart, and on my life, all i have ever said about loving you, those were all true”

you were feeling a bunch of emotions all at once, but most importantly, from feeling sad you went to feeling out of it. all these past tenses, it said so much…

‘loved’

‘said’

‘were’

so this is not some kind of pity party to get you back with him right? but then again, it hurts to know you were now a past tense to him. although you should be thankful because that means you don’t have to associate yourself with him anymore but, to know you were a past, as if just discarded like nothing, it hurt.

“after everything you’ve been through, i hope you know I’m proud of you. for being created, for getting through it all, for staying strong. I know and I’m sorry i was the reason you had to be, when I’m supposed to be your strength like how i promised you i would be. years down the road and i'm still thinking what we would be like if i didn’t make that stupid decision. if only i was a good person to you…. i wonder every day, where would we be now”

at this point, sunwoo was taking in gulps of air as he tried to keep his voice from wavering. the tears that subsided from earlier are already forming and blurring his vision, something that he still isn't used to no matter how many times it happened tonight.

“and I’ll be honest y/n…. i could see that we would’ve been happy, but i was too blind and stupid to think about it at that time. to this day, I still regret about it. for ignoring and running away from you instead of facing and talking about it, for leaving you alone instead of making amends, and for not loving you like how i should”

the way his voice whimpered, the way his lips quivered, his hand flying to his face to wipe away the tears, you wanted to feel bad but you were too focused on discerning whether it was genuine or not

the last thing you need tonight is to give in to a pity party, and you swore to yourself you wouldn’t give in if he’s trying to make you feel bad

“I have loved you since we were eighteen y/n, we took a chance and God knows we tried to make it work but i fucked it up…

…whether you acknowledge this or not, i love you, i still do. and i hope you’re okay. but besides that, to the person that you are now, i hope you’re happier today.”

eyes tinted red and glossy with fresh tears threatening to fall met your own that were also holding back from letting true emotions show.

in all honesty, you missed him. so much.

he may be why you struggled and had to build yourself up but, he was also the only person that ever stood by you back then when everyone else in your life never bat an eye at you.

he gave you temporary happiness.

but even if it’s temporary, it still was genuine happiness

for the time being, he made you feel loved like no one has

but then again, young people fall in love with the wrong people sometimes

or maybe, just maybe

it was the right people falling in love at the wrong time

“sunwoo, do you want me to be honest?”

his name slipping off your lips instead of the usual romantic names you gave each other felt like a dagger to his heart, but nonetheless he forcefully swallowed the pain like a large ball of bile as he nodded his head ‘yes’, unable to trust his already wavering voice.

“when I’m away from you, I’m happier than ever”

“psst, got time?” the familiar boba head pops up from behind the door of your ward with caution in his eyes as his attention shifted continuously from examining the room and the halls.

“even if i didn’t, you’d still come in anyways” rolling your eyes at him with a defeated smile, you gestured him to come into your room, even if you didn’t gesture for him to he would still enter anyways

this boy has become your friend over the weeks that you’ve been admitted in the hospital. you’ve been here for over a month now; what started as what your parents assumed to be just asthma worsened into what they assumed to be pneumonia. having yourself checked in order to get answers in your health declining over the weeks, you were settled with chronic obstructive pulmonary disease or copd while doctors often go back and forth between hypoxia and hypoxemia still unsure what it really was that you had, what’s for sure though is they all meant to say was your oxygen level is alarmingly low.

thinking this is easily reversible just with the help of devices making you inhale more air than your lungs could probably take, you took your early days lightly. but that is until news broke out to you the only thing that could help you was prevent any sort of asthma attack, one more and you’re a goner as so they say.

meanwhile, your newly made best friend here, he’s been in the hospital longer than you have been. he’s been waiting months long in his own ward for the news of a legible heart donor but at one point he’s lost his hopes of that kind of news meeting him soon when weeks turned into months and he grew hopeless.

“earth to y/n, let’s go to the pool! i heard the security in charge there took a day off” wiggling his brows at you, he whispered excitedly yet low enough for only you two to hear taking caution some nurse outside might hear what you two are planning

“sun, it’s literally 10 pm, i doubt someone else haven’t locked that area down” for two weeks straight, ever since sunwoo knew about a new patient also admitted in the icu, he wanted to change up his once boring life into an exciting one and he decided to make you his wing man for it.

the first time you both met, your nurse introduced him to you as someone who could be your friend considering you’re both around the same age, and also will be in the icu for some time. leaving you two behind to mingle, it started off awkward but not even half an hour later you find yourselves sharing your stories before getting confined in the hospital and the hows and whys it happened.

you told him about yours that started off as allergies into asthma, then to pneumonia, and apparently to unsure hypoxemia meanwhile he told you of his genetic condition that apparently affected his heart, one cardiac attack and he’s a goner, as so they say is what he said. so now here you both were, confined in the hospital as he waits for an organ donor all the while his nurse tracks his vitals meanwhile you were constantly on oxygen therapy, meaning you spend more than half your day on your bed inhaling air from a tank in hopes to get your blood supply to be normal again.

the first week was fine, he’d visit you often in his hospital gown talking to you and providing you company as you laid in bed just breathing. but the normal daytime visits turned into nighttime ones as he comes over to your room complaining he can’t sleep and so he opts to spend time around you instead. teasing you with how boring you are he’s most likely to fall asleep in your company than none

but then the second week happened, you both had talks how it must feel like to be outside and playing around having fun not worrying at any minute one of you could go into some sort of internal arrest; and it was fine because they were just talks about it. however, one night he was feeling brave and invited you to go walk around the hospital. it would’ve been fine considering you were granted to walk around the premises freely as long as you had an inhaler with you and you’re done with your tank but…. it was 12 midnight and you were pretty sure you’d be dead meat by your nurse if you were caught walking around and not resting

but he was a persistent boba, he didn’t stop trying to persuade you until you eventually said yes but not without a condition though; the condition being, he’d take all the blame if you got in trouble to which he didn’t even think twice to saying yes to.

and as days pass by, his invitations got even more daring; like that one thursday he didn’t stop complaining he wanted maltesers and begged you to go malteser hunting with him at the crack of dawn. and so you both went around the whole building and it’s several wings looking for vending machines that had maltesers in it. at one point, the sun has already risen and morning shift nurses started coming in and so you both ended up playing hide and seek in the halls with nurses you both have met before

you could still vaguely remember that time he pulled you with him towards a janitor’s closet and slotted your two bodies in between two lockers in hopes to hide away from the head nurse coming your way earlier. the morning you both were stuck so close to each other you could feel his breath on your lips and same with your rapid ones on his. chest flush against his you could feel the pounding of his weak heart against your own, but he didn’t seem to mind the lack of distance, not one bit. and from that day onwards, it’s like something snapped because since then he’s grown more flirtier than usual as if he can read minds and knew you have grown a stupid crush on him

then the third week happened, roaming around the hospital halls wasn’t a problem as you had grown accustomed to it at one point, but this time he’s been more… brave. inviting you to go with him somewhere without telling you where, and because you’ve already practically spent a week with him without getting caught or getting in trouble, you trusted him and said yes to his invitation.

maybe he forgot that your condition literally revolves around the lack of oxygen, but he took you up several flights of stairs as you struggled to catch your breath in between breaks but nonetheless took caution to always make use of the handy inhaler you have.

finally reaching the end, you wondered where you both were but your question was answered when the creaking of the heavy door swung open with much effort of his as the cold breeze of the night swatted your face making you shiver. the rooftop was certainly off limits to patients so you wondered how did he even know about this place. shrugging it off and keeping it a mystery, he just told you to enjoy the view of the city while you’re both here.

it would most likely become your first and last ever time to ever come back to this big rooftop so you took in as much as you can. leaning across the concrete railing the rooftop has, you awed at the sparking city lights extending for as long as you can see. the hospital was fairly high and definitely looked down on a lot of the buildings in the city giving you this beautiful sight of the night sky mirrored on land.

you could still remember the fuzzy feeling of something getting draped around your shoulder, you realized it was sunwoo’s jacket getting thrown over your shoulders as he joined your figure looking down at the city. “i forgot how thin these uniforms were, my bad, I should’ve given you time to dress up”

knowing sunwoo likes to wear overly big jackets, which meant it could definitely fit two people under it’s cloth, you scooted closer to him until your shoulders met and you brought one end up until it also reached the far end of his shoulder. “we could’ve just shared it, you know. you’re not that broad”

turning to you to give you an unamused look at your teasing, you could still remember the feeling of being lost in his large doe eyes holding stars in them as the city lights beautifully reflected themselves on his dark orbs. the rest of the night happened to become blurry to you but you didn’t mind it, as long as the image of sunwoo’s eyes sparkling under the moonlight still stuck with you.

not even a day later and you couldn’t remember how it started off but for sure you could remember how the highlight of that very night played off. both of your thick jackets laid in the middle of where a helipad was supposed to land as you both laid across the garments cushioning your bodies from the cold and hard cement. you could still remembering looking up into the sky and oggling at the countless of stars shimmering and sparkling in the dark sky as you both laid there in comforting silence.

memories starting to turn blurry again, you don’t remember how it happened but at one point in the end you were both staring into each other’s eyes, lost in the universe that they both held. unable to form the words that you both shared in that very rooftop, you could see his lips mouthing words to you that you cannot recall while his eyes looked at with what you can decipher as… love? no, it can’t be, it just might be your memories playing games with you and your emotions

two weeks, two weeks of code breaking with sunwoo and you wondered how are you both not caught yet? you’ve done it almost every night, broke out of your rooms in the cracks of dawn, do stuff that you both aren’t even supposed to do. but the pattern of every week’s invitation getting more daring than the last is what you wondered on the most, sneaking out of the hospital halls, the building, just anywhere was how last week went, you could only wonder what he has in store for the fourth week. is he going to invite you to surgery on someone or something? i mean, the possibility was there

coming to an end to your reminiscing, you eventually snapped out of your daydream and focused your attention back to reality in front of you; where you find sunwoo seated on a stool beside your bed as his chin rested atop his crossed arms by your side

“are you done with your daydream? i get it that your condition fuzzes up your brain and stuff with the lack of oxygen and all but, it’s been getting worse. now you daydream for over 10 minutes, are you sure doc says it’s normal?” staring up at you through his lashes, he’s been sitting beside you the moment he realized you were zoning out again. it was normal for your condition but, he can’t help but be concerned for you considering you’ve been zoning out a lot more than often and even longer than how it started off with. replying to him with a content hum and a quick apology, you asked him again what he was planning for tonight already forgetting he had already told you that.

“pool, are you down? you’ll get to finally see that tattoo of mine you’ve always wanted to see” playfully wiggling his eyebrows up at you, you rolled your eyes at him before puffing out a ‘yes’ and be received by a sunwoo grinning at you with that heart-shaped gummy smile he has that is to die for

“c’mon, bring extra clothes and a towel. let’s go for a swim!” already pulling off your sheets, you climbed your way out of bed to pack just a shirt rolled in your bath towel, if anyone were to see you with an actual bag they’d think you’re actually running away from the hospital so you avoided bringing a bag with you in any way.

checking if you had everything you needed in case of emergencies, you turned back to sunwoo who’s already holding up his own rolled towel with a bunch of other clothes peeking from the inside. holding out a hand for you to take, you took his hand into yours as you both sneaked your way out of the wing you’re in and into the other building where the pool was

“sun, i change my mind i really think we’ll get caught with this” you whispered loud enough for him to hear you through your hisses but he shrugs it off anyways as he pushes open the door to the pool where the old ladies would usually do their water therapy and such, sometimes even dancing in the shallow parts as you have seen before; but tonight, it was completely empty, still air flowed through the complex as lights from under the water reflected the little waves the still water had on to the roof, also being the only source of light in the building

drawn to the water like you were enchanted, you crouched down to feel the cold water on your finger tips, but sudden waves met your palms as you noticed sunwoo was now in the pool in…. if it wasnt for the black boxers wobbling through the reflection of the water you would’ve thought he went in bare naked.

“don’t you dare tell me you’re not coming in” wobbling up to you in tippy toes in the water, you were met with sunwoo now in front of you as he looked up at you through his lashes. “and if i tell you i won’t” teasing him went the other way around for you when he grabbed your wrist faster than you could retract it from the water declining you of getting far from him

“okay okay I’ll get in, just let me get changed, geez” softening his grip on you, he lets go of your wrist to get changed but his eyes never left your figure cautious you’d actually leave him be in the pool. but fortunately, you were a nice and kind person so you got changed anyways. pulling the hospital uniform’s shirt over your shoulder and pulling the pants down, you walked around only in your undergarments for a while trying to find a place that certainly won’t get wet around the pool to place the pieces of clothing you’d want to keep dry.

grabbing a hold of that shirt you packed in your towel, you threw it over your upper body to cover your exposed chest and clothe bottom. turning back to sunwoo, you find him patiently waiting for you as he lays his chin on top of the back of his hands along the edge of the pool.

“so you walked around, chest bare, in front of me, just to cover them up again?” raising a brow questioning your antics, you didn’t even mind he was watching your every move. if anything, you kind of liked it

“the shirt’s white, you’ll see them again anyways” taking your time to go into the water, you tried not to one, create large splash noises that will get you both caught and two, adjust to the sudden drop of temperature of the water hitting your warm skin.

“so what was the point of the shirt?” coming up in front of you to help you down, he took a hold of your hips as you held on to his shoulders awaiting for the cold water to hit your sensitive skin as his hands slowly but surely guides your hips off of the edge

“it just feels better with a shirt, that’s all” you managed to let out through the shivers and chills running up and down your body at the cold water engulfing you. humming at you with fake sympathy and understanding, he held you close to him waiting for you to finally adjust to the temperature. the depth you're in wasn’t even deep because the surface stopped right on your abdomen.

“go in neck deep, you’ll adjust better” helping you down, you didn’t break eye contact with him who was looking at you mischievously while you stared up at him unsure if it will work. but somehow despite the mischief clear as day in his eyes, you trusted him and submerged yourself neck deep into the water. more shivers ran through your body but this time it was a lot more better and soothing as your whole body except for your head was not engulfed in the water.

his hold now on your waist, he subtly pulls you to deeper water but panic suddenly hits you, shit, you didn’t know how to swim and he doesn’t know this. scrambling to wrap your arms around his shoulder and your legs around his waist in a hurry, he looks up at you alarmed and confused at the sudden change of behavior

“are you okay? is something wrong? do you want to—“

“sun, I can’t swim”

letting out in a hurry your look was serious as he bit back a snort from below you. smacking him lightly on the head, you thankfully got his attention back on you who was pleading at him to not play games with you

“just hold on to me and you’ll be fine”

“don’t you dare go to deeper waters”

a hum rang through the air as he teased you trying to ponder and think whether or not he should go deeper earning himself a little whine from you.

