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I don't know how much to share about how I was doing when I reblogged this, but it wasn't good. Now, a year and a half later I'm happy to say that my life feels completely different than it did when I reblogged this.

I remember one night I just stared at the dark of my room and it felt like I was being swallowed by the emptiness of it. I was really desperate for connection and I was being really emo about it. I remember repeating "I'm surrounded by love" because I couldn't think of anything else to want.

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Two. It would mean THE WORLD to me if you would help me with something. The thing is, I’ve been at shifting for 6 years and have never shifted (embarrassing, I know). For the past year and 1/2 though I’ve gotten *serious* about this and tried persistently. My DR is practically identical to my CR. The only difference is that my retainers are in. Last year I had a little breakthrough where I was half asleep with my eyes closed and felt my retainers in (meaning…I was in my dr)! Then I would proceed to strain, or reach, try, whatever, to fully wake up in my dr, with NO success whatsoever.

I’ve recently come to the conclusion that I’ve probably just been lucid dreaming, and I’m wanting to pick myself up and move forward with a new way of doing this and succeeding! I’ve been having this near-shift/lucid dream experience for a year/over 50 times now and it has been hard. There have been many tears. I just want to be pointed in the right direction. Can I receive some guidance from you? Your thoughts on a routine I can do, anything? Honestly I just need help. If you don’t read this long ass, sad ask I understand, but if you have read it…thank you for hearing me and your (possible) thoughts! 🫶🏾

First of all, thank you so much for reaching out, and for your words(yipee), they genuinely mean a lot. Also, don’t worry about the length of your ask, I have time ahead of me, I’m not about to shift off to another just yet(or maybe?), so let’s break this down together.

Reading through what you shared, I see a lot of dedication and effort, and honestly, that’s super duper cool already. You’ve built up solid skills (lucid awareness, partial body sensations, affirmations, even some hypnagogic cues), that’s huge progress, don’t minimize it. It shows your subconscious is capable of vivid states, which is half the battle won.

I really recommend you check out my blog on "how to shift from a lucid dream" if you haven't seen it.

That said, here’s what I’m seeing as potential "blocks":

1️⃣ Emotional exhaustion & over-efforting

When you push too hard and need it to happen, you trigger hypervigilance, your critical faculty stays active. Think of it like a stubborn bouncer at the door of your subconscious. The more you knock, the more it says, “nope.” That’s why you hover in lucid dream states without a full shift: your nervous system is still in “try” mode instead of “allow” mode at the key moment.

2️⃣ Anchoring to the current body

Feeling your retainers or body details means your proprioception is still locked into your CR. That’s a super common partial shift symptom. Basically, your brain is keeping an anchor on this timeline because a part of you fears total identity disconnection (which is normal and protective).

3️⃣ Repetition frustration loops

Six years of attempts, and the stress of “it still hasn’t worked,” unfortunately train your subconscious to associate shifting with struggle, not ease. The subconscious is a pattern-matching machine, so that association can sabotage you, even if consciously you want success.

But what can you do then?

Take a real break. Stop trying for two to three weeks. I know that sounds scary, but it resets your nervous system. See it like a recalibration. During that pause, focus only on relaxing your body and mind.Do daily meditation without trying to shift just to observe your thoughts, learn to let go and take care of yourself.

Practice self-hypnosis, guided or by yourself. Instead of commanding “shift now,” do suggestions like:

“It’s safe to let go.”

"My subconscious is ready to explore new possibilities.”

“I trust my mind to guide me.”

Say these gently, while deeply relaxed, in a trance state.

You can also listen to this list of affirmations that I find very suitable for your case without trying to shift, just listen and integrate.

Talk to your subconscious directly.

Yes, literally. In a light meditative state, imagine sitting with your subconscious as if it were a person and ask:

“What are you protecting me from?”

“Is there something you need me to know before I shift?”

Then just listen to what pops up,even if it feels silly. Sometimes this reveals hidden fears.

(Remember you and your subconscious are one you are not separate)

You can also listen to that video.

