Corpo de Sol

And the trees are green

And all of those flowers

They multiple colors

Makes me happy

It's ugly

I can't think of anything else

You crowd my mind

I'm tired

June 29th, 2023

All the love I didn't receive

I wish I had given it to you

But how come I do that

You understand?

How come i do that

If I wasnt taught how

It hurts me cos I know you really deserved it

It hurts me cos I know I really deserved it

I mean, isn't it all already set?

Me and myself who never grew tall enough. But it ain't a surprise.

Nobody ever believed I could.

I wish someone believed me though.

I wish someone loved me for who I am.

Some people can afford to just be.

I can't.

I gotta be great I gotta be smart I gotta do everything people expect me to do.

And if I don't she will scream.

And if I do she will scream anyway.

I wish she didn't scream at her every day.

Fuck, that hurted so.

Until it didn't hurt anymore.

Until she was dead.

They have killed sunshine.

And I can't help but want her back.

But I don't know where she is gone.

I have no one in my back.

I miss miss sunshine.