cruxgemata

“Claudia was an unforeseen joy.

A formidable fledgling.

A consummate killer,

a congenial companion.

It’s my birthday!

I would be really grateful for any support and sharing the link to my Top surgery fundraiser. I’ve been binding for over ten years and it’s taking toll on my body and has become dangerous in summer. thank you!!

“Maddened, I clutched at his neck, pushing his head down against the path beneath me. I pinned him down, strangling him, until the blood in great gushes poured out of his open mouth.

He would have screamed if he could. My knees drove into his chest. His neck bulged under my fingers and the blood spurted and bubbled out of him and he turned his head from side to side, his eyes growing bigger and bigger, but seeing nothing, and then when I felt him weak and limp, I let him go.

I beat him again, turning him this way and that. And then I drew my sword to sever his head.

Let him live like that if he can. Let him be immortal like that if he can. I raised the sword and when I looked down at him, the rain was pelting his face, and he was staring up at me, as one half alive, unable to plead for mercy, unable to move.

I waited. I wanted him to beg. I wanted him to give me that powerful voice full of lies and cunning, the voice that had made me believe for one pure and dazzling instant that I was alive and free and in the state of grace again. Damnable, unforgivable lie.

[…]

All my pain with Nicolas came back to me and Gabrielle's words and Nicolas's denunciations. My anger was nothing to his misery, his despair. And this perhaps was the reason that I reached down and gathered him up. And maybe I did it because he was so exquisitely beautiful and so lost, and we were after all of the same ilk.”

~ Anne Rice, The Vampire Lestat

some Armand/Assad studies, I’m still trying to figure out how to draw all of them

Lestat’s grindr account

I don’t know why each picture looks like a different style, I don’t know what Im doing!

“He drained me to the very threshold of death... The blood, it came as a dull roar at first. And then a pounding, like the pounding of a drum, growing louder and louder as if some enormous creature were coming through a dark and alien forest.”

Loustat after Dante and Virgil in Hell (Adolphe Bouguereau)

ineffable