“alright I won’t, but that doesn’t mean I’m going to shallow waters either” now grinning up at you knowing you have to be at his mercy at the moment, sunwoo thought of ways he could make use of this precious intimate time with you

“say, have i ever told you how beautiful you are?” taken aback by the sudden mellow mood cutting the comforting silence, you stared down at him who’s looking up at you intently, “you’re asking me, someone with a foggy brain, if i remember anything?”

“you can’t answer a question with a question, you know. also, you’re beautiful, and i hope you remember that every second of the day” resting the side of his face to meet with one arm of yours that surrounded his head, he compliments you in what you can discern as nothing but pure genuinity in his eyes and his voice

“are you sure you’re saying just because or are you saying that because you saw me one garment away from being naked earlier?” rolling his eyes at you wriggling your brows at him teasingly,, he goes back to looking back into your eyes as you find yourself getting lost in his as always

“I’m telling you you’re beautiful not just because but I’m telling you because you’re the prettiest, most precious, and amazing person I’ve ever met in my life.” pulling his head up from your arm, he rests his forehead against your own as he continues what he started,,

“most genuine, loving, caring, and fun person I’ve ever met. it was a friend that i wanted but i was given more, you were supposed to be just a company but for the past few weeks you’ve been my what feels like a life-long partner.

i promised myself I’d spend the rest of my counted days with you, who always makes me feel like i have forever ahead of me. i promised myself I’d be happy around you who gives me serotonion on the daily. and most especially, i promised myself I’d be around you until you’re okay

we’re two broken beings but with you it feels like i found my other half, the person who makes me feel whole. and i know i couldn’t ever forgive myself if i get to see you go”

“just tell me straight to the point, sun” unable to tame any more of the butterflies in your stomach, you pulled your forehead away from his to cradle his jaw in your palms and have him look at you in the eyes.

“y/n, they found a donor, I’ll get to have a new heart, and by then, I can now stay with you until you’re okay” grinning up at you with that heart-shaped gummy smile of his, you were celebrating with him in hushed whispers at the good news

"i'm so fucking proud of you! see, life doesn't hate you gut as much as you say it does" you carefully cheered him on through whispers as he thrashes about in the water with you in his hold

maybe too in the moment of pure bliss, you found yourself locking your lips with his in a deep kiss as he holds you close to his chest.

smiling and laughing through kisses, you don't know when or how but you could suddenly feel the hard wall of the pool meet your back. pushing you against the cold surface, his hands left your bottom to cradle your jaw and rest his forehead against yours again

"aren't you proud of me? now I get to stay with you until you recover"

"so so fucking proud of you......

and also, thank you for holding on, sunshine"

• • •

too soon. it was too soon. too soon to see you go, too soon for him to let you, the love of his life, go. he just promised to stay with you until you recover but turns out everything went the other way.

you never became okay, your health declined and everything worsened. you were given a fairly lengthy time of estimated years left to live but with the how rapid your oxygen levels have been dropping the past weeks even way before you were admitted to hospital, in the end those years became into days. and days turned into hours.

he didn’t get to see you go, he didn’t even get to tell you a goodbye let alone a hello. it was too soon, sunwoo couldn’t accept the fact that you were now gone. he spent his supposed last days before knowing he'll get surgery with promising himself to stay with you until the end, and when he did find out he's getting a new heart he spent his days promising himself the second he’ll be out of surgery he’s going to help you recover so you'll both be okay

but alas it was all too late

confined in his bed for weeks straight in recovery, the last thoughts he had before surgery was he’s going to meet you and tell you all the words he wanted to tell you back then, back then when he couldn’t because he was afraid it would turn into empty promises, empty promises due to his future being a blur thinking he’d never get a second shot at life.

and now that he’s gotten his second chance, he was glad to think of the future he and you could have, a future he’s always been thinking about when you were together, but now he wasn’t glad at his second chance, not when the person he wanted to spend it with was no longer in this life

the moment he regained consciousness, the first person he looked for was you, not even his parents knew who you were but gladly his doctor did. and as much as it pains the doctor to be the one breaking the news he just had to in order for the young boy to be at peace with his new heart.

the heart that belonged to you

if he would’ve known the more constant zoning out was an indication of your brain slowly shutting down, if he would’ve known the lesser you remember things was a sign your condition has messed up your nervous system, if he would’ve know those were already a sign of the time of your end; he would’ve told you he loved you before you go, he would’ve told you how much he loved you, how much he’s thankful for you for being his strength, for giving him purpose to start a second life.

but it’s all too late, you weren’t there for him to tell the words to, you weren’t there for him to hug one last time, and you weren’t there to hold him cry one more time.

i love you, is all he wished he could say to you

to the other broken half who made him whole; whether it was when you are both together, or now that you, his other half, has made him whole

when two halves are put together, of course they are still separable. but in other to form a whole, one has to be conjoined with the other in order to become full.

and maybe this way, while your heart beats for him to live, he'll finally be whole.

also, the cliche angst ending where one passes away. let’s say you and sunwoo both are diagnosed with something that can’t be cured but you’re diagnosed to pass later than him because you have chances to be treated through therapy and medication while his condition needs a new organ fully in order to be fully clean. good news comes in that sunwoo gets his life saved because the doctors found an organ donor, that said, you’re happy to celebrate with him.

unbeknownst to him though, you knew the doctor’s given estimate of your days left to live was wrong because you feel yourself grow weaker rapidly as weeks go by, you know your days are counted less and with that you signed a statement that the organ sunwoo needs will be donated by you, the second that you pass, that is.

you have everything checked and you were a perfect match to him, therefore you didn’t hesitate to give away your organ to him who needs it more.

but he doesn’t know all this though and thinks it’s someone else so it joys you to hear him speak the next days after the good news with a spark of life in his eyes that you never once saw before.

able to pass away happily knowing you gave him a second chance at life and was able to revive the long asleep life in his eyes.

but sunwoo lives his days regretting not knowing you were behind it all, unable to thank you one last time before you go, and most of all unable to tell you the words he waited to tell you the moment he’ll be out of surgery; ‘i love you’

"may i help you?" squinting through your tired eyes as you tried your best to see who disturbed you of your beauty sleep, unfortunately you could make up a blurry black figure in front of you.

vision finally settling in after a couple of seconds, your eyes grew as wide as saucers clearly surprised to see sunwoo, of all people, standing in front of you right now

“may i help you?”

you repeated yourself but this time with evident confusion laced in the last word

he’s been acting like an asshole towards you since the night you both last talked and now he’s knocking on your front door and for… what?

receiving no verbal response from him but instead his eyes closing shut while his plump bottom lip got sucked in as his chest heaved a heavy sigh

growing alarmed and confused, you slightly leaned forward to peek your head out of the doorway and into the hallway to see what sunwoo has been looking off to

meeting with nothing but an empty hallway littered with doors on the sides while a hung painting rested on the end, sets of alarms rang through your head and red flags waved themselves in your imagination

“sunwoo what do you need?”

getting ticked off, your jaw buckled the slightest bit as you spoke with tension facing his still figure.

was this another way he’s going to annoy you? he hasn’t talked to you, responded to your greetings in the halls, and he’ll suddenly show up one night to knock on your door and act like he got a stiff neck? bullshit

“doyouhavesugar”

shifting your weight from one foot to the other, you stood there in confusion for a moment with your head tilted a bit to the side trying to discern the words he crammed into one minuscule breath

“what…?”

heaving a sigh out of his lips, he finally faces you but his eyes remained closed.

“do you have sugar?”

your lips formed an ‘o’ shape at the totally harmless question. but why did he hesitate so much? does it hurt his pride that much to talk to you?

but pushing this offense you clearly took from your own assumptions aside, you moved aside to open the front door wider for him, welcoming him into your, well, mirrored version of his apartment beside yours

“come in while i fetch you a packet, make yourself at home”

telling yourself to push the offense aside clearly wasn’t enough when you could feel the slight tension in your voice as you spoke but thankful the very least sunwoo didn’t act offended or taken aback, instead you were met with his lids flying open while both his brows raised in both shock and confusion

tilting your head to direct him in your humble abode, you silently ushered him to come in. letting go of the door handle, you let sunwoo make his own choice by the doorway not wanting to force him into a space he doesn’t want to be in

turning on your heel, you strutted your way into your dimly lit kitchen giving sunwoo the perfect, if he was owner of it, view of your inner thighs littered with subtle hickeys kind of mirroring the ones you had on your neck just earlier and apparently also like the ones on the back of your shoulder blades he has now seen

like a magnet, he was pulled in to follow your figure with no hesitation by some sort of magic spell when he finds himself setting foot in your foyer

softly closing the front door behind him, he took note of your figure turning right at the end of the hallway noting it was the way to the kitchen. not that he had to anyways, your place was pretty much like his. and if your bedrooms are right beside each other then that means so does the kitchen that was beside it.

walking into your kitchen, sunwoo was caught off guard at the sight of your white lace panties under the muscle tee that rode up your figure as you tip toed to for a jar of sugar on the top shelf

forming the palms in his pockets into fists, he tried his best to not let the middle of his sweats stick to his core giving away the sight of his growing boner

finally having the jar in your hold with much struggle and sliding it off the shelf, you were about to bask in the triumph of successfully retrieving it before you felt a bunch of small packets hit your face and to the counter while some fell to the floor

setting down the jar on the countertop, you bent down to grab the annoying little packets of catsup from food delivery but before you could even lay a finger on one you hear a dry cough from behind you

straightening up you were taken aback to see sunwoo behind you in the same stance as earlier. hands buried in his pockets standing rather awkwardly and head turned to the side looking off into the distance

you could’ve sworn this boy probably just copied and pasted himself from your doorway to your kitchen if it wasn’t for the hard gulp he took in while his used to be calm pupils wandered around nervously

you were about to ask him if he was okay but decided otherwise when the sudden reminder that him asking you for help at the moment probably hurted his ego and pride that much to not even look you in the eye passed through your train of thoughts

that’s right, his pride is probably crying right now

turning around and silently continue what you were cut off of, you bend over slightly over the counter to reach out for the sugar packet on the other far end of the marble countertop

“why are you doing this?”

your night seems to keep on pulling up surprises from everywhere, sunwoo’s voice laced with tension being one of them. just a while ago he was all shy and nervous in front of you but now he’s suddenly acting like the bigger person, in your apartment.

“you asked for sugar, im giving you some. enough that you won’t come back for seconds”

ripping the packet open, you poured in the small white grains into the half-empty jar filling it perfectly up to the brim in a second

“no. why are you doing this”

another surprise unraveled itself before you and it was sunwoo’s fingers ghosting over the back of your thighs while his figure ghosted beside you

“you moan my name and tell me you want me but the next time i hear from you, you’re screaming out somebody else’s name.”

stiffening in place, you tried your best to stay calm even though your heart rapidly pulsating in your chest and into your eardrums told you otherwise.

noticing the way the artery on your neck pulsated rapidly, sunwoo cockily shaped his lips into a smirk, beyond glad to know he’s still driving you feral at his will

his lips dangerously close to your ear and tickling its shell with his warm breaths, you tried to distract yourself busying with turning the lid close as well as discard of the now empty packet but it wasn’t much help when you can already feel yourself go weak by the legs

curse this. you swore to yourself you hated this boy for letting your hopes up but how come the second your vision cleared on his figure standing in front of you earlier the butterflies in your stomach magically all appeared at once

“hyunjae. hyunjae. hyunjae. you were screaming it like you had no care in the world the owner of the name you were moaning before his was listening to everything”

mocking the way you’d let out your sinful calls for your best friend’s name got your blood boiling but it was both in embarrassment and annoyance. you knew he was doing this to tick you off right from the start but why didn’t you push him away the very second you knew?

“and now, you’re here, bending before me in two things away from being bare naked. just what game are you playing y/n?”

his plump pillowy lips now flush against the shell of your ear, the next words he lets out in a whisper sends electric-like shivers down your spine

“because i want in”

feeling sunwoo plant kisses from the shell of your ear to your jaw and down your neck, you close your eyes and bite down on your bottom lip stopping any whimpers threatening to mindlessly fall out of your lips.

“so tell me, is that pretty pussy of yours still calling for me? the same way you’d greedily call out for me with your own lips, hm?”

hips lips coming up dangerously close to your ear again, although turning you on, you didn’t like where this newfound confidence he had dig up from, not one bit.

“what is up with you kim sunwoo? you talk to me like you want me, lead me on, do shit to me and then what, you ignore me? only to come back hoping to get into my pants again?”

softening the hard grip you had on the poor innocent sugar jar, you turned to face him head on while a tad bit of your frustration got out now.

“just what game are you playing kim sunwoo?”

muttering to him in hushed words, you didn’t have to break eye contact and look down at his lips to know he’s probably smirking under your noses grazing each other at the close proximity

“my game, is to rile you up baby, and im clearly winning”

baby. one word and your tummy is already doing flips and the butterflies doubled in a millisecond.

mindlessly swallowing a heavy ball of nonexistent saliva down your throat, sunwoo certainly didnt miss this nor the way your eyes quivered for a second. giving away the strong facade you tried to show him just now

“and for the record, there’s not once I’ve seen you in proper pants. it’s like you know i thirst over your thighs, i love it”

you wanted to smack the smirk out of his pretty lips mocking you through the sinful words he’s muttering at you through hushed breaths but something tells you not to without reason

wanting to come up with something to retort with and defend yourself, you slyly bit on your bottom lip thinking of a response but to no avail. he wasn’t wrong though, your love of wearing shorts all year out was for a fact true and maybe you have worn pants when you must but you definitely came out of your apartment in shorts more than often.

