When did I become like this? Where in my life have I become so distant? Pushing away people important to me. Making excuses. Quiting the things that I love. Creating a deeper hole for me to crawl into. Craving a love so deep I can't feel my own pain, I don't want to be alone. Craving a love that doesn't give up on me. Craving a love strong enough to keep me up, to keep us up. Craving a love that showers me with love, enough to believe that I love myself. Craving a love..a touch that makes me feel safe and sound. No longer strong enough to hold myself up. I want to be strong, I don't want to depend on someone. I crave to love myself again. But have I ever really learned to do that? Teach me. I crave to know the feeling of happiness. Get me out this hole I'm in. I crave to be a part of my own life, a better life. A life where I am loved by my ownself, a life where I no longer feel darkness hanging over me. I crave to live. I crave to no longer live this life I've been living.