Use more dissociative priming.

Instead of standard affirmations, experiment with:

-Yoga nidra

-Daydream rehearsals

-Hypnagogic imagery

→ These help unhook you from the CR identity without brute force.

->You can also go see my last post on holotropic breathwork.

Shift your language.

Replace “I need to shift” with “I’m exploring the path to shifting.”

Replace “I hope I shift” with “I am curious about how it happens.”

This tiny language change softens the critical faculty.

Last thoughts

You are close.You just need to guide it past the final resistance. And remember, your subconscious is on your side, it just needs to feel safe enough to release control.

I believe in you, truly. 🫶 And hey, if no one told you today: you’re doing an amazing job even trying, because showing up for yourself like this, again and again, is no small thing, sometime you don't need to do more you need to do less to catch that inner release.

If you want, you can message me again anytime with updates,you know I’ve got time.

When a new mental instruction is repeated consistently through subliminals, affirmations, scripting, or any intense reality-shifting method, the subconscious mind doesn’t just sit silently and accept the new identity. It responds. It activates. It begins to release the old constructs that no longer match the new reality being installed. That release can come in many forms: dreams, nightmares, trauma recalling, mental spikes, random thoughts, strange feelings, or even physical sensations. These are not warnings or misfires. They are signs of powerful rewiring happening behind the scenes. The subconscious, when confronted with new instructions, doesn’t debate or resist. It reorganizes. And the act of reorganizing a mental system that has operated for years in a fixed structure can generate temporary turbulence but that turbulence is not dysfunction. It’s evidence that something massive is shifting from deep within.

Most people make one big mistake here: they think anything they dream, see, or think during this process must have meaning. But during subconscious change, that’s not true. When old content comes up, especially in sleep or silent moments, it’s not the future. It’s not something to worry about. It’s just the subconscious surfacing stored responses and outdated programs, not to replay them, but to release them. It might use dreams as the outlet. It might use thoughts that seem random. These are not predictions of what will happen. These are echoes of what is being ejected. It’s the final breath of an old identity leaving the system. When someone dreams of falling, arguing, chaos, or seeing strange images, that does not mean anything is going off-track. It means the old story is crumbling. That’s how change announces itself internally, not through quiet comfort, but through unmistakable internal movement.

Here’s the example: When a person listens to a subliminal for beauty and begins affirming total confidence, new skin, or facial changes, the mind starts updating all the reference points it once held about appearance. If the subconscious held old memories or beliefs of not being enough or not being seen, those imprints will surface momentarily to be deactivated. The dream may contain scenes of rejection, invisibility, or transformation. But those are not negative signs. They are mental layers being peeled back. The dream isn’t showing what’s coming, it’s showing what is being cleaned out. That is the detox of the mind: a complete purification process disguised as a mental wave. There is no harm being done, only clearing. The person who sees this as a purge instead of a problem will move into the new state faster and more smoothly.

The nervous system may accelerate during this phase, heart rate may increase, attention may spike, awareness may heighten. All of that is useful. It signals increased focus and neurological reorganization. The body is syncing with the mind. When manifestation starts happening on this deep level, the entire being participates: the cells, the breath, the nervous system. The fear, if any is felt, is not real fear, it is power surging into the body, being misread as alarm. But it’s not alarm. It’s the arrival of new programming demanding immediate space. It is the presence of change accelerating forward and cleansing everything that doesn’t align with it. Your mind is not resisting the new reality, it’s just reorganizing to support it.