“cat got your tongue?”

feeling his soft hand come up to your chin and pull your lips apart, you awed at the way his boba eyes stared down at you with much interest.

darting a tongue out to run across his bottom lip, sunwoo looked back up at you already staring up at his smirking face

not breaking eye contact, he wordlessly pulled your chin closer until your bottom lips are grazing each other

“fuck off sunwoo”

you spat against his lips through gritted teeth, contradicting the way the butterflies in you are in a frenzy

“so you’re telling me, if i kissed you right now you would push me away? wanna give it a try?”

looking back at you intently and waiting for an answer, sunwoo waited patiently for you to speak but it never came. instead, he’s met with your grip on his collar pulling him flush against your lips.

taken by surprise, sunwoo stilled for a moment as his wide eyes looked down at your shut ones but the surprise was quick to dissipate and be replaced with submission.

melting into the sudden kiss, he fluttered his lids shut to enjoy the heavenly feeling of your soft lips against his pillowy ones.

meanwhile, you, you had no idea where the sudden burst of confidence came from but you definitely made use of it. mindlessly you reached out for his collar to pull him close and land your lips on his all within a split second.

perhaps one butterfly got loose and directed your actions, yeah that sounds more like it

running your the tip of your tongue against his bottom lip, you asked him for permission to which he welcomed. or so you thought

parting his lips, you were about to let yourself in but got caught off midway when your tip met with his pushing himself into your cavern with more force. granting him dominance, you let him do as he wishes tongue deep into you.

feeling the hand on your chin leave the surface, you blindly feel one hand of his lock its fingers into your hair from the back of your head pushing you closer to him and angling your head slightly to the side granting him easier and deeper access

your own hands leaving the jar of sugar finally alone, you tugged on the hem of his hoodie pulling his chest flush against your body now turned to him

yearning for the same intimacy as you, sunwoo’s other hand found your hip to push you back meeting the countertop as he stepped in closer to push himself flush against you

the hand lost in your hair now nowhere to be felt, you let go of his hoodie to wrap your arm around his neck to pull him closer and dee into the kiss while the said hand traveled to hold your waist along with the other helping you to sit up on the cold marble

the sudden drop of temperature meeting your warm bottom drew a shiver to run up your spine and elicit a whimper out of your swollen lips against his

briefly pulling away from you, you’re met with his swollen lips glossy lips shimmering under the dim light while his half lidded eyes look down at you

“tell me you want this as much as i do y/n”

catching your breath, you didn’t want to talk so you pulled him closer to you to enclose his lips again in a silent yes but the second his soft lips met the surface of yours you feel him stiffen forcing the contact to stop at that

“verbal answer please”

mumbling against your lips, he awed up at you with much intent, a soft innocent look contradicting the way mischief laced his statement.

breaking eye contact, you rolled your eyes to the side as you let out a scoff but the boy under you has absolutely no intent of softening soon unless you talk to him. however, you stood your ground

hands on your hips, sunwoo pulled you chest flush against his and your needy crotch met with his just as needy one.

slyly digging your canines unto your bottom lip, you mustered up as much willpower as you can to not arch your back and have your perked nipples graze against his hard chest or to even subtly grind against his hard on

one hand leaving your hip to cradle the side of your face, you could feel sunwoo’s lip coo fake sympathy against your lips still not initiating to do anything unless you say so

“you could also say no, you know”

giving in, you looked him straight in the eye letting the butterflies run its course through your body to control your next words

“i want you, sunwoo. touch me and fuck me, please i just want you, i badly want you ever since i laid my eyes on you the very day i moved in, heck i want you even more since the day we last talked. i just want you, sunwoo, please”

subtly pushing your bottom lip out to a pout against his, you mentally prayed to whatever’s listening he won’t tease you for it but of course the devil always has other plans

“so it wasn’t that hard to break you after all”

the hand on your cheek left the surface to tuck a stray strand behind your ear but without breaking eye contact with you. and by the looks of it, you know he’s enjoying every bit of this

“your delivery was great but”

leaving your orbs to follow the invisible path the tip of his index finger left on your skin, he followed it slowly tracing the shell of your ear, to your cheek, and down to the line of your jaw.

looking back up at you with his blunt nail stopping against the underside of your chin, you could feel him smirk against your lips before he lifts your chin up

“you cursed, that’s not very nice for brats like you”

letting go of your chin, you could feel your cheeks heat up in embarrassment that you had to plea at him only to be denied of what you wanted. but before you could even speak, he beat you to it

“you come out here with nothing but your panties and this lame excuse of a tiddie cover and still be a brat? that’s not how it goes kitten”

sensing he’s about to pull away from the short distance between you two, you deny him of retracting himself off you with your arms locking behind his neck. if he was actually serious with this whole brat tamer act, you know you would be in so much trouble for that, but thankfully he wasn’t a hard tamer.

pouting down at him as a silent plea to not leave you needy, although you know that’s what he wants, you arched your back to have your chest smushed against his making him feel the way your soft breasts get smushed against hard chest

as much as he wants to play the dominant brat tamer part at the moment, sunwoo can’t help but melt at your little needy actions making you look cute to him but moreover it just wants him to tame you even more, just maybe not in a hard way

not yet

“would you calm your tits? I’m not going anywhere”

still refusing to give you what you want, sunwoo smirks at you from a distance as his one hand went to sneak up your sides over the flimsy cloth

“now let’s do what your little outfit practically tells me to”

sneaking the hand through the overly large arm hole, he finds one of your boobs and soothingly grabs at it in a pleasurable massage

“showing up with your side boob out and about, tsk if it wasn’t me at the door you would’ve shown them all this”

too busy basking in the soothing feeling of his hand playing with your breast, your arms around his neck was loose enough for him to retract his chest away from you

retracting from your bare skin, you snapped out of your short-lived trance at the sudden empty feeling. but before you could think of how to react next, you subtly shivered when you feel your nipples brush against the cotton material

eyes focused on his hand, sunwoo gathered the two sides of your muscle tee into the middle setting your breasts out in the open air as the clothe gathered under his grip in the middle

letting out a grunt, he loved the sight of you right now and if it wasn’t for his tamer tendency he wouldve gave in and took you on the counter right now. your thighs on both sides of his hips while your crotches are flush against each other, your shoulder slightly leaned back to give him the view of your, thankfully, hickey-free boobs, sunwoo can’t help but push his core more into you

you mewl at the contact of his hard-on boner against the thin lace material of your panties, catching his attention, sunwoo’s other hand left from pulling your hips close to your to pull on the hem of your shirt. tugging on the hem upwards to gather into his other hand holding the middle, the lack of coverage gave you both the view of the imprint of his painfully hard member against your covered folds

the slight curve shaping on your panties where his length was pushed against told you both he was perfectly centered against the middle of your folds. the sight turning you both even more, sunwoo opted to rock his hips into yours loving the way your damp white panty is slowly turning transparent and your juices seeping through wetting his sweats meanwhile you opted to grind your hips against his matching his slow rhythm making you both let out breathy moans in satisfaction

“shit kitten, forget about taming you, i want to taste you so bad”

pulling himself away, you mewled in protest but before you could speak you were cut off by a sudden gasp out of your lips when you feel his palm cup your cunt in time of him diving down to latch his lips around a nipple

digging your nails into his shoulders, you let a low throaty moan pass your throat as your eyes rolled to the back of your head at the sudden simultaneous contact to your sensitive areas

arching your back to have your chest pressed closer to his lips, sunwoo didn’t mind to swirl his lips around the sensitive bud and suck on it a few times alternating it with giving kitten licks and softly nibbling on it.

pulling away with a pop, he spent a moment admiring his glossy work before looking up at you and holding eye contact as he goes back down to the same nipple nibbling and tugging on the bad eliciting soft whimpers from you.

all the while your fingers that left his shoulder to tangle in his locks tugged at them whenever you felt a little too sensitive and ever so often push him closer

meanwhile his other hand cupping your wet core has two fingers running up and down your wet slit but one graze of his fingers against your covered clit made you jolt a little at the sensitivity.

noting of this, sunwoo left a finger to hover over the area slyly looking for the sensitive bud again, but growing impatient with your own needs your other hand around his should sneaked down to have your fingers over his own guiding him to where you clit is

experimentally rubbing circles on the area, he awed at the sight of you jolting and whimpering while your eyes roll to the back of your head in satisfaction

more whimpers went past your mouth as his finger drew more rapid and tight circles around the area making you buck your hips up at him and squirm under him

in a split second, he lets go of your nipple with a soft pop to have his lips swallow all your whimpers

gasping into the kiss, he welcomed himself in you as his tongue explored the inside of your warm cavern distracting you from his hand leaving your panty to go past the waistband

fingers meeting your bare clit surprisingly fast, he drew even more faster and tighter circles making you squirm under him as your thighs threatened to crush his hips in between them

letting go of your shirt, sunwoo mutters constant praises on your lips helping you get to your high as his hand finds your hip to keep you grounded on the countertop

“that’s it kitten, squirt over your panties for me”

muttering in breaths against your now parted lips, sunwoo’s half lidded eyes never left yours once to take in your beauty cumming for him

both hands on his shoulder, your nails clawed at his hoodie looking for something to grab unto as your high was fast approaching.

chanting his name over and over like a mantra, you plead for sunwoo to push you over your high

“that’s it, say my name kitten, say who’s making you cum like this”

whimpers of his name turned into clear moans as your body shook and your hole clenched around nothing at your orgasm washing over you

feeling weak all over, you let your eyes flutter shut as you let go of sunwoo’s shoulders to rest on the counter forgetting about sunwoo who’s a mess right now from your high

“im going to need a new set of clothes, you know”

hooking an arm under your waist to pull on you to sit straight up, he awes at your flush cheeks, swollen red lips, and half lidded eyes as your tired pants meet the skin of his own cheeks

“do you have some actual pants around here?”

cheekily smiling up at you, you were confused for a second before you looked down and saw his light gray sweatpants now painted in a wet dark gray right at his own crotch

growing embarrassed at the mess you’ve made you muttered quick and rushed apologies at him under your breath as you hopped off the counter

“don’t worry about it, make it up to me with pants please”

dashing to your bedroom you were quick to find the plaid pajama pants that was horridly large on your frame because it was a failed online purchase as well as the largest hoodie you had in your closet before walking out with them slung against your arm to hand them over to sunwoo

finding him nowhere in the kitchen from your peripheral view, the sound of water running from your bathroom told enough where he was

knocking on it, you didn’t even make it to the second knock before you were met with him only in his white boxers

i say boxers but really it was his painfully hard erection in the confinement of the tight material that met your line of vision first

“eyes up here kitten”

on normal days you’d either scoff or roll your eyes at these kind of statements but tonight you were rather bold

holding out the fresh new set of clothes, you cheekily took steps closer to his figure as he took the clothes from your hold

“are you sure i could only make it up to you with clothes?”

turning around to set the pile on by the sink, you met his eyes looking back at your own from the mirror as you supported your weight on the doorway with a little sly smirk on your lips

“i think you already know the answer”

his reflection winking at you, you didn’t waste a single second to peel yourself off the doorway to stand behind him clothe chest against his back while your head cutely peeked out from the side to watch your reflections

sneaking a hand from behind to lay it across his hard chest, you trailed a tingling path down to his tattoo and down to his hard abs painfully slow all the while your other hand rested on his hips to play with the waistband of his calvin klein boxers

as if tranced by your touch, you awed at the way sunwoo’s eyes follows your hand through the mirror. eyes flying back up to meet yours, you gave him a single wink as he sends a smirk in response

“feeling a little playful aren’t we?”

not answering his question, afraid that you’ll break the sexual tension you just brought up right now, you opted to hold eye contact while your hand slid down his stomach to go past his waistband

finger ghosting at his tip, he lets out a sigh as his eyes followed your hand once again. taking the tip into your hold, you pump and circles his tip a few times while your thumb rested on the slit

low grunts and groans slip past sunwoo’s lips as he bucks his hips into your fist wanting you to go deeper only to be met with you retracting your hand from his boxers

eyes dark and almost annoyed you pulled away right before his high could build up, he was about to speak and scold you but got caught off when you grab him by the sides of his hips to turn him around and face you

kneeling down, your hands held onto his hips while you left kisses up and down his hard-on earning yourself satisfied sighs and groans from him both in pleasure and need

looking up at him through your lashes, you see his one hand go to the back to support himself by grabbing on the sink while the other was on its way to grab at you hair

but before his fingers could ghost on your locks, you pulled away for a brief moment eliciting a confused expression on his face for a second before you pulled your top over your head leaving you only in your ruined panties before him and his expression darkened once again to lust

grabbing the underside of your chin with one hand, he makes you face up to meet his lips halfway as he kisses you down in appreciation muttering words of praises against your lips

“you’re so fucking beautiful, god you look so perfect right now”

smiling into the kiss, sunwoo didn’t mind to respond to you the same way kissing the stretched smile on your lips before his turned into one themselves.

one hand leaving the underside of your jaw, he rakes it down your neck to your breast and cup one in his hold

“thoughts on impact play?”

