Hidden Fear

     I’m just going to put it out there; I’m sure everybody and their cousin has noticed by now that I haven’t been on here much. I’ve been checking every day, but… Haven’t really been answering anything. The truth is, I just don’t have a whole lot of inspiration for most of my muses anymore. I write them on Discord or Skype mostly, so if you want either of those, feel free to IM or send an ask. I’ll still roleplay there, where the pressure to perform is a bit lower. You just have to yell at me, because otherwise I’ll have literally no idea if you roleplay on Discord/Skype or not, and it’d be weird for me to just… Hand a starter without knowing. Y’know?

     Second, there’s the group I’ve been working on, Legacy of the Heroes’ Guild. We have an event going on right now, so we’ve been working with that as of late. Feel free to message me or send an ask there if you want to know more about the group, or if you’d like a link to the group Discord; you don’t have to be a member to drop in and check it out, and we always welcome curious people. We’re still in the early stages, but I’m glad to say we’ve come a long way since the opening. We now have quests, shops, events, IC chats and para-rp chats… You get the idea. It’s fully functional, at the very least.

     Anyway, I’m just going to put all my blogs on a hiatus/low activity warning for the time being. I might still do some group-related stuff on them from time to time, but between being very busy IRL and doing the group, I just really haven’t been able to do as much with these blogs as I’d like.

     Alright, with Tumblr’s notifications on the fritz, I’ve decided to do a thread tracker, too. Which has been a long time coming anyways since… I lose things too much. RIP. Anyway, I’ve already listed several threads that I intend to continue on it, so feel free to check that out here.

     If there’s a thread we have that you don’t see there and want to continue, just give me a prod and I’ll go ahead and add it. Also note that this is a list of all my threads across all my blogs; I may add blog name tags to them if they get too hard to differentiate. Most are pretty self-explanatory, though… I think.

Indie ✘ selective ✘ multiship ✘ oc friendly ✘ written by ;; Ikarus

                                    |      k e n   k a n e k i     |                                            |    A Tragedy Unraveled       |

⸻ how  odd,  he  feels  as  if  he  has  seen  this  person before.  as  it  stands  now,  though,  it  doesn’t  quite  click  in  his  mind;  an  old  classmate,  perhaps? a  workmate?  a  friend?  no…  he  isn’t  quite  sure… the  vague  flickering of  a  nameless face  in  the  back  of  his  head  as  he  narrows  his  eyes  just  enough.  a  hand  is  brought  to  the  side  of  his  cheek,  pondering over  the  countless acquaintances  he’s  had.  it  bugs  him  how  he  can’t  recognize  him  right  away.  

    It never took much to alarm the young man before him, but this time... This time was different. Dark gray eyes watched this familiar stranger with an air of anxiety, caution, and undeniable guilt. It seemed this encounter was exceptionally uncomfortable on both sides, made further evident as one hand fidgeted absently with the cuff of his sleeve. Judging by the many strings pulled and worn by repeated picking, this was an action he performed quite frequently.

     “Um...” He hesitated, snapping himself out of the past that he strove so desperately to leave behind. “Asaoka, Yuuichi.” Truthfully, it was a miracle either of them could recognize the other at all; the ‘beloved’ son of Kaneki’s aunt had rarely ever left his room, especially when guests were at the door. If the two had even met face-to-face at all, it had been only in passing.

“…Yuuichi-chan…”

Ken listened to his brother speak, he believed him, truthfully… He wasn’t perceptive and couldn’t catch the lie, he trusted that he would tell the truth, after all… the kid saved his very life, in more ways than one.

“Try …Try not to think about it …too much.. That kind of stuff.. um… drives you a little bit crazy…” The young man replied, eyes narrowing.

     “R... Right,” Yuuichi agreed sadly, eyes lowered a bit. “I know.” The truth was, the younger step-brother had no idea what he was going to do from here. While there were people out there who might be able to help, convincing them to actually do so was easier said than done. That plan would need many layers, and those weren’t something he could afford to toss together on the fly. If he was going to do anything at all, his course of action had to be expertly crafted from beginning to end... There was absolutely no margin for error.

