She/they/he | Plural system | DNI: Anti-Endogenic/Sysmed, more in pinned | Bodily Adult | hEDS and friends | that person interacting with your fandom blog is probably a fictive lol
Hi!!! We’re the Controlled Chaos Collective! We’re a mixed origin system with OSDD1-B that went into remission following EMDR therapy. Now we’re a functionally multiple! There’ll be more information about us below the cut, but the important stuff is our collective pronouns are she/he/they/pup, our collective name is Niv or just CCC, we’re bodily an adult, and we’re autistic and physically disabled. This blog is for the entirety of our system!
We don’t have a super strict DNI, but a rundown of some key discourse stuff will be below. the most important one is we are pro endogenic and willogenic systems!
Collective disabilities (some stuff will be left out for privacy): Autism, ADHD, Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, Dysautonomia, MCAS, and CFS/ME.
Collective Special Interests and hyperfixations: Formula one, minecraft, guinea pigs, medical science
System Info:
System Type: Previously diagnosed OSDD1-B, now in remission as a non-disordered plural!
System Origin: Mixed origin, some traumagenic some endogenic
System Modifiers: Multiple, cephaconscious, cytein, auti-impacted
Headcount: Unknown, but over 60, mostly fragments!
Frequent Fronters: Niv, Kimi, Dom, Libby, Logan, Oscar, Ollie, Arvid, Viv, Alex, Kai
Discourse Stances
Not everything we think will be here, just a few things we think are worth noting.
• we are VERY pro endogenic, willogenic/created, non-disordered, and non-traumagenic DID/OSDD plurals! we support using whatever terminology you(&) feel the most comfortable with!
• we don’t take a hard stance of shipping discourse of any kind.
• i didn’t realize this needed to be said, but no, MAPs and Zoos who are pro-contact aren’t welcome. However, having a paraphilia doesn’t make you inherently bad and non-harmful paraphilias or non-contact paraphiles are welcome. thought crimes aren’t real.
• Mspec lesbians and gay, and folks with similarly “contradicting” identities are amazing
• Disability isn’t strictly medical or strictly social, both models are pros and cons
• We don’t actually understand psychology all that well. All of psychology should be taken with a grain of salt, as our understanding can change in a instant and no theory will cover every person.
• you don’t need dysphoria to be trans
• dysphoria exists in more than the context of gender dysphoria
• your existence cannot be offensive, only your behavior
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A role for headmates who hold distrust or are more distrustful of people outside of their own collective. They may be more skeptical, paranoid, or simply just don't trust others as much. Also could be known as "Skeptic" for those who do not want an animal-related name.
and not in the way of wanting more people to have a dissociative disorder, but in the way of plurality being more accepted and known about.
and not just traumagenic plurality; all types of plurality.
everyone deserves a safe place to be themselves, which includes plurals of all kinds, no matter the origin.
we've known about our system for over 5 years now, and we've only managed to muster the courage to tell 2 people in our life about our plurality. we'd like it to be more, but we don't out of fear. fear of more abuse, fear of rejection, fear of abandonment, etc. Those fears are such common experiences throughout the system community that it's become a known problem, but by working to make the stigma around plurality disappear, we get closer and closer each day to a plural future. ♡
"our university has top notch buildings-" are they disability accessible?
"our lecturers are some of the best in the country-" do they know how to accommodate different learning styles? are they normal when a student has significant access needs?
"our historic campus buildings-" do they have working lifts? can they fit a powerchair?
"our research led curriculum-" is it accessible to mentally disabled people?
"our exceptional scientific equipment-" can people with limb differences use it? will you help them use it?
"our state-of-the-art sports facilities-" do you have a single sports club for disabled people? one sports wheelchair?
"we have over 400 societies" are a single one of them made by, for, and about disabled people?
"our student accommodation (housing) is cheap and modern and-" do you have wheelchair accessible rooms that aren't a million miles away from campus and/or really far away from any social events on campus? do you even have them at all?
"here's our prospectus and website and leaflet!" does it have a single mention of disability in it? outside of 'oh yeah we can accommodate you :)'
"here's how to access our support services!" do they involve having to communicate clearly to be taken even a bit seriously?
"here's how we can accommodate you!" okay but are disabled students an active and important part of your student life? are we anywhere to be found at social events, clubs and societies, (inter)national events, fucking *open days*?
i don't give a single shit how accomplished and modern your fancy pants russell group universities are if they don't accommodate disabled people. if i go to your university and almost cry because i feel so desperately, fucking invisible, that is on you. do better.