“go for it”

need not to say more or less, sunwoo was more than glad to smack one of your breasts eliciting a gasp out of you before he cups it again to soothe and massage the momentary sting away.

doing the same to your other boob, he encloses your lips again in a kiss to swallow your mewls whenever his palms and finger tips come in contact with your breasts.

pinching hard on once nipple, he tugs on it as he pulls away from your lips to stand straight. and if the first time you saw his boner under the boxers was painful, this time must’ve been torturing.

his hard member was perfectly in front of your lips and you didn’t waste a second to pull his boxers down by the waistband making his length spring free

licking your lips at the sight, sunwoo had to buck his hips towards you to snap yourself out of your trance.

fingers circling around the base, you timidly pumped him a few times before enclosing your lips around the angry tip

circling your tongue around the sensitive head, you licked up his slit eliciting a shaky groan from sunwoo above you

looking up at him to meet his eye contact, you licked a long wet stripe from the underside of his base up to the tip

grabbing at the underside of your chin before you coulf shut your lips tight from licking him, you looked up at him as he spat perfectly flat on your tongue, the lewd sight turning you on even more, you rubbed your thighs together to get some friction

“lube me up kitten, i like it wet and messy”

and need not to be said more or less, you spat the saliva back unto his member messily licking wet striped up his length coating him to perfection as you pumped him easily

lips enclosing around his tip again, you sucked him off bobbing your head up and down on the head before going in halfway his length to hollow your cheeks and suck on him needily

bobbing your head up and down again as his tip met the back of your throat and your tongue ran on the underside of his length all the while your hand busied itself by pumping the rest of him that you couldnt fit in

hissing and moaning your name in grunts, sunwoo subtly rocked his hips into your mouth needing more

one hand coming up to grab at your hair, he guides you on his length as he thrusts up into you making tears well up in your eyes but you blink them away anyways

“y/n can you take more?”

concern fully laced in his voice, you pulled away from his cock to give him short nods.

lapping at the string of saliva connecting your lips to his tip, you lubed his whole dick with your saliva hoping it will make deepthroating him easier

“open up”

eyes back on him, you faced up to part your lips for him to spit in you again ending it with a proud smirk on his lips

back to your business, you smothered your saliva all over before it dries up and take in his tip again.

straightening up on your knees, his hand in your hair guides you to go down on him slowly but surely eliciting several hisses from him

bottom out in you, you breathe through your nose and blink away the tears and you feel him go past the opening of your throat

tapping on his thigh, you signal him to move in you and to which he complies with much gratitude.

moving in and out of you slowly, he thrusts up into you gradually growing from slow to an average pace that you surprisingly was still able to follow

but this was cut off short when you feel him twitch in the back of your throat, sensing that he’s been hesitating you take it into your own hands to have him face fuck you

bobbing your head up and down his throat, you grab at his thighs to ground yourself as you take him in at a pace that got you gagging and him groaning from above you

“shit im not lasting long”

motivating you even more to keep going, you went deeper on him and alternated between stilling and bobbing your head all the while your tongue cushioned the underside of his dick

chanting your name, you looked up at him through your lashes as he hisses at you. growing needy and desperate for his release, he lets go of all hesitation and fully trusts you to take him in with no problem

thrusting up at you at a rapid pace, you gagged as tears slipped past your eyes like the way your saliva went past your lips. twitching in you, you could feel his fingers tug at your locks to pull away but you stilled on him anyways to take in his cum

swallowing every last bit, you pulled away to happily show him the clean surface of your tongue earning yourself a grin from him.

“you’re quite the good kitten when you have a dick stuffed in your mouth, aren’t you?”

letting go of his grasp on your hair, you took this as your chance to stand up on your wobbly legs but thankful enough he caught you right in time

“any dick stuffed in my mouth?”

you taunted up at him through wiggled brows knowing well that isn’t what he meant but it doesn’t hurt to be a tease sometimes, right?

“of course it’s just my dick in your mouth kitten”

breaking eye contact with you to stare down at your red swollen lips and without a second to spare his lips are slotted in between your in a deep kiss as he holds you flush against him, the cotton material no longer there to separate your chest from his

“oh wow you really did take it all, i cant taste a single bit on your tongue”

muttering against your lips as you both panted breathlessly, you can’t help but smile at that compliment and send a wink at his way

“I’m skillful aren’t i?”

wiggling your brows up at him again, you didn’t miss the way he returns the giddy smile to you before enclosing your lips again in a quick peck

“unless you want a third round, come join me in the shower?”

• • •

“eric here’s the sugar”

coming back to his apartment in the new set of clothes, sunwoo held out the jar of sugar to eric who’s now situated on a counter stool eating his freshly baked cookies with warm milk

“you know, even if I hadn’t made my cookies right now, i still wouldn’t take that jar. god knows what that thing has been through”

practically holding the heavy thing up with one hand ready to throw it at the younger’s head, sunwoo opted to bring his hand down instead remembering this thing was the whole reason he got to actually have you

“oh and you’re welcome by the way, thanks to me you get to be laid tonight”

eric stops in the middle of his munching to take a sip of his milk with a heavy gulp while he raises a cookie at sunwoo who’s standing dumbfounded by the hall

“and thanks to this cookie, you get to see her again”

still unbothered by his older friend hovering over him with dark energy all around him, eric munched away on his cookies with much delight

not that it was far or you needed a lift, it was more of 'a couple more steps until you reach door but the alcohol in your system makes you stumble every step you take'

you thanked the heavens for having a best friend as caring as hyunjae for driving you to your apartment building but also curse him for not having the decency to walk you back to your actual apartment.

chivalry is shit, this doesn't even have to have chivalry mixed in it, you just wanted help at the moment. apparently you walking home drunk as a problem didn't seem to pass by your best friend's head.

“stupid fucking hyunjae, one more drink he said, he’ll take me home he said, is the fucking lobby my home?”

you muttered to yourself in slurred words as you held yourself up with the help of a nearby wall. your heels are dangling from your fingers, long taken off the moment you stepped foot into the elevator and could already feel yourself wobble at the narrow sticks the shoes have for heels.

pushing his door open, sunwoo was about to head out for another one of his late night ramen runs, those not so rare nights where he would suddenly crave for ramen in the dead of the night.

he was surprised to see your body all limp and weak against a wall as your own hand held you up. if he didn’t know you he would’ve thought you were a tortured ghost.

the tortured part was true, ghost…. we’re getting there.

pushing the past behind, he wanted to help you up at the moment. it was the very least he can do to be a good neighbor right? right?

but the moment he wrapped his arms around your shoulder, your limp body stiffened and suddenly straightened. you slowly whipped your head to his, your face painting a look of sheer horror at the sight of who’s helping you.

“you”

you raised an index finger to point at him, one more inch and you’d be bopping the tip of his nose.

“let’s get you to your room”

dismissing your clearly drunk state and slurring, he pulled you up against him to shift your weight onto him so he can support you on the way to your door

“n-no le- let’s talk, we, you know? we, yes, wii”

you chuckled-hiccuped at what you perceived to be a “funny” joke in the heat of the moment

“yes we, we need, you know? talk, yeah”

you tried to blink away the dizziness as you tried to come off as serious to him, definitely failing at that

“why do you- why do you hate me kim sunwoo?”

shocked that you were able to form a coherent sentence, the boba head turned to face you, he would’ve taken you to be faking your drunk state if it wasn’t for your body swaying slightly side to side and your cheeks flush red.

“why do you- you know?” you instinctively put a hand up against the wall beside you to support your weight as sunwoo has now let go of your swaying figure

“you’ve been ignoring me!” this time you whined, a little too loud to the both of you’s liking.

“s-see, you- you’re even ignoring me now!”

you probably sounded like someone’s bratty child at the moment, whining like you weren’t bought your favorite toy as your voice echoed through the empty hallway.

with little sways, front-back and side to side, you managed to inch your index finger closer to sunwoo’s figure, narrowing your eyes at him, your way of silently asking for an answer.

it’s been a while and sunwoo has been racking his brain for an answer that won’t hurt you hence he’s been staying silent through your whole whining.

opening his mouth to speak, he was cut off when he heard a voice call out your name from behind him.

even through your dazed and fuzzy state, you could clearly tell it was the devil himself coming back to haunt you.

now, it was your turn to open your mouth and rant about hyunjae being an ass for letting you walk alone but cut short when he came around sunwoo and slung a heavy arm around you and covered your mouth with his other hand.

“h-hey! please don’t mind her, she drank a lot tonight”

hyunjae gave the poor confused boy before him an apologetic smile as you shot him glares for cutting you off rudely

“i-it’s fine, take care of her well”

sunwoo mentally connecting the dots himself, he figured the man holding you now was probably a boyfriend and he did not want to overstep that line

dismissing himself before it gets even more awkward, he gave you both, well, hyunjae, an apologetic bow and sent a concerned look at your way before turning on his heel and cowering back into his own apartment no longer wanting his favorite ramen.

“wha-what’s wrong with y-you?!” sunwoo could clearly hear you hiss through hiccups at the man beside you from his apartment door as he painfully took his time to take off his shoes.

“you! you leave- you leave me to walk alone! and now you’re-“

your hiccup-filled whining was suddenly muffled and the door to your apartment creaked open, these thin walls really are shit

“shh shh shh no more whining you’re home now, see” hyunjae hushed you by covering a palm over your mouth again while slightly carrying you off your feet to go inside your apartment.

“you’re r-rude. i-i was going to- ask him w-why” you said through more hiccups, but this time your voice wasn’t whining, it was full of…. sadness or maybe hopelessness

“don’t you think it’s best if you didn’t?”

hyunjae knew what you were going through at the moment, no, he knows what has been going on

you both have had this conversation through messages before at how your little crush is being a snob and ignoring you lately making a fool out of yourself for sharing overly private things with him, way before you even proposed to drink with hyunjae tonight so you’d get over it.

he had mixed emotions over this in all honesty. he oh so slightly felt jealous you didn’t go to him for that kind of relief, he also felt sorry for you for meeting a douchebag like him, he’s also jealous that he isn’t your little crush, but he’s also mad this crush of yours broke your heart after using you.

“hey hyunjae…”

your voice small and fragile echoed through the walls, hesitation evident in your voice

“can you do me a favor?”

“sure thing sweetheart, what do you need?”

he barged into your room with a hangover drink in hand, setting the drink down by your bedside he reaches out a hand and pats your head.

a soft chuckle escaped his lips at how cute you are right now, you really were more easier to handle when you’re drunk sad and not fussy.

“relief”

your doe eyes looked up in anticipation at his that looked down on you, his hand still on the top of your head.

“y/n, you’re under the influence, i don’t want to make it seem like i took advantage of you”

this time hyunjae crouched down and was on his knees in front of your figure that was sitting at the edge of your bed.

“then record this, me telling you to sleep with me, i don’t care, just please, i don’t want to feel like shit anymore”

tears escaped the corners of your eyes as you pleaded through hiccups at your best friend to help make you feel better

it was selfish, yes, to make use of your best friend for your own personal benefit with no regard of what he would even get for himself. but you really did need it at the moment

silence

you watched in silence through blurry eyes as tears stream down your cheeks at the sight of hyunjae leaving, getting up and heading to the door with no words.

no words, not a glance, no nothing.

you already felt like shit, and your own best friend leaving you definitely made it worst.

maybe not a ‘best friend leaving you’ but it was more of ‘making a fool of yourself for the second time’ kind of pain

pulling your knees off the floor and unto your chest, you sobbed into your knees and palms as you cried all the pain away hoping this should do more than enough to lessen the hurt.

you sniffled and let out ragged breaths into your own hold,

‘right, in the end, all you have is yourself’

‘but what happens when i’ve also given up on myself’

oh no, this was the start of your thoughts taking over, your own thoughts starting to overthink and over analyze things, all in all just going into overdrive.

ears deaf to the real world, all you could hear is your ragged breathing and sniffles through sobs, missing the sound of your bedroom door clicking shut.

you feel a pair of firm hands hold the sides of your head, softly pulling to lift up your face, but before you could even face this person you made a rushed decision to rapidly wipe away the tears and sniffle your snot.

“i left to lock your front door and you’re already a crying mess?”

finally looking up you were met with a softly smiling hyunjae, cradling your puffed up face in the palm of his hands, he softly squished your cheeks together.

your absence of response gave him the green light to do it over and over, giving him the cutest view of you going noot noot with your pink puffy lips. his eyes turned into crescents as his gaze was set on your lips, missing the way your brows furrowed and eyes shot death glares at him.

“you’re such a motherfucker” was all you could let out, accompanied with a little sniffle. hyunjae couldn’t take it anymore, finding the way you angrily talk with your cheeks squished together was peak adorable to him

your cheeks still squished together in the palm of his hands, he brought you close to meet him halfway landing a soft innocent kiss at your pouty lips. pulling away, he’s smiling like an idiot at you being all putty in his hands. gaze traveling down at you, he found you looking somewhere else than him while your fingers were anxiously picking at each other on your lap.

shifting himself so your line of vision would be focused on him, you darted your attention to somewhere else again, not wanting to do anything with hyunjae anymore. not after he scared you shitless and had you breaking down crying over nothing.

but of course, hyunjae was a persistent man. everywhere you looked he would shift himself around.

sighing in defeat and already growing impatient at your silent banter, he firmly grabbed unto your cheeks forcing you to look at him and him only.

your red puffy eyes looked up at him as an apologetic smile from the man in question painted his lips. dipping down he landed another innocent kiss to your lips before he let his forehead rest on yours. thumbs softly drawing nonexistent figures on your cheeks in a comforting manner.

“did i make you cry that bad? im sorry”

you may be under the influence but for sure you can still tell emotions apart, and currently you’re questioning whether he was even sincere about it or not judging by the way he was smiling while saying it.

and like he was reading your thoughts,,

“i mean it, im sorry, i really am. i wont make you cry like that over nothing again, soon” one more kiss landed on your lips, pulling away he looked at you with so much love you were starting to read too deep into it

“not “ever” because you’ll do it again huh?”

you taunted him by holding up two fingers making nonexistent quotation marks in the air.

“you know me all too well” you broke into a smile at your best friend’s antics, he knew all too well how to make you feel better and it was plain stupid in all honesty at how you’re easy to please for him

“I’ll tuck you in, go get some sleep?”

soft lips met you once again but this time it was to your forehead as he pulled away from you

not liking this new emptiness on your plump muscles, you pouted your lips up at him, your silent way of asking for a kiss. leaning down to place a kiss on your lips again, you thanked the heavens above hyunjae spoke your language well.

“my offer still stands by the way”

you reminded him of your favor from earlier, silently hoping he’d say yes

“y/n I’m not the person you want, I know, you don’t have to push-“

“do you not want to do it because of that or do you just not want to do it because it’s me? give me an honest answer jae, maybe he doesn’t want to do it because it’s m-“

“there you go again. see, it’s not me when you keep talking about him, all you talk about is kim sunwoo. if i didn’t want you i wouldn’t be kissing you like this any chance i get just to show you i love you. you like him y/n, hell, maybe you love him. you think im not the one for you and i respect that, im not doing it because it’s you, im not doing it because it’s FOR you”

just like earlier, he dropped to his knees in front of you, this time it was your hands cradling his teary face.

“jae-“

“no, y/n listen to me, i love you, so much. so much im ready to let you go for your happiness. you’ve rejected me countless times, you keep saying you want the best for me, and what if you are the best for me? but what im getting is im not the best for you. i may have been through your many phases but that doesn’t mean im the love of your life. i understand you best but that doesn’t mean you’d like me better than anyone else. i see the way your eyes sparkle when you talk about him y/n, you talk about him like he’s the love of your life.”

at this point you were both sobbing messes on your bedroom floor, cradling each other in each other’s arms hoping to give as much comfort as possible.

