it’s so much easier to believe and stomach that he just simply learned to see and use his differences as an asset and grounded himself in that enough that he inwardly mirrors the persona he embodies outwardly but i don’t think he does. i think he leaves the house every day terrified of the moment he can’t keep it up any longer and he reverts back to that awkward lonely kid that no one wanted to spend time with.

and the thing that specifically made my heart hurt so bad is that that is the person who became the villain. that boy who cried because no one came to his birthday party and who had to put up a fight every day just to feel like he could be accepted by society (and still never truly was) eventually became the man who will do anything necessary to never feel powerless again. but the tragedy is that he is still putting on the face. he has to every day to run his business and lead his experiments and keep the respect and control of the city and to stomach all the terrible things he’s done.

He gets upset at the Justice Gang for brutally killing a rampaging Kaiju and not even attempting to find a way to move it or at least euthanize it more humanely.

The only time he raises his voice during Lois’ interview is when she digs into his interference in geopolitics, because people would have died if he hadn’t acted. The only time he yells at Luthor is when Luthor abducts Krypto. The only time he cries is when Luthor murders someone he barely even knew.