Every dancer I’ve interacted with or just observed since working here is like every negative stereotype of gen z and vapid self obsessed la person it’s crazy they kind of make my skin crawl or idk I feel so small when I’m around them and then have to remember all of the self worth I’ve developed in the last few years

Every once in a while I’ll try an energy drink that isn’t Red Bull and they all suck and taste so artificial none can hold a candle to blueberry or tropical Red Bull or even the more mid flavors like juneberry

also im still listening to the playlist my subscriber made for me because its really good

I’m listening to music these last couple of days. modern vampires of the city by vampire weekend and grace by Jeff Buckley and yeezus and keep it like a secret by built to spill. I listen to albums

watching i shot andy warhol for the first time i love lili taylor so much

This month I’m hanging out with friends, lifting my little barbells everyday, going to the San Diego zoo, getting a huge chunk of my novel done, etc

built to spill is playing here in august and i want to go but were already going to another concert that i honestly dont even remember the band but its fine ive seen them twice but like i will have major fomo

If I do end up moving back to Florida I do plan on getting a surfboard and finally learning how to surf for real this time. Not like when I was 7 and my dad would force me to surf with him on his tiny surfboard and I would crash in the sandbars and cry. I do want to go surfing with him though it would be really healing for us