This same system works with any kind of manifestation method. Every system, when upgraded, must first release the outdated files. That’s what this is. The emotions, the dreams, the weird temporary feelings, all of them are just old files flashing on the screen before they’re permanently deleted. They are not here to stay. They are not the future. They are the leftovers being burned. And the most powerful thing someone can do is allow it without judgment. Let the mind do what it’s doing. Trust the system to cleanse itself. Do not label the process. Just continue holding the new state with clarity, with firmness, and with the knowing that this transformation is already complete, and everything that appears between now and the full shift is simply evidence that the bridge is being crossed.

how many of us have heard people say "the physical will catch up" or "the physical is just lagging" ? pretty much all of us right? but what if i told you it's not the physical that's lagging behind, it's EGO.

stay with me 🤓

first of all, the physical is a mirror. which means it reflects, INSTANTLY. knowing this, how can those above statements be true? idk abt yall but i've never seen a mirror wait to catch up to reflect or lag behind 🤨 it happens right away. so if you know this, why do you think the physical is any different? i'll tell you why -- ITS BCS OF THE EGO!

the physical always reflects instantly, the second you decide. its your ego that's the one lagging behind, still stuck on the old story.

example: you're manifesting $1k. once you decided that was your truth, the physical INSTANTLY conformed. maybe your boss has the idea to give you a raise, an extra $1k. or maybe a couple relatives are thinking about sending you some money as a gift, just cause they love you. it adds up to $1k. or maybe someone entered you into a sweepstakes with a prize of $1k. these aren't random actions, it's your imagination being reality.

now lets say you decide, but then look into the physical and see nothing. you give up, thinking "ugh it didnt work!! i still dont have $1k." and again, the physical conforms INSTANTLY. your boss changes their mind. the relatives have to pay for something else, so they dont have spare money to send. the sweepstakes gets cancelled.

see?? the physical DOES conform instantly. your ego just believes that bcs it didn't see it with its own two eyes, that it didn't happen.

lets say you didn't change your mind. you decided and moved on. the physical continues to conform. your boss starts the process for the raise. the relatives start pulling money from their bank. the sweepstakes starts picking winners.

say it takes 2 days. on the 3rd day, when the money actually reaches you, your ego thinks "omg it finally conformed! why did it take 3 days tho? i guess its a time lag." the ego believes it conformed after 3 days, when in reality, it DID conform instantly!! it just didn't recognize it since it relies so heavily on its senses ("seeing is believing").

it's stuck on the old story, but you, consciousness, have moved on to the new one. you know you have $1k because imagination is reality. you dont need physical proof. why would you? you know that the second you decide, it is done.

so the next time you think nothing happened and you don't have your desire, remember that's the ego talking. and you are NOT the ego!!

Side note ; Enjoy reading my reasons. Love you all

1. I yearn for true freedom, just like Luffy to be honest, and in this reality, I barely do that or don't have the resources to do what I genuinely want, shifting fixed that

2. I wanna drink, smoke, get high, and vape without the consequences of my body reacting badly to it because I can literally script that out

3. I NEED better parents who actually care about mental health it's as if so many expectations have been put onto me, and it's draining dealing with it 24/7 without shifting, I would simply be dead

4. I wanna experience a good healthy relationship and as wonderful as things get in this reality I still want to MORE

5. The job economy, self-explanatory

6. I wanna know what it feels like to be a first choice to someone, and I have access to that through shifting

7. I wanna feel more confident

9. I feel guilty when I meet a great person but then I have to script them into one of my drs because I don't plan on staying here or being aware of this reality for long as I will be respawning to my waiting room

10. I simply don't see the point in my future here as from my waiting room, I will be visiting my other realities from there and have no intention of returning

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you are under spells !! hexes !! curses !! your own mind is plaguing you !!!! stop. stop ! stop doing that to yourself. you can & you will shift or manifest a house in the south of france with two dog & a thriving flower garden. you will be drenched in diamond & million dollar bills if you believe you are.

celebrities & very wealth people aren’t these higher mystical beings they’re just people with jobs who have spilt their drink at a restaurant or couldn’t sleep in the middle of the night so they went downstairs to eat shredded cheese right out of the fridge. as someone who has been around extremely powerful & famous people without giving too much away, they’re just people who are not special or “gods favorite”. you’re not ugly, you’re jus post-op. you’re not untalented, you’re simply untrained professionally. you’re not doomed to be poor & not get your dream job, you just weren’t born into wealth with a ten year plan for you to become the biggest teen heartthrob set up for you at conception.