“then why did you stop me”

you asked through sniffles as you looked into his eyes hoping to get an answer

“i heard you and i think you said enough”

hyunjae looked back into your eyes as his formed into crescents as he broke out into a smile, you’ve got to give it to him for staying strong and still mustering up a smile right now.

all the while you mustered up the confidence you had left in you to plant a long kiss unto his lips, no movement, no intrusion, just a still kiss. it stayed like so for a minute or two and you felt a teardrop trickle down hyunjae’s cheek and unto your own cheek, instinctively moving your lips against his, he followed after your lead and now you’re both locked in a soft, sensual kiss. no rush, no desperation, it’s just there.

not breaking the kiss, you slowly sat up and softly tugged at his biceps to follow you up to the bed. laying on the comfort of your sheets as hyunjae hovered over you, you wrapped your arms around his neck to pull him closer, prompting his body to lay flush against yours. all the while his own hand found its way to push away stray strands of hair on your face and raked his fingers through your locks in a loving manner

melting into the kiss, you swiped your tongue against his bottom lip asking for permission to which he granted. slipping past his lips, you’re met with his tongue and none of you wanted to fight for dominance however it was clear you’re taking the lead.

raking your fingers through his own locks, you softly and lightly tug at his strands every now and then, adding slight pleasure into the kiss.

pulling just by a mere centimeter away from your lips, his warn breaths tickled your bottom lip as he spoke asking for permission

“are you sure you want to do this?”

you’re quick to give short and fast nods at him desperately asking him to kiss you again to which he complied

his hand leaving your hair, both of his hands roamed your sides, caressing in a delicate touch of each curve of your body like you would break by the slightest pressure

stopping at your hips, he slightly shifted to prop himself up, slightly pulling your hips up afterwards as he pulled the hem of your dress over your hips and gather around your waist.

hands finding your bare hips, hyunjae pulls away from the kiss, a trail of saliva connecting your breathless bodies together. moving down to your neck, he gave slow and open mouthed kisses to your skin, softly nibbling and licking at the surface as his fingertips played with the thin straps of your panties.

remembering the one area you’re most sensitive to whenever he’d tickle you, he wasted no time in attaching lips to the area under your lobe, softly sucking and nibbling, careful to leave a mark but not too bruising that it would stay for more than a week.

leaving a trail of wet open mouthed kissed down to your dress’s neckline, his hands busied itself by pushing the gathered garment up and over your body as you arched your back and held your arms out to help him get rid of the dress easier leaving you only in your panties under him.

slightly growing shy being the only one who is one garment close to being completely naked, you lightly tugged at his white shirt and he’s more than happy to oblige, pulling it off by his collar and throwing it somewhere on the bedroom floor.

you prop yourself up with your elbows as you met him halfway into another heated kiss.

one arm leaving your support system to rake your fingers painfully slow down his hard chest, abs, and stopping at his belt.

“jae, do you want to do this?”

you broke the kiss to ask him for his permission remembering he was the one hesitating earlier

“who am i to say no to you?“

hyunjae propped himself up with one arm beside your head as he hooked his other arm around your waist to hold you up as you used your two hands to unbuckle his belt. the buttons and zipper soon followed coming undone.

you let one arm down and support your weight again so his arm could take a break, you pulled him close into another deep kiss and raked your free hand up his abs, pecks, neck, and up to cup his face slightly guiding him to angle his face better for your tongue to have more and deeper access into his hot cavern.

your free hand sliding and caressing every perfectly sculpted curve your fingers can find as they went down his body again, this time going lower than the other times. you sneaked your hand into his jeans, palm flat on his base and caressed him up and down his shaft through his boxers earning you a low grunt from him as his weight ever so slightly pushed you back down to the mattress to lay comfortably.

feeling more daring, you slipped your hand under his waistband and grab his base, earning yet again another low grunt from him, this time accompanied by him biting down on your bottom lip.

stroking him slowly, you didn’t miss the way his breathing started growing rapid over you every time he’d pull away from the kiss to take a breather.

catching his lips back into yours, you distracted him from your other hand going in between bodies to hold onto the waist band of his boxers to keep it open.

pulling away slightly, you took this chance to spit on the palm of your hand before taking his lips again. the hand in question going back into his pants as you stroked him, the saliva coating his member served as your lube, earning you a heaven-sent moan from him at the sudden wetness.

he really wasn’t lying when he said he liked things to be wet and sloppy in sex during the time you both played spin the bottle.

laying his head to hung down beside yours, his lips are dangerously close to your ears as sinful sounds dripped from his mouth

you started to fasten your pace at stroking him and his breathing grew even more rapid and his moaning became more and more lustful into your ear.

low breathy chants of your name are met with your hearing senses as he neared his high desperately asking you for release as he slightly thrusted down into your hand trying to chase his high.

soon after, he finds himself coming onto your stomach repeatedly chanting “so good” into your ear as he placed several countless kisses to your ear and cheek, as well as accompanied by several thank you’s

his half lidded eyes met yours as he turned to face you, lips diving down to meet yours again you broke the kiss short as you pulled away ever so slightly

“jae i want more”

“get on all fours baby, just how you like it”

mumbling against your lips, he closed the minuscule distance between you two to encase your lips again into a short kiss

pulling away and retracting himself off of you, he stood right off the bed pulling off his jeans and boxers together before kicking it off his feet to who knows where

meanwhile you, you wasted no time flipping yourself over on all fours at the edge of the bed impatient that he’s taking so long to touch you

taken aback by the sudden feeling of his tongue licking a long flat stripe against your damp panties, a soft moan of his name escaped your lips

stroking himself from behind you, he can’t help but grow hard and proud that the person who broke your heart gets to hear you moan his name as he’s the one fucking you and not him

“can’t wait to devour you kitten, but first..”

the innocent nickname he gave you turning you on even more now that he’s calling you kitten in the bedroom and not in public, especially when he’s about to fuck your brains out, growing weak it got you to lay face down and ass up on the mattress still lacking of sober energy

face to the side, you see hyunjae pull off pillows from your mattress and place them in between the headboard and wall.

turning around to face you, he gave you a smirk to let you know he wouldn’t be doing this if he planned to go soft on you tonight

disappearing from your line of vision again, you were about to whine at him you’re growing impatient but instead you let out a shocked mewl at his palm coming in contact with your ass with a loud slap ringing through the air

pushing your bum back, you were shameless in asking more. how can you not be when the sting feels so good.

one more slap rang through the air when his palm your other ass cheek, sending a well balanced tingling sensation to your bottom

“be patient for me kitten, i still have to do the other side”

planting a kiss on your now subtly red ass, not long later he’s back in line of vision doing what he did with the other side. growing impatient, you plopped yourself up with your palms flat against the mattress and your ass back down to rest on your heels

“tsk you’re taking so long I’m no longer horny”

your eyes sending death glares at his own as you silently followed his figure coming around the bed again to be crouching meeting your head level

capturing your lips in his in a quick needy kiss, you found yourself chasing after his lips when he pulled away

“then I’ll make you horny for me kitten”

one hand coming up, he cupped your jaw in place to face him as he dived to devour your lips again in a much needier and hungrier kiss

one hand coming in contact with your back to make its way painfully slow down to the small of your back and land a softer slap to your ass again before kneading it

pulling away from his lips, he took his time admiring your flushed innocent face as you looked up at him in anticipation with what’s to come next and you’re met with him coming close again to mumble against your lips

“ass up face down”

and that’s all he said through dark eyes telling you to behave before he lets go of your jaw with dark eyes and straightening up again to stand behind your body now in the position as commanded by him

“tell me, what do you want me to do kitten?”

slap. the slight sting caused you to let out a mewl out instead of blurt out an answer and hyunjae was dead set on getting you to talk through sex

“I’ll leave you here begging until you tell me”

another slap but this time you’re met with his palm caressing the now red hand mark on your skin.

“fuck me hyunjae, please”

another slap straight to the bum and you were wondering what did you say wrong when in fact that was what you wanted him to do

“give me a full answer kitten”

another slap paired with a soft caress met your skin causing tears to now well up in the corner of your eyes as you let out your answer in shaky breaths

“fuck me until I’m screaming your name and seeing stars, please, fuck me until i forget my heartbreak”

satisfied with your answer, he leaned down to land and open mouthed kiss on your red bum. but of course it escalated to more than just a plain kiss, nibbling, sucking, and biting on the skin, hyunjae made sure to leave his mark on your ass reminding him he’s the one fucking you tonight as he would take you from the back

making his way to leave more marks on your bum, his hand also came up to tease you through your damp ruined panties

the flat of his thumb against your covered hole while the flat of his index rested atop your covered rim, he painfully slow moved his thumb up and down your covered clit, slit, and hole feeling how wet you are under his fingertip

slap.

“you’re so wet for me kitten, you better make wet sounds when i fuck myself into you”

mumbling against the new mark he’s left, you slightly shivered at the ticklish sensation but it definitely turned into you softly moaning out his name in ecstasy when you felt the tip of his fingers brush against your folds as they pulled your underwear to the side giving him full access to your glistening cunt

pulling away from your bum, he took his time admiring the way he got you all wet and turned on. licking his lips before he stuck his tongue out again to lick a long flat stripe up, you let out a breathy moan as he groaned against your folds

the hand he had on his length stroking and pumping him endlessly turned to jerking himself off even faster as he’s getting turned on just by eating you out with his tongue and powered with the soft moans of his name you’re letting out

the tip of his tongue coming in contact with your clit, you pushed yourself back on him for him to put more pressure

thanking the heavens again he knows your body language well, hyunjae straightened his tongue to give fast and precise kitten licks to the sensitive nub making you a muffled moaning mess under him

the palm resting on your rear made its way up to the small of your back urging you to push yourself back on him more and you were more than glad to do so

from the licking to sucking and biting on your clit, you loudly moaned out hyunjae’s name repeatedly in between breaths as you feel your high coming near. his sharp nose prodding at your hole didn’t help one bit driving you closer to your edge

your high pitched moans was enough to tell him you’re near your climax and to push you more to the edge his one hand went from the small of your back to back on your cunt again and let his thumb go in you curling itself to meet your walls clenching around his digit nonstop

“shit, kitten im going in”

and with no second to spare, he quickly got up to line himself up with your awaiting hole. pushing his tip slightly through, his two hands grabbed a firm grip on your hips as your own hands formed into knuckles clutching onto the sheets under you as you waited for him to fill you up to the brim

and with one quick hard thrust he bottomed out into you instantly, ripping a loud mewl out of your lips at the sudden intrusion.

rocking himself to go deeper into you, you continued to muffle your whimpers into the sheets as you feel tears escape past the corner of your lids

one hand coming to wrap around your throat, you were brought up to have your back flush against chest as he continued rocking himself deeper into you

“shit kitten you’re so warm and tight”

nibbling on the shell of your ear as you focused on the pain turning into pleasure, you still mustered up the strength to explain yourself through breaths

“jae it’s been over a year and you’re the first”

moving down to nibble on your jaw, you held onto his wrist as the other went to his hips looking for something to grip on as he held you close to him by your throat and the one hand he has wrapped around waist as he chuckled unto the skin of your neck

“im more than honored”

sucking and nibbling again on your skin leaving marks of his own, you let out soft breathy moans right by his ear when he started to slowly thrust himself in and out of you little by little

meeting his thrusts midway, you subtly rock your bottom back and forth earning yourself a low groan from him.

the arm around your waist going south to rest atop the low of your tummy, he elicited another low groan into the shell of your ear as he felt a slight bump on the soft skin

“you’re taking me so well kitten, i can’t wait to reck you”

as much as he loves to feel the bump appear and disappear again under his palm as he thrusts into you, hyunjae badly wanted more than just soft sex to meet his needs and of course yours also, you did tell him you want him to fuck your brains out

letting go of your throat, he moved his hands to rest on the small of your back and onto your hip ushering you to go back ass up and face down on the mattress

stilling himself deep in you, he waits for your signal to start moving and with a tap of your small delicate fingers on his hard thighs he starts doing just that

almost fully pulling out of you leaving only the tip, he slammed back into you completely bottoming out and knocking another loud gasp of a moan out of your lips

pulling himself out midway, he starts thrusting into you at a steady and relaxed pace until you’re ready and adjusted for a more brutal one

completely relaxing yourself around him, you pulled yourself off of his dick in time with him pulling out so you can thrust yourself back into him again

smirking to himself at your needy behavior, he lets you have your way meeting his thrusts midway as his hands do nothing but just rest on your hips.

leaning down to press a kiss to your shoulder blade, he comes close to your ear again to let you hear sinful words drip from his mouth

“hold on tight kitten, im going rough"

you could’ve sworn his voice went an octave lower at the last part but it didn’t matter much, not when he’s back to groaning against the skin of your shoulder when you mindlessly clench around him

and with a bite on the skin of your shoulder he just kissed, he pulls himself away from you to fully focus on his thrusts and making you feel good

the steady pace turns into him fucking you rapidly as he grabs unto your hips harshly pulling you back on him to go deeper with every thrust

the brutal pace was hard for you to keep up with and caused you to elicit uneven moans into the mattress alternating them with muffled grunts and whimpers meanwhile hyunjae’s grunts and moans of your name from behind you can be merely heard over the sound of skin slapping in the room

your knuckles are white as they form fists into the bed sheet you’ve buried your face in to muffle the sinful sounds dripping out of your mouth

one hand coming around to grip the sides of your throat again caused you to moan out and whimper in the open air as the lack of oxygen only adds to your pleasure factor

giving you your short enjoyable time of moaning out in the room, he guides you through your dazed state to moan out whatever he wanted you to, most of which was his name

“who’s fucking you this good kitten?”

“y-you, hyunjae"

moving around for his palm to now rest from the front to your nape, he pushed you down to the mattress as his other hand left your hip to fetch a pillow from above you.

sliding the soft cushion under the low of your stomach, he pushed you down again to completely shift your weight on the pillow allowing him to fully use you as you relax under him

letting out a shaky sigh in relief at the comfort of not exerting force in holding yourself up, you finally took notice of the tightened knot in your stomach

repeatedly clenching and unclenching around his hard member, you moan out his name letting him know you’re near

his hands now gripping both sides of your hips, his thrusts grew desperate and rushed to get you cumming under him.

“s-shit hyunjae, im near, so near”

your hands let go of the bed sheet and flew to the back to grip on his wrists telling him to keep going

the clenching around him grew impossibly tighter eliciting low moans of your name from behind you.

