Fawns over Deer

If you are on this blog, there's only two feasible questions you could be asking yourself that would make you come to this source: A) "Who made the funny post?" If this was the question you asked that is now answered by coming to this blog, you will be vaguely dissappointed to know that while this blog is abandoned, and I have emotionally grown quite considerably in the Past Ten Years and am no longer facing the sincerely terrible affliction known as Being A Dumb Teenager who's cringe in The Bad Way; I am still a Tumblr User!! but I'm *mostly* not making silly shitposts these days.

or B) well. See Above Post Title. If you are asking that question, you (typically) fell into one of two categories: People who did not know me on an actually personal level, and People who did- people I actively considered my friends, or people I hurt in my own confusion. To the former category; We are Adults, rapidly approaching 10 years after we all Graduated High School. You are looking up specific information on someone you effectively had only ever heard stories about or interacted with in passing. I am cringe, and free. Your oppinion on me actively means next to nothing. Kindly, and with all respect, Have you considered getting into birdwatching? crochet? learning HTML? Literally any other productive use of your time that's not perpetuating the rumor mill?

Now that my spiel to the peanut gallery is out of the way- if you even remotely feel as if you belong in the latter category: I would Actively and Sincerely like to extend my Apologies for the way I acted as a Teen.

The long and the short of my behaviour was that I was experiencing Big Emotions that I didn't have proper tools to communicate or understand, and Effectively took it out on everyone around me. Unfortunately, this is The nature of being an Immature Teenager going through things they didnt have the tools to verbalize except by lashing out at their peers. This is Not an Excuse. I should have realized and gotten my shit together, well before I finally did, and for that, I am Sincerely Sorry.

Anything Else on the insights of these Big Emotions that I feasibly could have to offer you is nothing more than an explanation, and, again, by zero means an excuse. The way I acted against you was rude and meanspirited, best case scenario. You didn't really deserve that!! School was hard for everyone, and I should have realized that, and not have been so self-centered and aggressive.

If I could know then what I know now, I would have been Nicer to you guys. I wouldn't have taken everything as a Personal Attack. There was a LOT that I couldn't control-- but that doesn't mean that, at bare minimum, I couldn't have just Chilled Out. Alas, hindsight is 20/20. I can't change the Fact I was immature and mean to you in Highschool. But I can apologize, and I am, because, at bare minimum, you DO deserve a Sincere Apology.

I am, slowly but surely, making amends where I can. I'm doing better, and I strive to be consistently better every day. You are by no means required to do anything about this apology. Hell, you don't even have to accept it! Lord knows you have EVERY right not to!

I'm going to be very honest- my memory is spotty, at best; but if you were one of my peers in School who feels hurt, and want a more personalized apology/explanation for what was going on, to put your own traumas at ease? Please feel free to reach out and just give me a nudge who you are. I'd be more than happy to rebuild a burnt bridge, starting with an olive branch, just as long as you are willing, too. and, with that, I think I can finally lay this blog to rest. Nothing particularly interesting or holy is contained herein. Just the ramblings of a kid in Highschool who barely exists as even a fraction of what they are today

But uh. yeah. If you recognize me from any of the below photos (these are just the ones I know people have mentioned) and have been speading weird and baseless rumors: Stop telling people im dead! There's a reason you can still hear my voice, dummy!!