Cool Imogene

It takes no effort to miss the friends we didn't make and the work we didn't do the people we didn't do and the people we didn't marry and the children we didn't have. It is not difficult to see yourself through the lens of other people, and to wish you were all the different kaleidoscopic versions of you they wanted you to be. It is easy to regret, and keep regretting, ad infinitum, until our time runs out. But it is not lives we regret not living that are the real problem. It is the regret itself. It's the regret that makes us shrivel and wither and feel like our own and other people's worst enemy. We can't tell if any of those other versions would of been better or worse. Those lives are happening, it is true, but you are happening as well, and that is the happening we have to focus on.

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And this is when through the magic of the internet I met Phil and obviously we were more than friends but it was more than just romantic. This is someone that genuinely liked me. I trusted them and for the first time since I was a tiny child I actually felt safe and the relationship we formed at that point was something I needed in my life. We are real best friends, companions through life like actual soulmates (not that souls are a real thing that exists.) It's so lucky to find someone you can be that compatible with and especially to anyone that has experienced the kind of self-hatred that I've dealt with. One person accepting you can make all the difference...

After watching that 45 min masterpiece...