“kitten, keep doing that. that’s right keep on clenching around my fucking dick. you like it so much when i fuck your tight pussy don’t you”

desperately nodding, tears ran down the sides of your eyes again at your impending orgasm

your one hand flew from his wrist when he forced himself out of your grip to slide in between your body and the pillow

quickly finding your clit, he rubbed rapid tight and precise circles around the sensitive nub throwing you over the edge and cumming around his dick with moans of his name dripping from your lips

not stopping with the brutal desperate pace he’s going with, he kept rubbing circles on your sensitive clit and hitting your sweet spot over and over again with his tip

you were a moaning mess under him getting overstimulated and fucked through your orgasm but the sounds coming from you only drove him closer to his release

“kitten im cumming on your ass”

pulling out of you in a mere second, his hand went from your clit to jerking himself off to completion above your rosy cheeks

with grunts of your name, you could feel his cum land in between the valley of your ass cheeks and drip down past your rim and hole down to your folds as you held your rear up presenting his work of art to him

kneading your ass, hyunjae took his time admiring the way his cum dripped down to mix with your own flowing out of your hole

spreading your cheeks apart, he dived down to have his tongue collect the mixture of both of your releases earning himself a shaky whimper from you at the sensitivity

licking a short stripe up from your hole to your rim, he held you down by the ass to circle his tongue and spread the liquid around your rim lubricating it as his tongue darts in your tight hole

“h-hyunjae”

tongue deep in your ass, you clenched and flexed your thighs and hole as he ate your ass with desperation and grunts

moving his tongue in and out of you, you let out more moans of his name at his wet muscle slightly stretching you

eyes rolling to the back your head, you muffled your moans in the sheets agains as you held onto his wrists and grind yourself against his tongue

pulling out of you, he kissed your rim as you tried to relax your heaving chest.

“can’t wait to have this later”

and one more kiss to your rim, he dived lower to collect a mixture of you both from your slit up to your hole

“we taste so good together kitten”

groaning against your folds, you could feel him lick another flat stripe up collecting the liquid again before pulling away

taking you by surprise, he flipped you over in a matter of seconds and straddles your hip before diving down to kiss you letting you taste yourself and himself on his tongue and lips

moaning into the kiss as you taste the sweet concoction, your fingers found themselves to lock in his hair and tug on his strands as you both messily made out

too distracted with how he feels against your tongue and lips, you couldn’t entirely focus at his bottom half shuffling all around until you felt him in between your thighs while they rested atop his

pulling away slightly, he softly mumbled to your pouty lips through his smirked ones

“ready for round two?”

you weren’t even entirely sure yourself if you were ready for round 2 but you submitted yourself to hyunjae’s care anyways

looking at him through your lashes, you gave him small nods in response earning yourself a smile growing on his red swollen lips

his large hands hooking under your thighs, he pushes them upwards until your knees hit your chest

taking it into your hands to hold them up for him, he caresses the underside of your thighs lovingly as he looks intently at your two holes clenching around nothing.

the one which he came out with still spitting out spurts of cum out of the pink cavern and dripping down your rim to fall into a little sticky puddle on the white sheets

with a hand around the base of his cock, he pushes his tip into your gaping hole still leaking of cum with a low moan dripping from his lips at the wetness and lewd sounds your wet cunt made at the contact of his hard dick in your wet walls

biting your lip waiting for him to slam into you like he did the first time, you looked at him intently loving the way his brows furrowed, fringe stuck to his forehead, chest glistening with his sweat as his eyes focused on the way his cock perfectly fits you and it was only the tip

slowly pushing himself into you, he bottomed out completely perfectly hitting your sweet spot in one go

feeling the tingle in your stomach again, you threw your head back, your crown meeting the headboard as you let out a shaky breath catching hyunjae’s attention

knowing your sweet spot was still sensitive, he smirked up at you while pulling out just as slow as how he went in

pulling yourself to look back at him, you eyes spoke for yourself as they looked at him in confusion

and like it was telepathic his smirk told you that was only the tip of the iceberg for the second round

“im going through the back kitten”

ripping his eyes away from yours, he awed at the way more cum dripped out of your hole as it was fetched by his own dick from your insides

hand around his base, hyunjae guided his tip to take in dollops of the white liquid and spread it all around your rim

biting down on your lip, you waited for him to enter your absolutely tight hole harshly but in contrast to the way he’s hungrily devouring the sight of your exposed holes, you watch as he suck in his bottom lip and and furrow his brows again at pushing himself in you

the sting of his angry tip entering you sent shivers down your spine and you can’t help but throw your head back again against the headboard letting out shaky breaths once again catching his attention

coming over to hover over you as his hands were beside you, palms supporting his weight on the mattress as he waited for you to relax around his tip

lips attaching to your neck, he tried his best to distract you from the slight pain by nibbling more marks on your hot skin

your fingers raking through his hair, you lightly tug on some strands to pull him to face you

wanting to kiss his swollen lips instead to help yourself relax, you pulled him close to your lips but better you could lock them into a heated kiss he muttered against your bottom lip

“kitten it’s going to hurt, are you sure you want to keep going?”

lost in his eyes focusing on your red and teary ones, he waited patiently for your answer as you mustered up the little strength to speak without whimpering

“yes, but please don’t go hard”

and with a small understanding nod, he locked your lips in his in a sensual slow kiss

your palms let go of your thighs to wrap around his waist pulling him closer as a silent hint to push further into you

inch by inch he slowly pushed himself into you until he was balls deep groaning into the kiss as you whimpered against his lips

feeling a tear slip past the corner of your eye, you held the sides of his face to pull away so you can arch you back and heave deep breaths of the cold air

your own perked nipples grazing against his hard chest created this heaven-sent feeling silently bubbling within you both and hyunjae took this as a chance to wrap his lips around a nipple eliciting a whimper out of your shaky lips

wordlessly, somehow in someway hyunjae’s soft lips around your nub helped you relax by a lot. maybe it was because he wasn’t going harsh like biting or pulling on it, just slightly sucking in and licking the sensitive nub his warmth definitely playing a big role in making you relax

one hand leaving the side of his face to lock in his hair as the other traveled to the middle of his back, the hand in his hair slightly pushed him closer to your chest while the other pushed his torso down to lay flush against yours

palms leaving the sheets to fully rest his body on yours, they traveled up flat against your arm to your shoulders hooking his arms under yours to help keep you grounded on him

letting go of your now wet nipple, his lips found your parted ones in another kiss

“m-move”

mumbling against his lips through his nibbling of your bottom muscle, he didn’t need to be told twice as he starts off slow with the thrusts going in and out of you in short inches never leaving you empty once afraid that he might hurt you again if he emptied you

sighing in satisfyingly between making out, your soft whimpers turned into soft moans muffled out by his kisses as the pain faded away and turned into pleasure

wanting to hear more of your moans knowing this is the first and probably the last time he gets to hear his name come out in moans of pleasure from your lips, he lets go of your bottom lip sucked in between his to latch onto your neck muffling his own ragged breathing

“you feel so good around me kitten, so tight and good for me, i want to hold you like this forever”

words muffled unto your neck, you could sense the way he hesitated through the last part even in your dazed state

afraid your mindless answer is going to hurt him, you bit your lips shut not trusting your now slightly drunk state to form coherent sentences let alone right ones

leaving a trail of wet kisses from the middle of your chest to your neck, jaw, and to the side of your face, you didn’t miss the way his teary eyes stared at yours with pain evident in them

hyunjae sensing you were reading too deep of his emotions, he distracted you but shielding his eyes in the form of crescents as he smiled down at you with love and care

“but even if it’s not for forever, I’m glad i was your man for a night”

shushing him before he ends up tearing in front of you, you caught his lips in yours pulling him down as you busied the sober part of your mind to come up with something to push his thoughts away

“was? would you shut up? you know well you’re still my man right now with the way you’re still fucking into me dumbass”

stopping for a second to mumble against his lips that are now painted in a smile, it was the best statement you could make up in the heat of the moment and you know hyunjae sensed that too but didn’t question it either way

knowing well you’re trying your best to distract him, he plays along with you to ease your worries as continuous mumbles ran from his lips against yours

“do me a favor and sleep with your neighbor tomorrow hm? so you’d know how much better of a fuck i am than him”

looking up at you with eyes dark with lust and mischief, he smirked to himself as your own lips grew into a smile loving how the atmosphere has now upped

and before you could even scoff a retort at him, he took the air out of your lungs as you let out a gasp from his sudden harsh thrust making you clench around his dick tightly for a prolonged period of time trying to recover from the shock

“and your pretty ass would come back running to me”

hyunjae knew well this was all but the honest truth, he knew you wouldn’t be running back to him for relief after this if ever you do get to sleep with sunwoo, the very person of your own wet dreams

but he couldn’t help but hold on to that very little hope you wouldn’t make amends with sunwoo soon just so you’ll ask him to fuck the pain of heartbreak out of you again

to have you under him while you moan out his name annoying your neighbor to death at how you’re enjoying your night with your best friend

fingers curling unto your shoulder and forming crescents into your skin, he holds you in place as he thrusts into you slightly faster but still not going over an inch of pulling out before pushing back in

pulling you to meet his thrusts halfway, you let out more whimpers of his name as you feel the knot in your stomach form and tighten in a split second

at this point hyunjae already knew what your ragged breaths, rushed whimpers, and high pitched soft moans of a plea of his name meant you were nearing your high and he’s always more than happy to help throw you over the edge

“kitten, want me to go faster? fuck you until you’re screaming my name and squirting on my dick?”

you desperately nodded at hyunjae hovering over you loving how beautiful you look every time you cum, and to know he’s the one making you cum makes him swell with pride

“who’s fucking you this good kitten?”

you hated him so much for trying to keep a fast talk with you at the moment when you’re most desperate but the way he’s almost growling at every time you respond to him the way he wants you to makes you swell in pride and the knot in your stomach to tighten even more

“y-you, hyunjae”

“come again? i couldn’t quite hear you kitten”

with a sigh leaving your lips, you wished he would just forget about asking you things to feed his ego but his rapid thrusting in your tight hole clenching around him nonstop tells you he won’t stop fucking the answers out of you soon

“say my name, say whose dick is taking you to heaven kitten”

with harder and deeper thrusts into you, you whimpered his name through ragged breaths as you pleaded him with teary eyes for release

“I don’t care how much you cry right here right now kitten, I’m not letting you cum unless i say so”

eyes furrowed, you whined at him through pouty ones grazing against his own lips above yours

“beg for it kitten, let me know how much you love my dick and I’ll let you cum all you want”

biting your bottom lip, you hesitated for a moment as you pleaded at him with puppy eyes but his mischievous smirk tells you you’re not going to get away with anything

“you feel so good in me hyunjae, please please please let me cum”

inexperienced with begging, you tried your best to act with your already faltering facade

“you don’t sound needy for it though”

“fucking hell hyunjae please! you fill me up so fucking good, hitting my spot so well and making me orgasm a shit ton of times. fucking hell have me cumming on your dick again and again please!”

you don’t even know if that was begging but for sure that definitely was your sexual frustration speaking for itself while tears streamed down your already tear stained cheeks as you squirmed under his weight and clenched repeatedly around his hard dick already twitching in you

“that’s my good little kitten”

and with one peck to your bottom lip, he pushes himself off of your warm body to straighten up and fuck himself into you more precise and rushed

his large hands on your waists gripping you with so much force you know it’s going to leave bruises along with the ones you already have subtly showing your hips from earlier

knuckles gripping on his forearms, you dug your nails in his skin wanting something to let out all your pent up tension on

squirming and thighs spasming around his waist, you whimpered and moaned out his name uncontrollably as you can’t muffle your voice with anything in reach

your pillows being stuck behind the headboard and the other one practically chucked to the floor at this point, you opted to muffle your moans through bit lips but of course that would do no good as you let out continuous gasps and whimpers of his name as he does the same atop you over the lewd sounds of his balls slapping against your ass

throwing your head back touching the headboard, you couldn’t see a thing but for sure you could feel cold liquid fall on your clit and drip down your folds, hold, and most probably to his dick

one of his hand leaving your waist, your head flow back to the front to see what his shitty head is planning and you were without a doubt not wrong

half lidded eyes dark with lust caught your own as he licked the pad of his thumb before putting it down against your sensitive clit

rubbing tight, precise, and rapid circles around your nub, you’re chanting his name like a mantra pleading for your release as your nails probably already made scratch marks along the skin of his arm

“cum for me kitten”

need not to say less and the knot in your stomach snapped letting out all your juices on his hard abs

not giving you time to rest, your moans of his name went even higher when his thumb didn’t slow down for even a second at your overstimulated clit as he keeps his rough pace in your anus loving the way you clench around his repeatedly

not even long and you’re releasing over him again, head too dazed and light to feel embarrassed about making a mess on him your body kept squirming under him and fingers scratching at him to stop as you felt overstimulated beyond reason

“a little more kitten, im getting close”

desperately nodding at him, you gave him the green light to go on even though your hands gripping on his skin said otherwise

“in me jae, in me”

you rushed through breaths as his half lidded eyes grew wide at your words. and also not needing anything else to be said, he lets his orgasm wash over him and cum all over in you as he buried and stilled into you.

his own lips quivering mutters and mumbles of your name along with praises you were too tired to comprehend let alone hear clearly as the only sound you could hear right now is your heart thumping rapidly in your chest

before you could even shoot your eyes open you felt a heavy weight fall on you lightly blanketing you in its own sweaty warmth

arms limp at your side, hyunjae laid atop your body head under your chin as he heaved heavy sighs over you as you did the same while both your hearts beat rapidly and loudly against each other’s skin

you don’t know when but it’s when you could feel his cum seep out of your hole did you realize he already pulled out

did he really stretch you that much you couldn’t feel him pulling out of you?

dismissing this thought, you brought one hand up to rake through his hair and the other rub soothing circles in the middle of his back loving the way you feel his muscles contract and relax under your touch

closing his eyes, hyunjae let the matched rhythms if your chests heaving each other as well as the thumping of your hearts and your soothing touches lull him to sleep but before he could fully drift into sleep he could feel you leave a kiss to the top of his head

muttering a soft “thank you” to your best friend, you were about to close your eyes and let the silence of the night engulf you to sleep but just like hyunjae, before you coulf drift to sleep you feel him shift above you

meeting his puppy eyes looking up at you, you gave him a tight smile as you caressed the top of his head as a silence thanks

slightly sliding forward, he pouts his lips out to kiss your chin before mumbling to you for the nth time tonight as he rests his chin on your chest

