venture into my cave, boy.

Eating another can of sardines. People are too fucking scared to talk to me. Heh. Can't say I blame em...

I'm going to go out in public and growl at strangers just to feel something. Grrrr. There's Normies out there. They'll never understand me. I'm FUCKED in the MIND!!! I'M FUCKED IN THE MIND!!!! Also happy pride month everybody :)

I am covered in bugs, I am bugmogging everyone. I am severing all my ties to humanity to bugmaxx and become the alpha. They will eat my skin and birth me anew. I'm Like The Joker But A Big Bug. I'm like the Joker, But A Big Bug.

I am in despair from losing my son. I cannot accept that he would just run away to be a little circus boy. I am enraged. Whatever. Who needs him. I was a terrible father anyway

At night I hear the ants in my house whispering to me and telling me to go full on bug mode. I can't listen to them yet. But I tell them, soon

My ex wife and I are devastated. Every day we wake up at 5am and search for him in the streets. Our son. We search all day, looking for him in bushes, under cars, in the neighbors' garages. I always feel like he's right around the corner. I keep thinking he will come back home. We set humane traps for him all around my apartment complex, using a giant lollipop as bait, as that is the snack children like the most. I feel fucking hollow. Come home, my son. Come home.

So my ex wife dropped off my kids (22 month old son and 1 month old daughter) yesterday and of course we got into it, she was yelling at me that I've really changed recently and that she thinks I'm "spiraling again," and I basically told her to shut up and that I'm basically listening to a lot of podcasts and becoming a fucking alpha and eating so much protein that basically I'm ripped and don't need to listen to her. Sure, as of right now, she is way more ripped than me because she fights crime for a living (she does vigilante justice she is not a cop), but in just a few short months Im probably going to have crazy gains and basically start mogging her at the gym probably. Anyway she started copping a real attitude with me but before she could really respond we heard the door slam. And we saw thst my 22 month old son was gone, and that he had left a note saying that he was running away because he can't stand to listen to us argue. My son is missing he has run away and I don't know what to do but I know its totally her fault I don't know what to do im in ruin

Time to start MAXMAXXING. I will DO EVERYTHING. BE EVERYTHING. FEEL NOTHING. HOLLOW MYSELF OUT AND BECOME THE PERFECT VESSEL. FROM NOW ON, I AM ONLY EATING CANNED SARDINES AND DRINKINKING MY OWN BATH WATER!!! I WILL BE MEWING AND MOGGING 25 MISERABLE HOURS A DAY!!!!!! FUCK YOU!!!!

My absolute BITCH of an ex wife keeps nagging me to spend more time with our children. I'm busy, God Damn It! Doesn't she know how HARD I work at the Dangerous Chemicals Factory?? How much fucking effort it took to get into the Bug Leagues??? Doesn't she know that seeing my kids gives me the sinking feeling that I am completely incapable of taking care of myself, let alone two beautiful children, without ruining them the way I have ruined the lives of everyone I have ever cared about???Jesus Christ it's like pulling teeth getting respect as a man nowadays.

The Bug Leagues are very time consuming. Blood tests. Background check. Strange medications. Mandated bug therapy. Its a fucking pain in the ass is what it is!

Heh. I'm in the Bug Leagues, Kid. No, not the Big Leagues. The Bug Leagues. I'm kind of a Bug Deal, you could say. I'm covered in bugs. I'm covered in bugs

I've been accepted into the Bug and Slime Leagues. I don't know how. I failed my classes terribly. But they told me I had the highest score they'd ever seen. They gave me my uniform. Hidden in the pocket, there was a slip of paper that said "Courtesy of HQ." What does it mean?

Nevermind I am back to normal actually. Feeling like the king of the world. Going to do something fucked up and bold. Going to Howl like a Wolf and run around on my Knuckles like some kind of Ape

Failed my exam because I was staring at the back of my classmate's head (the one I am parasocially obsessed with despite knowing them in real life). My hands were shaking the whole time and I drew a sock puppet version of them and me smiling at each other and.being friends., if I make a sock puppet of them would thst be weird? Does anybody like me anymore