     One mistake, and both of them would wind up dead. That wasn’t even mentioning however many others would be brought down with them.

     “I guess for now,” decided Yuuichi in a soft, quiet voice, “We’d better focus on the here and now. What’s the short-term plan, Niisan?” I still have time. I can plan this out. Perhaps they couldn’t afford to rush things, but there was still an undeniable gravity to the situation... Balancing the time limit with caution would be the key.

“ ….M-Maybe …. ” Kaneki thought to himself silently… ‘Why do I feel like this is a really bad idea?’ ….Perhaps he was just afraid of everything but.. he moved to one side of the machine, stumbling, grabbing hold of the back of it.

“ …O-Okay… D-Don’t hurt yourself, alright? …W-Well uh …count on three! ”

He held tight… waiting for the other to get into position. “ …1……. 2…….3! ” Though he was weak, he shoved with all of his might, squeezing his eyes shut and trying to knock that damn thing over ….

But would it budge?

     The young man nodded once, then strode to the other side of the machine and grabbed hold. It was tricky to find a good grip due to his damaged hands, but he grit his teeth through the pain... If they managed to get into some old food reserves, it would be worth the strain on his injuries. A bit of extra agony wouldn’t kill him; starving to death, on the other hand, would. There wasn’t even a choice to make.

     “... A-alright... Got it.” He waited, listening to the countdown and bracing himself... It probably wouldn’t be easy, even with a ghoul to help. Neither of them was in the best shape at the moment, and it seemed hard to imagine accomplishing such a feat even when working together. But at the same time, it was worth a shot... Right?

     Alright, so! At least for now, it doesn’t mean very much, but I’ll go ahead and bring it up anyway; this blog is now considered semi-affiliated with the Legacy of the Heroes’ Guild roleplay group. This blog will still be threading with both indie and affiliated muses alike even once the group is completed, so don’t worry about that. Just note that any interactions with indies won’t be considered Guild canon until you actually apply and are accepted into the group.

     Once the group is completed, there’ll be posts here from time to time concerning events, so those will have their own special tag you can blacklist if you wish. But of course, if you’re curious, or have any concerns, feel free to check it out and ask questions!

    So, I’m gonna do something a bit different this time; I definitely need to plot more with people, plus… Let’s get real, I’m awful at starter calls. On top of that, I never know what muse people want if they follow my main, so there’s that, too. Ice breaker time? I say yes.

     I’ll reblog this to each of my blogs; if you want a particular one of them to plot with, like/reply to it there. If you’re undecided and would like to hear my perspective instead, go ahead and like it here! I’ll pick out a few muses/AUs I think could be interesting, and see where we go from there.

“ Well …I think that if there was someone here… they’d have come out and killed us by now ..s-so …l-let’s see if anything in here is edible… “

The boy came around to a pile of cans ….he picked each of them up, but all of them had already been emptied out and crushed. It was quite dusty in here after all ….He turned …looking down another isle.. Against a wall, across from the old bathroom.

It was as if a light from the heavens shined down upon it; a vending machine.

“ A-Ah– Yuuichi-kun!” Kaneki pointed… stumbling closer to it… “…It …It still has stuff inside, energy bars and stuff …m-maybe those are still edible? … ” He looked concerned.. but hopeful… “ …Nobody has raided it …m-maybe we can bust it open? ”

     At least initially, Yuuichi had half-expected an ambush... But, at least so far, nobody seemed to be out and about. The teen had glanced around the room, checking empty cans with no luck. But then, Kaneki brought his attention to the old vending machine, and he couldn’t help feeling a spark of hope. It appeared to still have quite a few edible goodies in it, most likely due to the difficulty of raiding the machine. Humans probably wouldn’t have the strength on their own-- and ghouls really didn’t have a reason to.

     But, maybe, if the two worked together...