Macam mana nak buang rasa serba salah posting good things online. Like sharing your happiness and what you got. Or proud to have someone.
My past relationship taught me that it isnt worth it IF its not the right guy + friendship. I dont understand why i loyal and care so much like own them when in fact they were just exes/friends. I had forgive myself about that.
But whatβs the problem is i felt so guilty to share my happiness online. And im counting days now. I was so afraid to admit to them that im proud of having someone that is care abt me. I kept him so much that no one knew so much about our struggle, happiness and even pain.
Even the aib. Maybe some of my friends do knew the stories. But most of it like just leaves on the street and blown away, swiped and gone.
Few more days. Itβs not in my control to handle peopleβs narrative. So just tawakkul. You had did your best amirah. Please trust yourself.