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kinda funny to me when anti-endos insist that endogenic & non cdd systems are just like having OCs and that their headmates aren't real because like. Say I did suddenly decide to stop calling myself a system/plural, and I decided that we were all just OCs: WHO THE FUCK is the real one??? because none of us can really point to ourselves as the "original" or the first, even the oldest of us have just kinda been here. None of us identify fully with the body or our collective identity/singletsona, so like. Genuinely who is it supposed to be if we're faking. Lmao
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shoutout to plurals who tried to do the thing where everyone was a color or something at the beginning and then quickly realized. oh fuck theres way too many of these bitches for that
btw this is not a universally agreed upon "symptom" of ADHD and I think many people would benefit from treating it as part & parcel of ADHD's broad, foundational trait: inability to do emotional regulation. A feeling of total rejection and terror at failure is a treatable and manageable issue. For me, I found it easier to manage once recognized that the reason I was having these reactions is that like many other emotional states, I couldn't "exit" an emotional state related to feelings of rejection once I was in it.
imo way too many people are going through life thinking they're just going to be sensitive to rejection for life because of how some people (not OP, but definitely plenty of ADHD influencers) talk about this "symptom." I don't think it's terribly productive that it gets constantly cordoned off as its own thing. like a lot of ADHD, while it sucks to have it shape your life up to the point you realize what it is, it is indeed possible to exposure therapy & DBT your way out of it.
signed: someone with ADHD who used to not be able to take critical feedback from anyone every and is now a freelancer and gets critical feedback three times before breakfast. still workin on it but it's very possible to go from "whiny crybaby disorder" to "mostly functional, if slightly sensitive ADHD adult"
I also think it's worth noting that rejection sensitive dysphoria is most parsimoniously interpreted as a trauma reaction—a learned response to a potential signals of social relationship deteriorating for reasons the ADHD person can't necessarily control. Social relationships are incredibly important to humans, and ADHD (especially undiagnosed and undisclosed) really sets us up to fail. This is especially true given that perceived social blame for stressful situations is a massive factor in transmuting stressful experiences into lasting trauma, and ADHDers are typically judged to be personally responsible for the failures that happen as a result of attentional, time awareness, or memory failures.
What conceptualizing RSD as a category of trauma response to social triggers does is allow us to treat it like any other trauma response. It pulls RSD out of the bioessentialist framework and into the realm of injuries that can be treated, learned associations that can be unlearned. It turns out that the same techniques that help with PTSD triggers, including the same damn meds (hi, clonidine), are effective for helping reduce RSD. (It also explains why RSD is also common in autistic people, who often have a similar history of social error and narratives of self blame, without requiring inherent neurological differences.)
It's a common kind of stress injury, basically. It's not Whiny Crybaby Disorder; it's more like shin splints. Getting better shoes for running, being careful about the ground you run on, and letting the splints heal properly can all help make shin splints go away when you've been running barefoot on concrete roads your whole life.
1) Vaping is confirmed to cause cancer. Vaping coats the lungs with toxic substances, such as heavy metals and benzene, which are known to cause cancer
2) Many vapes contain diacetyl, which, when inhaled causes popcorn lung, or scarring of the lung
3) Ultrafine particles, when being inhaled, can be lodged in the trachea (not good!)
4) Ultrafine particles can also constrict the arteries in the lungs potentially causing A HEART ATTACK
5) Vaping is relatively new. Not much studies have been done in comparison to tobacco. Plus, the vaping companies are powerful people. There is a large chance that they are purposely downplaying and even burying any evidence that vaping is harmful - just like the tobacco companies before them. They do not care about you, or your health, or the truth. They only care for money
Please I’m begging yall as an asthmatic, your fruit-flavored vapor will still give people around you who are smoke-sensitive attacks. So will weed. Don’t do it inside; if you’re at a bus stop or something try to not stand right next to people or move downwind of them if you can.
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pedestrians don't seem to realize how exhausting using a wheelchair is, both manual and powered. i had to wheel around a hospital today with several ramps i had to go up and down multiple times, and even with my smoov i ended up with shoulder and chest pain and deep exhaustion.
people look at wheelchair users and think "well you're sitting down all the time that doesn't take effort" no actually it does. pushing a manual chair takes a lot of fucking effort, especially without a power assist. repetitive stress injuries are a huge problem manual chair users encounter all the time. going up hills and ramps is so deeply fatiguing.
this doesn't just apply to manual chair users btw. power chair usage can also be really exhausting, especially for people with complex seating needs. going over bumps and cracks can trigger many symptoms such as spasticity, pressure sores are common, even just sitting upright can be exhausting for many people.
basically don't assume using a wheelchair takes 0 effort, it really really does. getting to "sit down all the time" doesn't mean it's easy.
If you're a singlet (someone who is not plural), I can guarantee you that you know at least one system offline. Probably, you know multiple systems.
Any of your friends or family members could be part of a system. Any of your classmates or coworkers could, too. Even your partner could be a system.
Plural systems usually do not announce our plurality. Because of the massive stigma around plurality, we try to pass as singlets. My system does this every day. My headmates have friends they've known for a decade who don't know we're plural.
It's said that dissociative disorders are very rare, but they're not. Trauma can and does happen to anyone. And many systems don't have dissociative disorders at all.
Systems are all around you. It's time to start treating us with the same respect you'd give anyone else.