one hell of a butler.

I'm sorry. When I came back, it was because of my Ciel, telling me to. I had no idea the extent of the situation, but I did come back. And I tried. But I didn't know then what I know now. And knowing what I do, I realize I just can't come back until everything is right again. The damage has been done.

I've lost friends here. Friends I really cared about. And I'm reminded of that every time I'm on this stupid blog. It really, really hurts. I end up crying every time I'm on this fucking blog, because I miss them so much. 

But in losing friends, I gained some too. I wish I could stay here for those friends, who stuck with me, who didn't betray me and who were there. Who kept their promises. Who didn't let petty emotions ruin friendships. But I can't. I miss the friends I lost too much, and every time I'm on here, I just dissolve into a fit of emotions. 

You win.

I'll be on my personal until I feel okay with myself again. To the people I was rping with, I'm sorry. I really am.