𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬𝐧’𝐭 𝐚 𝐤𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐫. 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘢𝘳𝘨𝘶𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘥, matthew didn’t have that kind of luxury. he was young, starving, and the moment his fangs would pierce flesh he would be lost to it. matthew is weak in that regard, but at least he knows where his limits lie; denying any further advancement lest he turn into something he no longer recognized as the human he had once been. “ … once. “ all so that he would not die, all so that he might live another day; it was a selfish instinct that had lead him, self preservation guiding him another day. however, ever since he has not had another drop and- well to say that it shows is an understatement- his skin is greying, his sclera darkening, veins protruding under his skin a little too much; his teeth are sharper than normal, fangs always seeming to be at the ready despite how hard he might try and hide them.
eyes follow the circling of carmine, the way it moves sluggishly in comparison to something like water or wine, an eery reminder of what truly resides within the glass; someone bled for that, and what? he wants it? a shudder runs through his body as temptation snakes ‘round his throat; suddenly dry and choking up. he looks away then and only then, gnawing on his lower lip for some kind of relief as stubborn grey hues settle on something else in the room.
“ you call it what you want, i really don’t give two shits. “
some part buried deep within experiences empathy. born human, willing to die even after getting shot by his father, damon wasn’t always this. he didn’t always want to be this. a vampire, creature of the night , forced to find sustenance in others. resentment for his brother had been born out of humanity being stolen from him. the kid looks like he’s suffering. practically looks to be on death’s doorstep. dead heart slightly aches, calling for him to offer some sort of help. ( i don’t help. i don’t save people. that’s not what i do. ) gaze studies, seeing the beast inside clawing to take hold. blood lust was a bitch. it took him years, decades, to gain control and even now ... even now it still wins sometimes. “ you’ve got a mouth on you, kid. i like it. “ flash of a lopsided grin before taking the drink in hand and downing the contents inside. temptation gone, for now. that feeling would never fully rest for as long as the other remains animated.
“ you know what you need? you need to learn how to enjoy this. being a vampire, it isn’t going away. why be miserable for the rest of your eternal life? “ shoulders shrug as glass is placed down, remaining droplets of crimson staining the sides of it. looks like he’s doing this, taking the kid under his wing. beats having to sit here and talk about betrayal and longing and all that other bullshit he’s already spent too much time on. damon rises from the sofa he had been occupying and motions for the other to follow him out the door. “ you need someone to show you all the good parts of being a vampire. come on, let’s see what you can do. “