Very well, then, I contradict myself.

First thing to note: Hello, I’m Cecil, I use primarily they/them pronouns, but I’m not opposed to any others you could use in reference to me so long as you’re respectful about it. This blog is super low-activity, my priority at this time is my other writing group, I feel more connected to that right now. Which means if you send memes, it will take longer for me to respond, and I might be selective on which ones I respond to. (So you’re encouraged to send more than one meme at a time if you really want to interact tbh.) I do lurk, and I do check IMs, as well as being willing to give discord to people who’ve talked to me enough. I’ll be much quicker to say hello ooc than ic. But this is all low-activity for now.

This is a Nick blog, yes Lucifer’s vessel from SPN, no not at all like canon had him portrayed. I didn’t enjoy the characterization choices, and as such he will not at all be characterized like that unless specified otherwise for whatever reason. He’s completely different and essentially Canon-Averse in his divergence since I’ve written him for roughly 8 years now.

Carrd option HERE, Google docs options --> The Rules and Bio. All of that info is linked in my little bio thing, yes. I also have pages for them on my blog. But just in case you didn’t know, or didn’t really see them, or you’re on mobile, there are your options to read what you need.

I did originally say the hiatus would be indefinite. I ended up in a good, but strange headspace about that. Which is to say, I rebooted Nick again. But with a twist on how I plan on running it in comparison to how I have before. Because it’s quite different. 

But I feel any amount of even infrequent writing over there would be more beneficial to my creativity and mental health as a whole. As for the most part, it is a blog essentially meant to comfort and be gentle on me unless I’m feeling some kind of way about it.

It’s meant to be healing.

I don’t know which people will see it and think to follow, and I’m not particularly concerned either way, as I don’t necessarily plan on being high activity. But I liked the thought and decided “why not?” I don’t think I’ll reblog this too many times, it’s not a huge deal. And I’ll follow close friends initially as is for whenever I feel like posting or sending in a meme or whatever.

Consider this post an official indefinite hiatus.

As it stands before this point, being here has sometimes been a bit of a hit or miss on how it’s made me feel in recent months/the last year. I enjoy and adore the people I’m friends with and their characters, but it ended up being draining to attempt a lot of things if I wasn’t close to someone.

I love Nick, and I do love writing him. But it’s draining unless it’s with people privately who are genuinely interested, or it’s something I’m writing independently for myself.

Also I’ve been having a lot of fun over in my other writing group. It’s brought me back to a place where I feel my inspiration, creativity, and is making me feel a sense of satisfaction that I haven’t felt in a while. So it’s appropriate to say for now I’m on an indefinite hiatus.

I will lurk, I’ll occasionally read the brilliance on my dash, and I will say hi if someone else does. But unless you are truly and extremely interested in writing with Nick over IMs or discord, it will mostly be ooc hellos. Because that’s what I’m feeling.

But know that I do lurk, you’re all lovely and I’m happy to have you on my dash. I’m glad you’re all around even if I’m quiet about my own existence most days.

If ever you wanna just chat, because of the Lurking, I do check IMs and notifications for asks and things. So I’m open to chatting and saying hello as well as selective RP that feels good for all involved parties whether that’s meme based, random from your brain, or plot based. But I think I’m going to be extra selective about that side of things (not like private or anything. Just selective which things I’m willing to respond quickly to ic wise.)

I’d love to try and write Nick again more often, but I think if I’m going to do that I’m going to have to actively fresh-start myself on interactions so I don’t feel anxious that I’m “not doing enough.” So like officially any old threads of any length I’m dropping for my own sanity. New things are always cool. But only if you want, otherwise I’m happy to lurk and appreciate you all from the sidelines. But I do want to acknowledge my own existence more often OOC so it’s easier (or write weird little headcanons for my own fun) if I plan to write more often here.

While Nick is an eclectic person when it comes to music, like he’ll listen and jam to anything, there is one band he will, without fail, get very enthusiastically into... More than probably any other.

It’s ABBA. 

Celestial things sing. Smaller general angels are like something “in the same genre.” Other Archangels are “from the same album.” Lucifer himself is an unfortunate, matching harmony with what’s left.

[ nick saying 'twinsies' is the serotonin i needed today ]

A partner (who he maybe sleeps with, but definitely there’s a desire on all sides TO sleep together eventually regardless). He convinces them to let him give them a tattoo. And he offers it as a *wink wink* private session at night when it’s only them there together. It’s very clear on all sides that this is suggestive and there’s an option present.

So they go to his shop at night, he’s got them sitting in the tattoo chair, or on the little table thing, and he’s like, “haha, I don’t normally do it like this but it might be more comfortable, are you okay if I just...” And he like straddles their waist or whatever makes it that much more suggestive. And they’re agreeable to this. Hell they want this too. And if my meaning isn’t clear? They fuuuuck.