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Baby girl, I know you're scared of doing this alone, but you've got this. Believe in yourself, love yourself, but don't stop protecting that heart because the only person that will love it unconditionally is you.

And just like that, you proved to her you never really changed, and you never really will. This is who you are now, maybe this is who you always were, your true colors are just now showing. you never really loved her like you said you did, because if you did, you wouldn't hurt her the way you do.

You don’t realize what you did. With your betrayal I can never trust nor love anyone the way I loved you. You fucked me up so bad. That whoever comes after you, will have to deal with my insecurities, my questioning, my wondering if they are being honest or if they are lying to me like you did. If I’m being made a fool again. Because of you, I rather be alone the rest of my life then to let someone have to pick up the pieces you broke inside of me.

Maybe it’s me, I’m the problem. I self sabotage to protect myself from getting hurt from you again.

And there he was, the man of her dreams. The man she had prayed for her entire life. A love so pure and full of desire and deep love. She never thought she would find a man like him, he promised to her till death due them part. And that he was different, he would never do to her what the others have. That he would always love and protect her. Little did she knows, all those promises were just empty promises. Now followed by pain, memories, and emptiness. How could she look him in his eyes, and still love him after everything he did to her. The love was still there, but was the pain too strong to overcome what he had done? Was he really any different than the others? All her secrets to him, we’re gone. Cause all she could do was see him in different scenarios with different women. She wanted to hate him, but couldn’t. Cause In the end she knew, he was the love of her life, he was the man she wanted to grow old with and hold on till the end of time, the man she fell in love with. All the promises and dreams they had planned on were on her thoughts. Does she fight? Or let go?

What do you do when the person you love the most looks you in the eyes and lies to you? How does one get over that? How does one trust that person again? How does one know what to do, to stay or go? To confront the truth and tell them that you know. You know they are lying. How do you move on?