“do you think he heard?”

scoffing to yourself that he’s still thinking about sunwoo even after he had you coming a shit ton, you gave him a smirk of disbelief he’s asking the most obvious question here

“with the way you wanted me to say your name so bad, i think the whole building heard us”

his own scoff vibrating through your chest, it was his turn to scoff in disbelief at you, or was it arrogance

“excuse me miss y/n, i only wanted you to say my name in the last part, the rest is on you”

“and excuse me mister lee hyunjae, i know you want me moaning your name anyways. fulfills that little fantasy of yours”

mumbling the last part to yourself, he could still make up the words but instead of retorting a taunt at you he sighs in somewhat a mixture of defeat and satisfaction

now laying the side of his cheek to one of your breasts, silence stills the air for a moment before he mutters through a small voice

“even if that fantasy happened and will stay happened in one night, I’m still thankful it happened”

“good God give me a shot every time you said happened”

and with your pathetic shot of lifting the mood again, you felt his chest vibrate over yours as he lets out little laughs at your shot

“i think whatever’s above would tell you to lay off the drinks for a while, especially when it leads you to sinful activities afterwards”

wiggling his eyebrows up at you, you softly slapped his back while it was your turn to let out a short laugh from under him

“kitten, do i really not have a shot?”

in contrast to what was a light atmosphere, it went dark as quick as light but this time you wouldn’t bother to change topics. sometimes you just have to face it for good

“jae… i love you but i dont see you like that”

apologetic eyes looked down at his head under yours laying cheek against your skin as he stared to the side in silence

with a heavy heart, hyunjae collects himself to say his ending ments to you without a whimper or quiver to the best that he can

“it’s fine y/n, i respect your feelings, but don’t expect me or it to go away so soon”

still not making eye contact with you, you brought it within yourself to spit the unspoken fact right above his face

“i knew it wouldn’t go away so soon, but I’m glad you still stuck by my side even if i pushed you away countless of times”

chuckling bitterly to himself, of course he knew what he was doing, he stuck around you even when he acknowledged his feelings for you and you rejected him a lot more times than you can count but he’s still beside you not because he wants to appeal to you but he sees you as an important person to his life and if pushing himself unto you ends up in losing you then he’d rather stick around you and hurt in silence than push you away and grow to hate you or push himself to you and you’ll grow to hate him

“but jae, i love you, just maybe not in that way”

swinging one leg over to straddle the soft sticky pillow, a low soft moan went past your lips as the material came in contact with your amazingly still sensitive clit

with your phone in hand, you held it up to face the mirror giving a perfect shot of your bare body now slowly grinding on the pillow

clicking the record button as you kept sensually rocking your hips back and forth on the pillow while your other hand gripped tightly on the pillow just like how you’d imagine your fingers around his pretty throat as you fuck yourself on him

getting more turned on just by the thought itself your hips went faster at humping your pillow satisfied with how the material perfectly grazes your clit.

throwing your head back slightly as one more soft moan escaped your lips, you shakily whimpered before the video was cut short

but feeling your high already there, you couldn’t help but focus more on stimulating your clit on the case.

grinding on the pillow case rapidly, you let out more soft moans as your high washed over you coming undone on the now even more wet and sticky pillow

coming back down from your high, you totally forgot you were doing this for sunwoo, the literal person you thought of just now

glancing down at the phone recklessly thrown beside you, you noticed the several texts sent by him over and over without a single reply from you

shit baby you’re already moaning for me?

don’t be shy I don’t bite

god i love how fucking hot you sound rn

you’re so fucking sexy and all im hearing are your moans

sending the video to him with a proud grin on your face knowing you’re driving him insane on the other line, you sent in an additional reply because you felt bad for not replying too soon

(y/n’s iPhone sent a video)

im sorry baby i got too distracted with you in my imagination

got me desperately chasing my high on the pillow

i wish you were under me fucking my brains out sunshine

thumbs hovering over the keyboard, you went into slight panic when he’s taking too long to reply. jeez did you send too many messages? probably, probably not.

one thing’s for certain and that’s you haven’t texted with someone before and the first person you happen to do it with unfortunately has to be your crush

(sun’s iPhone sent a video)

your mouth hung agape with a silent gasp at the sight before you, you haven’t even clicked play on the video and your heart’s already thumping at the thumbnail

his hand around his hard cock while a freeze frame of your video was in front of it

clicking play on the video, you can’t help but sit back meeting your headboard and part your legs in front of you to slip a finger under and play with your clit to stimulate yourself better

“fuck baby you’re so hot”

sunwoo groaned from behind the screen with his dick in his hand pumping himself while your video played in the background on his laptop screen

“that’s right moan my name baby girl, fuck i love how you sound moaning my name”

another low groan escaped past his lips while his hips bucked forward thrusting himself into his fist tight around his glistening cock

“sh-shit”

a couple more rapid pumps and white liquid of pre-cum slipped past his slit and drizzled down his tip only to be smothered and spread around lubricating him even more as his fist didn’t stop jerking himself off while you moaned his name in the background

“yeah you like that? wishing you were grinding on me huh? bet you’d love that so much”

more pants slipped past his lips behind the camera and his little show came to a halt

already moaning his name and letting out whimpers at the clit stimulation you’re giving yourself, too weak to type in a reply but still had the energy to read some more of his replies, you clicked back on your conversation and your fingers worked even tighter and faster around your clit at the lewd words

ding

i want you on my dick so bad

ding

riding me while i fuck you so fucking deep

the messages just kept flooding in and the familiar knot in your stomach started to tighten at your impending high

panting and moaning his name while you stimulated yourself, it drove sunwoo insane on the other side

fist around his cock pumping himself faster desperate for release at your lewd sounds resonating right beside his ear it was like you were with him right now and he’s going feral at the thought of you touching yourself

bucking his hips up for his thrusts to meet his pumps, he groaned and moaned your name from his side knowing its going to drive you just as insane as it did to him

giving up on texting you when there’s too much typos and he got too frustrated trying to correct his spelling, he opted to whispering his commands right out of his lips knowing you’d hear it on your side

throwing his head back to meet the wall above his headboard, he groaned as his toes curled and thighs subtly shook at his impending release

“baby slide in a finger for me”

voice muffled but still understandable to you, you followed his direction and slipped an index finger in your hole

eyes rolling to the back of your head, you threw your head back on the wall behind you at the pleasurable intrusion of your finger feeling every clench of your velvety walls

a mewl can be heard from your side and sunwoo understood this that you followed his command

“add another finger for me baby”

closing his eyes, he imagined how you’d look on your bed fingering yourself.

eyes full of lust, hair sticking unto your sweaty heaving body, cheeks flush and yout lips red with all the biting and quivering

he groaned once more when he heard you moan out his name from your side signaling him you had two fingers in you at the moment

hand pumping himself even faster as his dick twitched in his hold, the angry red tip demanding for release but sunwoo was dead on holding his orgasm until you’ll have yours

“curl them into you baby and fuck yourself so good like how i would fuck you”

moving your fingers rapidly in and out of you curling nonstop perfectly hitting your sweet spot every time, your moans grew louder and more high pitched as your orgasm was sitting on the very edge

“touch your clit too”

not wasting a single second, your other index finger rubbed tight and precise circles on your clit making you see stars and moan out sunwoo’s name at the sensitivity

“cum for me baby, cum like you’d release it on my fucking face”

the lewd sinful words dripping from mouth drove you over the edge and for your body shaking orgasm to wash over you

not even a second later and you hear loud low grunts and moans of your name from his side telling you he also released on himself

slowing down your movements of both hands, you panted and tried to focus on your breathing for a while before leaning over on all fours and clicking stop on the record button of your phone recording you all this time.

(sun’s iPhone sent a video)

(y/n’s iPhone sent a video)a

sending a video of each other’s orgasm at the same time, you let out a soft chuckle on you would hear that the both of you actually had the same thing in mind

“hope you like cleaning after yourself sunshine”

you called out from the other side not having the energy to type anything at the moment

“can’t i eat you clean instead?”

met with his low post-orgasm voice chuckling back at you, you softly smiled to yourself and laid your head back against the wall for a couple of seconds until you hear shuffling from his side and slight bed creaking telling you he got up

relaxing by yourself for a short while quickly pulled you back down to reality, you really just masturbated with the kim sunwoo

eyes flying wide open at the revelation, you felt your cheeks flush in embarrassment and body growing hot in shame

you’ve never properly met before and this surely wasn’t how you planned for it to play off

quickly pulling yourself up to rush yourself to the bathroom, you wanted nothing but to just cool off with a cold shower to warm your overly hot body

but unbeknownst to you, sunwoo felt the same way as you did. his body flush and hot with shame and embarrassment that this is how your first meeting played out to be

but he was quick to realize this first and was the first to get out of bed between you two

hand rummaging through your purse, your sense of relaxation fluttered away when you couldn't feel the slick card anywhere.

but then a quick replay of you emptying the contents of your purse looking for your lipstick onto your bed coursed through your mind and you sighed in defeat without much of a fight

you probably forgot to place the drivers license back in when you were in a rush to gather your things

“tsk tsk did miss y/n forget to bring her own license?”

turning to officer lee, or as you’d call him on other days, juyeon, you gave him a sheepish smile trying to plea your way out of an impending ticket

“can i get away with my registration instead?”

peeling his gaze out of your puppy eyes staring up at him, his eyes wandered all around the insides of your car as a vibrating ‘hmm’ rang from his closed lips

“no”

you were met with a wide grin as well as his lids turning into crescents as his sharp features faced yours

“oh come on! i JUST showed you my license yesterday, can’t you let me off the hook this one time?”

“if it was another person on duty tonight you would be fined and you know that well, princess”

breaking down your puppy facade, you rolled your eyes with a scoff at the man in front of you.

if someone else was with you in the car they would’ve thought you’re crazy for speaking this way to a police officer, but really the formalities were long gone the first week you’ve met him

over and over again for weeks straight around the same time and the same situation you were growing sick of it at this point but the way his uniform perfectly hugged his body made you sit through it every time

at one point the formalities were dropped and petnames came into play as well as short flirtations sent here and there and don’t get me started on the way his gaze would shamelessly linger on your cleavage from time to time.

sighing for the nth time tonight, you brought your one hand up to grip on the stirring wheel as your other faced him palm up.

“what are you doing?”

with a raised brow, his confused eyes darted back and forth between your palm and your serious face looking up at him with also one brow arched in confusion

“give me the ticket?”

what once was a confused expression turned into an arrogant one as he looked at you with a smirk painted on his pretty pink lips

“oh im sorry sir, am i supposed to write it myself?”

you taunted him up through your lashes but he didn’t budge one bit

okay maybe he did, shifting his weight from one leg to the other he momentarily straightened up to glance at your surroundings only to be met with dead silence, dark buildings, and the cold breeze

internally smiling to yourself in victory, you thought you would finally get to get away without getting fined but this thought went down the trash when he lowered his face to your level once again before speaking in a low tone

“I’m going to do your pretty little face a favor and let you off with a warning”

your serious face softening up into a gleeful one looked up at him with so much gratitude but of course this wouldn’t last long when he continued to speak

“but only if you do me a favor in return”

smirking at your now long gone gleeful expression to be replaced with a confused one, you blinked up at him almost innocently waiting for him to continue

you work in a bar for fuck’s sake of course you knew what was coming but you didn’t have that much hope in it, not when this is a literal police officer on duty.

but then again, you’ve gotten the hints you were running laps around his head for some time now with your lengthy mutual pining

but still, you weren’t hoping on it

“naughty girl, help me out with this”

fully straightening himself up and laying his two palms flat against the roof of your car, you were met with his crotch right in front of your face, his hard-on painfully constricted in his tight trousers.

bucking his hips forward just a tad bit, he ushered you to get on with it

“unless you want the ticket that’s fine too”

about to take a step away from you, he was pulled in quite harshly as you hooked a finger through his belt loop tugging him closer

thighs flush against the cold surface of your car door, he paid no mind to the shiver running down his spine, not when your lips came in contact with his boner

not being able to see what you’re doing nor predict what you’re about to was only adding up to the pleasure factor as he let out warm breaths into the cold air above you

palms flat against his hard thighs, you held him still and close to you as you continued to press hard kisses unto his clothe member.

making sure to kiss him from the tip to his shaft, you thumb drawing circles on his thigh that would ever so slightly flex at your touch as your other hand traveled up to his clothe hard stomach and down to grip at his shaft.

“what else can i do for you, officer?”

your lips retracted from his dick was quickly replaced by your hand palming him through his pants

“as much as I’d love to be called officer by you, I want you to call me sir from now on”

pulling his hips away from your touch, you pouted at the loss of contact already missing having something to play with

his smirking pretty face met yours as he bent down again to meet your pouted lips and puppy eyes looking up at him

“can i kiss you?”

not waiting to respond to him, you brought your hand up to grab on his collar pulling him close to you as you devoured his lips into a hungry kiss

the slight sound of metal clinking from a distance told you enough that surely you’re about to do more than just palming him through his pants tonight

getting turned on in anticipation, you leaned in closer to smush your lips together moving in a rhythm of their own, your thighs rubbing against each other to get some sort of attention to your arousal

swiping a tongue against the parting of his lips, you asked for permission to make out with him properly.

denying you of this, he pulled away hastily earning a scowl from you.

“open your door for me princess and I’ll let you have it all”

happy to oblige, you unlocked your door and swung it open as he stood to the side. moving back in front of you, you were met his hands already fumbling with the button of his trousers.

the view was cut short when he dived down again to catch your lips in his, this time not hesitating to dart his tongue through your lips

him definitely winning dominance, you let him roam all over your mouth and graze against your own tongue as you slightly shifted your body to have your feet go from the matted carpet and unto the hard road, body perfectly in front of him

the shuffling apparently took over your sense of hearing as when he pulled away from your glossy lips you were met with his bare cock in his hands already stroking himself not knowing yourself when he even got his trousers down to his ankles

you didn’t even need to get on your knees for his cock to be perfectly aligned with your lips so instead your moved slightly forward so that only half of your bum stayed on the carseat.

palms flat against your closed thighs, you leaned over to let the tip of your tongue graze against his slit licking up the pre cum already seeping through

him throwing his head back right above you with a low groan gave you the green light to replace his hand with your own

gripping on the base of his cock, you timidly gave him short strokes earning yourself a scowl from him as he thrusted his hips into your fist trying to get more

enclosing your lips around the tip, you looked up at him to gawk at his expression and you weren’t disappointed.

his mouth hung agape, chest heaving, and dark eyes full of need looked back at your own watching his reactions with large doe eyes in contrast to your tongue sinfully swirling all around the sensitive tip

sinking yourself down until his length hit the back of your throat, you hollowed your cheeks and suck on him harder bobbing your head up and down as your hand jerked off the rest of him that you couldn’t fit

hands leaving the surface of your care and fingers now locked in your hair, he held your head in place as he thrusted his hips into you at a pace your hand struggled to follow.

pulling yourself off of his length to take a breather, you brought your hand to his tip and slide the glossy mess your saliva left down the rest of his length fully coating him up

with the makeshift lube, your hand found it easier to jerk him off this way and with a couple more strokes your fingers rested around his base as you took in his tip again

not only stopping at his tip, you pushed yourself deeper to swallow his whole length to the best you could

you could feel his length go past the opening of your throat as you rapidly blinked your eyes to stop the tears and focus on your breathing

meanwhile the man over you was a groaning panting mess at your tactics

bottoming out into your mouth as the tip of your nose met with the sharp tips of his freshly trimmed pubes, he gave you a couple seconds to adjust stilling himself in you.

tapping a finger against his thigh, you gave him the green light to fuck himself into you

fingers now holding your hair in a makeshift ponytail as the other hand gripped the underside of your chin, he started off with a brutal pace right off the bat

your throat and jaw already getting sore, the tears escaping the corners of your eyes, you needed a distraction yourself

a hand sneaking up into the hem of your dress, you cheekily opened your thighs even further as he stood in between them.

your index and middle finger pushing the flat of your panty aside, you found your way to your clit applying pressure to the nub as you went in tight circles around it

softly moaning against his cock, he lets out more breathless moans at the vibration coursing through his dick

feeling him slightly twitch unto the back of your throat, you prepped yourself to have him cum down your throat only to be ripped off of him in one swoop taking you aback and your fingers to also stop working on your high

drool running down your mouth and chin, half lidded eyes, messy hair, flush cheek, and a hand disappearing into your dress? you were a sight to die for at the moment

“don’t wanna cum yet princess”

diving down and catching your lips again, he messily makes out with you again. saliva running off unto his own skin, the squelching of his wet cock jerked off by himself, your moaning against his lips as your fingers were quick to resume their work again.

one arm hooking around your waist brought you on your feet and stand chest flush against his.

pushed back to have your back rest against the backseat door, the arm left your waist only to rile the hem of your dress up to your waist.

moving to hook a finger around the thin string on the side of your panty, you abruptly stopped working on your clit again to have him tug your panty down to your knees.

pulling away from your lips, chin glossy with your saliva, he knelt down in front of your core.

your fingers worked even faster and tighter around your clit at the view of this man under you and eyeing your wet cunt with so much hunger.

one hand still on his hard cock, his other went to hook on your panties again pulling them completely down to your ankles and tugging on it making you step out of one leg hole

his hand finding it’s way to grab on your ankle again, he threw one leg over his shoulder while your other stood grounded to the floor

your high already at it’s peak, you’re chasing your own orgasm as your soft moaning turned high pitch and your chest heaved even more rapidly

“cum on my face princess, let me taste how good you are”

already sticking his tongue out to lap at the juices running down your thigh, he waited patiently for your orgasm to wash over you as you threw your head back in ecstasy

“no no, eyes on me”

“y-yes sir”

looking back down at him, he was already sticking his tongue out patiently waiting

and before you could release on your fingers and his tongue, he quickly shoved your hand away to replace it with his tongue rapidly giving kitten licks to your clit

not even a mere second and you came over his tongue.

thighs shaking and your body squirmed above him as he let didn’t stop giving your overstimulated clit attention

determined to have you squirting all over him again, the thought of it alone had him more worked up to move his tongue faster than ever before

your fingers gripped tightly on his locks as you grind your hips on his tongue messily lapping at your wet cunt

one more shaking orgasm washed over you as you squirted on him one more time.

his tongue finally relaxing on you and moved to giving long licks up your folds helped you come down from your high.

“you taste amazing princess”

giving one more peck to your wet cunt, he pulled away from you and let your leg down from his shoulder.

too exhausted to even feel embarrassed at wetting him and his uniform, you focused on catching your breath and your sanity as he pulled your ankle to go through the panty hole and tug it upwards until it set comfortably around your warm still very wet cunt

straightening himself up, he looked at you proudly as he grinned to himself. proud to have made someone squirting with only his tongue

pulling your dress down and straightening it down, it finally come to your senses that he hasn’t came yet, or so you thought.

smushing his lips against yours, he made you taste yourself on his lips and tongue but before you could forget, you pulled away slightly and mumbled against his lips

“but you haven’t came yet”

“look down sweetheart”

following his orders, not only did you find his trousers already up but also the wet strings of cum on the dark asphalt of the road.

“how do you do it without letting out a single sound?”

you asked him beyond astonished that he’s already done much and all you did was catch your breath

“I dont think you noticed but i was groaning mess under you earlier”

planting his lips against yours again, you couldn’t even make it past his lips before he pulled away again

“wear a short dress tomorrow and…”

diving down to kiss your cleavage

“show more of this next time”

going back up at you, he gave you one more peck on the lips before sending a wink and walking away back to his station

“lie to me about your drivers license next time and I’ll make sure to fuck you in the backseat, yeah?”

you stopped mid hopping into your car, unsure of what he’s even telling you at the moment

lie? fuck me? what?

and it’s when you closed your door, checked all the things necessary to be checked, did you realize you had your drivers license tucked into your sun visor all this time

eyes wide as saucers, you gawked at the sight before you trying to understand what just had happened

but eric’s still body laying just a couple of steps in front of you told you you were too late to break off whatever fight they just had. scanning the premises to find the culprit, your eyes full of spite and hatred met sunwoo’s who was sitting on the floor by the corner clutching unto his bloody dress shirt as he catches rapid breath.

but eric’s still body laying just a couple of steps in front of you told you you were too late to break off whatever fight they just had. scanning the premises to find the culprit, your eyes full of spite and hatred met sunwoo’s who was sitting on the floor by the corner clutching unto his bloody dress shirt as he catches rapid breath.

you should’ve trusted your senses the moment you felt cold shivers run down your spine out of nowhere in the cafeteria, you should’ve trusted your gut as soon as it reminded you of eric

but alas, you’re too late to the party, he’s already laying completely still as a rock on the cold cement.

eyes darting back and forth between the two boys, you didn’t miss to catch a glance at sunwoo’s new, well not new considering he two-timed you with her, girlfriend right beside him as eric’s own significant other stood glued to the ground, shock and fear evident in their ghostly facial features

you don’t know what’s taking you so long to move your own feet, perhaps it was the hesitation whether to save eric or to throw a fist at your ex boyfriend’s already messed up face.

“y-y/n”

voice as low as a whisper, eric’s significant other called out to you in a shaky voice, somewhat of a way to tell you to do something.

before you let your gut and eric down one more time, you moved in rapid steps to eric’s side. practically throwing yourself down to your knees beside the unresponsive boy, your hand was quick to place one palm resting flat against the skin of his chest, his neck, his wrist, you tried your best to find a pulse but to no avail.

you sat there on your heels, restless eyes quivering and darting wherever as you crack your brain how to bring him back to life.

heck, this boy was a fucking vampire, you’re a half-demon. saving people isn’t your job and you weren’t even sure yourself if he can still be saved.

palm flat against skin once again and roaming around the exposed skin of his arms beyond the short sleeve of his polo, the only subtle coldness made you conclude to yourself he hasn’t been dead for so long.

one blood transfusion and he’ll be fine, he’ll come back to life

but who

no, who was willing to give up their life for this boy to live?

sunwoo’s the cause of this and you’re sure as hell he won’t bat an eye if you asked him for help. same goes for his new girlfriend, who even knows what she is? certainly not you. and not even eric’s own fucking s/o, a fucking ghost for fuck’s sake.

being the closest creature to a human at the moment, you collected yourself and hesitated for a moment.

but what seemed like a moment was forever to the person quivering and shaking behind you.

“y-y/n ple-“

“im sorry for this”

you cut off the pitiful plea as you started to unbutton your own polo in a rush.

thousand of years of living and not once did you think you you would be dead from saving someone, the last thing a demon should do.

swinging one leg over eric, you situated yourself to be straddling his waist

“y-y/n no you’ll die!”

ignoring the whimpers and sobs coming from behind you, you sniffled through your tears as you bent over to reach over the bloody knife right beside eric’s cold hand by his side.

the handle in your grip, you looked up to the clear blue sky above you as you took in deep breaths and blinked the tears away. prepping yourself for the pain you’re about to inflict yourself, you took one more deep breath and closed your eyes as your canine dug unto your sucked in bottom lip.

the cold and sharp blade didn’t feel so bad to you, not when you let it graze the side of your exposed neck in one quick swoop.

bending over quickly and hovering over eric’s figure, your hand dropped the knife to pull on his chin allowing access for your blood to drip into his mouth and loose drops to dribble down the side of his lips.

practically sobbing at this point, you settled your face to the side of his for your tears to meet the cold concrete and not on his face.

knocking a breath out of you, he caught you off guard when you were harshly pulled to lay flush on him as his hands took a hold of your nape and your bare waist pulling you down all on one quick swoop.

sharp canines digging through the already open skin, you sucked in one last fighting breath before you felt your vision go blurry and your body go limp.

pulling you even closer to him, the one arm holding you up all this time finally gave up and fell limp under your forehead as you can feel your life get sucked out of you with so much hunger.

“e-eric, im sorry”

and with your last defeated breath, your heavy lids took over your vision unconsciously as you felt your body limp, numb, and more importantly, unresponsive over him.

“Y/N?!”

with hearing as the last sense to subside when you pass away, you could only barely make out the sounds around you as you slowly but surely fall into deep slumber.

sunwoo’s pov // still in second pov though

why.

one word and it didn’t even seem like a question rang through his head over and over like an alarm siren going off

why would you do such a thing

tears ran down his cheeks nonstop and no it’s not from the pain where eric had stabbed him earlier. but rather it’s from where you stabbed him

the moment he saw your figure come through from the metal door he knew he was going to be in trouble with you.

from betraying you, using you, and now even killing his best friend that was also yours, this certainly was not a good recipe for his what once was a “reconcile with y/n” plan

you were the love of his life

you were his one and only

but he was stupid enough to let greed take over him.

what was supposed to be just infatuation turned into him falling deep head over heals for you, of course you didn’t know you were supposed to be just a ‘10 Months Love’, he wouldn’t let you know either way.

not when he’s scared to death what you could possibly do to him.

you were a powerful being

you were independent and strong

you were feisty

and most importantly, you’re a part of the most powerful students in the school when it comes to supernatural powers

you were everything he wanted to be, maybe too much he convinced himself he was not in love with you but with your title.

no, he did not want you, he wanted to BE you

so much so he forgot you had genuine feelings of your own to him thinking all the love songs he wrote was about you, all the sweet and loving words he’d whisper in your ears was just for you to hear only but it all went down the trash the moment you found out he was cheating on you

from the very start

he was sorry, remorseful, pained, anything but good the moment you told him to love his other girlfriend as much he claimed to love you on this very rooftop.

it was when you left that he realized the only reason he’d still come back to you at the end of the day was because of how tantalizing you were, how enchanting your whole being was, how every moment spent with you becomes a worthwhile memory.

the thought of who you were in school had nothing to do with how he emotionally feels about you, the titles you hold being one of the powerful ones had nothing to do with the comfort he feels whenever you’re around, the respect people had for you had absolutely nothing to do with how he respects you.

he loved you for your whole being but his mind taking over his feelings made it all too blurry for him to see.

the way you’d always greet him with a giddy smile and a peck on the lips whenever he’d come home from hooking up with someone else.

the way you’d always get out of your way to stay up late just to make sure he always comes home safe every day even if he was out on a date with someone else

the way you’d always ask him about his day with that glimmer in your eyes holding millions of stars burning with love and adoration while he had to lie through them every time, masking up he’s been spending time with someone else

he was too late to realize these things he’s been feeling, he’s been doing, was all manipulated by his greedy mind and not driven by his heart like how it should be.

at one point he even forgot for months straight he’s been dating you for the sole purpose of riding your clout, riding on your name, and riding on your reputation.

it was when he realized you were making his nights better when he’d spend the day ruining it all over again just for you to fix it at the end of the day

a toxic game of push and pull

he’d come home, and sometimes not, heart heavy of guilt and pain at the sight of you but you always went out of your way to not question the look in his eyes and make him feel all better again just so he could break himself apart the next day and you’d fix him again

it was when you’re gone that he realized he miss the nights when you’d shush him to sleep, talk him out of his worries, cradle him in your arms, and just all over take care of his broken self.

coming home to his new girl instead of the comfort of your touch only pained him more at the thought of losing you the moment you turned your back on him on the same rooftop you’ve met, broke up, and eventually bid an unwanted goodbye for one last time.

watching your body get practically thrown off of eric’s, sunwoo furrowed his brows intently as he watched your lifeless figure lay on the cold cement through blurred eyes from the slight distance between his new girlfriend giving him a small view of what you just did for eric

he cried through it all

shocked

but he was pained

from the moment your furious and pained eyes looked at him when you first came in, eyes screaming ‘I’m disappointed at you’ to him he knew he fucked up this time

it wasn’t even that serious of a fight but with the amount of pent up stress sunwoo had in him the argument blew up beyond reason between the two

what started off as just a mere fist fight apparently turned into a power stand off.

and before sunwoo could even think what he’s about to do next, his fingers were already making gestures for a deadly blow that surely will blow the living life out of his opponent, in this moment that would be his best friend

and blow the life out of him did he do

it was too late for him to even go towards the boy and apologize when the damage had already been done, even if he could still go to him he could not, not when eric’s swift stab to his stomach was quicker than light before he got blown off to the other side.

blinking rapidly through the tears, he knew that you, of all people, know what you’re doing

it was a death wish

a suicide mission, if you will

he knew you were aware you’re killing yourself if you gave eric you blood but you still did it with no hesitation, no question, and not even looking for other options other than yourself.

why would you give up your own life for him

but, would you even do the same for him